The first time I met love
I was on a delirious journey of DXM and Antihistamine
meaning I could literally die happy
the first time I kissed love
he wasn’t my love
he was supposed to be a forgotten one night stand
tucked into the memories of a self loathing 16 year old,
but love became so much more
he spoke art into my ears and molded me into his very own masterpiece
making me feel beautiful,
but the first time I experienced heart break with love
he kissed lies on my lips and tucked his secrets under my skin
knowing I wouldn’t scratch into the places he caressed
after awhile of knowing love and tasting all that he offered
I willingly let him sculpt me into the fool
I received his lies like they were love notes,
but I cried silently to myself wondering what I had done to scorn God
love and I we were completely unprepared in loving each other
I think we wanted desperately to cling to someone just as messed up as we were
and even though it’s over now
I still love him, I still love him, I still love him.
I oughtta shot that dog myself, George. I shouldn’t oughtta of let no stranger shoot my dog.
Oh, Lennie. I hope you’re out there somewhere in a field full of soft rabbits that have an endless supply of alfalfa and never suffer from your touch.
Of Mice and Men, my first foray into Steinbeck’s impressive body of work, represents story-telling and the American novel at its best. Steinbeck seamlessly intertwines complex themes like the Great Depression, the American Dream, racism, and sexism all through George and Lennie’s unparalleled male friendship. A quiet novel on the surface, the feelings evoked strike a chord that transcends time, thanks to its masterful pacing and heartbreaking ending that exposes the tragedy of life and the power of friendship.
At the end of the day, this Steinbeck quote is what it comes down to:
Try to understand men. If you understand each other you will be kind to each other. Knowing a man well never leads to hate and almost always leads to love.