marie k. pascual

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Hey Marie, here is the documentary I told you about earlier. Thank you so much for your amazing suggestions today. It was a blast going deeper with you and Antoinette!

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Paper, iridescent paint, ink, and graphite on board

8" x 8"

2013

This is one of my submissions for the upcoming cat-themed exhibition (juried by Martha Rich!) the CSUN Painting Guild is putting together. It’s a bit of a deviation from the types of things I normally post, but I enjoyed working on this nonetheless. 

Questions for the Cis-Viewer from a Genderqueer Artist, Marie K. Pascual. Marker on paper. 2013.  

How do I make art? How do I make art that is compelling and honest and raw? How do I make art without being typecast as that “one queer artist”? How do I make art that doesn’t need  to be a reminder and a justification for my being and my existence? How do I make art that does not require me to remind you I am not a woman? How do I make art when my professors and friends and classmates misgender me? How do I make art without the need to educate everyone about trans* and nonbinary identities? How do I make art when no one seems to care or no one wants to learn? How do I make art when my critiques are based on cissexism? How do I make art without having to talk about cissexism and straight privilege without simple because even art is built upon gender binaries? How do I make art without having to tell you that there are more genders that just male and female? How do I make art that encourages you to think instead of it encouraging me to simply educate you? How do I make art without being branded as an “other”? How do I make art that allows me to just make art without feeling pressured to “play it cis”? How do I make art when other artists try to “understand” but they just trigger and misgender me? How do I make art when artists still look at vaginas and think it is a symbol for women? How do I make art without it being a means for me to call out all the transphobic shit I see IN the art world? How do I make art without having to remind you every five minutes that not every woman has a vagina and not every man has a penis and not everybody you meet is either male or female? How do I make art that is a real depiction for all identities? How do I make art that is more than an explanation for my queer existence? How do I make art that is more than a lesson for people to learn – even though those people would not have educated themselves about any of this anyway? How do I make art that encourages you to be aware of the existence of “invisible” artists who do not fit into your fucking binary?!? How do I make art without people telling me to just shut up and to just deal with it and to just get over it? How do I make art that even straight, white, cis-people will understand and take seriously? How do I make art that straight, white, cis-people will want to include into shows? How do I make art if there are very little safe spaces for queer and trans* and other nonbinary identities to create their own opportunities? How do I make art that can exist next/alongside somebody’s art who is cisgender and/or straight?  How do I make art that is more than a fight for queer recognition? How do I make art that will you will want to see in person? How do I make art that will be respected? How do I?