march 2014

I tried kumquats for the first time the other
day and I did not like them.
They told me I was supposed to eat them whole,
skin and all.
This confused me.
Listen, I know I said I was not easy to love.
I think I was wrong.
I am very easy to love, but very hard to keep.

The Earth is tilted 23.5 degrees away from the
plane of the ecliptic.
I do not know what this means,
but they told me if the earth was tilted any closer or any
farther away, we would either catch fire
or freeze to death.

If you love me any more than you do right now
of if you begin falling out of love with me,
I will either leave or love you harder. I do not make the rules.
I do not tell my heart how to beat or how to love,
just because it becomes painful.
They do not tell the sun to follow the earth
so it can stretch its oceans and fault lines
without fear of death.

Most days I think I will be alone for the rest of my life.
I never know how to feel about this.

— Amanda Helm, Where Do You See Yourself in Five Years?