i'm just tired of this.

I’m tired of thinking of you.  I’m tired of thinking that everytime we all hang out in a big group that you will be there. I’m tired of you not texting me first anymore. I’m tired of you seeming like you don’t care anymore. But i’m tired of myself. I’m tired of wasiting my time and putting in extra effort to make you happy. im tired of thinking about you all the time knowing i probably havent crossed your mind once. im tired of just reading old conversations and looking through old messages because i miss you so much. i dont get how i like you so much to. i really dont get it and its bothering me. alot. i feel like right now. if something were to happen it would happen by now. please god. let something good happen. im just so tired of waiting.