mass effect saga

In which I explain why Mass Effect gives me existential crisis.

So, I’m about to go home and I have 4 days off and my roommates are still away until Jan 2nd. That means: gaming marathon!!!

BUT

I honestly have no idea how to do this…

I downloaded all the ME3 DLCs (the ones that matter anyway, Omega, Leviathan, Citadel and the Extrneded Cut. I already played the last 2) and I’d want to start a new Mass Effect character from ME1 and make all the right choices until ME3 but I don’t want to lose my old character that is like: a level 90 FemShep freaking awesome sniper with a freaking awesome spectre sniper rifle that costs 250000 credits that it took me a while to collect (on that note, is there a way to keep the old saved games if you play with the same profile!? Mine always disappear when I start a new game! I play on xbox360) and then I’ll have to go over ME1 all over again which is B O R I N G so I guess I'll just use Genesis in ME2 to make choices about ME1. It’s the same thing…

Yeah yeah, I know it’s not Martin. 

I also want to try for once in my life to let Ashley survive but then I feel guilty because Kaidan is the love of my FemShep’s life AND I’ll have to start a new game for Ashley to be alive. 

Also, it took me hours to kill my freaking clone in the Citadel DLC and I don’t know if I wanna put myself through THAT again. And OMG I’m gonna have to do the mission on Horizon in ME2 all over again I always die thousands of times there! Same with the mission on Rannock in ME3… fucking geth primes… (I always play difficulty level: insanity, and there’s NO WAY I’m gonna change that… It’s a matter of principle). 

Plus I’m gonna have to fight with my baby Kaidan… NOT COUNTING THE FACT THAT I DO ALL THIS ONLY TO ULTIMATELY DIE IN THE END unless I’m lucky enough to have enough paragon points to make the Illusive Man shoot himself and unlock the “final breath scene” on the Citadel that comes with the Extended Cut DLC

…can you believe I’m actually gonna have fun playing this after all?
*deep breaths deep breaths*