peter was a marauder, too.

i think that’s important to remember, when you think of the marauders. peter was there too. it wasn’t just james and sirius’ pranks, remus’ slightly more reticent nature. peter was alongside them in that time, no matter what he would go on to do later.

when you imagine the marauders, remember peter. remember the meek boy who idolised james and sirius, who learned under their wing. remember that he was there too, the child who would later break them apart, laughing and joking along with those who would later be crowned as heroes. it is easy to write him out of this history, to minimise his presence to a skulking hanger-on. but he was wormtail when that name wasn’t linked with evil; one of the three who learned the most difficult magic to help out their friend, who mapped an unmappable building, who achieved more than their teachers had ever suspected. peter was there, and he was in the middle of it. it is easy to imagine him as being a traitor before he betrayed them, but the truth is that it could happen to anyone whose will is not strong enough. peter snapped under the pressure, but he had the same promise as any of them. peter was a marauder until he made the most vile of mistakes.

four boys, together under the golden sunlight. tomorrow they would be separated - one dead, one imprisoned, one a traitor, one left alone. but when they were the marauders they were four, and we would do well to remember that.

  • James: Don't be such a drama queen!
  • Sirius: I can't!
  • Sirius: My mascara would run.
  • James: You don't wear mascara.
  • Sirius: True. Perfection requires no alterations.
  • Peter: I've seen you wearing eyeliner.
  • Sirius: I've seen you eat an entire cake in one sitting.
  • Peter: Your point?
  • Sirius: Enhancing eyes or enhancing thighs. Who's the real winner?
  • Peter: Me? I had an entire chocolate cake.
  • Remus: Peter has a point.
  • Draco: *is at home, alone with all the lights out*
  • Phone: *rings*
  • Draco: hello?
  • Person on phone: I can see you
  • Draco: how does my hair look?
Dear Journal,

This morning Sirius wanted to talk. Regulus, Teddy and Sophie were downstairs in the library. He looked concerned. He was playing with a sheet of paper.

“What’s wrong?” I said, sitting down at the table.

“We got a letter from Dumbledore.” Sirius said.

“What about? As something happened?” I asked getting worried.

“No.. everyone is fine.. for now. You remember how we told him we couldn’t join the order because we were building our family?” Sirius asked.

“Yes..” I agreed, feeling scared of what he would ask.

“Well, Dumbledore always said I would be a great asset to the spying team since i’m an animagus..”

I instantly cut him off.

“Don’t tell me you want to join the order?!” I said, panicking.

“No.. no.. he just needs me to spy on some death eaters for some information.. It will take a day not more.” Sirius said.

I sighted and stood up from my seat, Sirius mirroring me. I rubbed my temples and clenched my jaw.

“What if something happens?” I said, almost a whisper.

“They won’t know i’m human..”

“Pads anything could go wrong!” I said, a bit too loud.

“I’ll be careful.”

“WHAT IF YOU GET KILLED? I CAN’T RAISE TEDDY ON MY OWN.” I yelled, tears forming in my eyes.

“Babe.. I’ll come back I promise..” he said, putting his hand on my shoulder.

I sat on the floor and he hugged me close to him. The tears were now running free down my cheeks.

“I won’t be able to live without you.. if you die.. the good part of me dies too..” i said.

“Babe.. I’ll be okay. I’ll have backup. I just need to get information. Remus if I succeed, we could end the war.. Teddy could grow up in a better world.” He said.

“But what difference does it make if your not in this world anymore?” I sobbed.

Sirius had glossy eyes too. He wanted to show me how strong he was.

“Let me tell you one thing. If there’s something I can do to change the terrifying world the two person i love most live in.. I would do anything. I promise i’ll be back. I promise i’ll be careful. If it gets too dangerous, I’ll stop the mission. I need to do this Re.. I promise you, i’ll be okay.” He said, his grey eyes never leaving mine.

“You promise?”

“I promise.”

And two hours later, he was gone. He had left with three other aurors that are in the order. I sat on the couch with Teddy in my arms. He had no idea of what was going on. His Padda could never walk through that door ever again and he had no idea. I put on some teletubbies so he would be distracted from my nervousness. Regulus heard all the screaming. Apparently he also had a fight with Sirius about it. It was dangerous out there. I wanted the night to come fast. I couldn’t read, I was way too nervous. Before leaving, Sirius gave a big kiss on Teddy’s forehead. I knew he was fighting back the tears.

“Padda?” Teddy said, wondering why his father was leaving when he told us not to go outside.

“It’s okay my Teddy bear. Padda will be back when you’ll be asleep. I love you my baby.” He said, bitting his lip not to cry.

“Lowe you too Padda.” Teddy said.

I watched him leave through the window. I could tell he broke because he was wipping his eyes. He didn’t want to do it, but he knew it was for the best.

I waited until the sun came down. Merlin I never thought I’d be so happy to see the moon. I put Teddy to bed in our room. We hadn’t moved his crib because it’s still not safe and we wanted to check on him. I was sitting by the window, hugging my legs close to my chest. He was late. Only by a few minutes but still. I knew he would come back. He promised me. Sirius always keeps his promises. I was listening to my breathing when suddenlty..

“I held my promise.”

It was him. I turned around and there he was, standing in the living room. I ran to him and jumped in his arms.

“Merlin I love you.” He whispered.

“You’re late, I was worried sick.” I whispered, silent tears running on my cheeks.

“Well Dumbledore wanted to thank me and he wouldn’t stop talking! Merlin I just couldn’t wait to come home to you.” He said, as we sat on the couch.

“How was it? Did you get hurt?” I asked, my hands on his cheeks.

“No. They never found out I wasn’t a dog. And I got loads of information. Dumbledore said the war could end soon thanks to me.” He smiled.

“I’m sorry about this morning.. I just love you so much.. I didn’t want you to get hurt and..”

“It’s okay.. believe me I would’ve done the same if it was you. It’s already forgotten.” He said, kissing my lips.

“Let’s go to bed. It’s late.” I said, feeling light as a feather.

We walked to our bedroom and slowly opened the door. The room was lightened by a babylight. I looked at Teddy’s crib and there he was, stood up, holding the bars in his two small hands.

“Padda!” He said, extending his arms for Sirius to hold him.

“Oh my Teddy bear, I missed you.” Sirius said, hugging him close to him.

“I lowe you Padda.” He whispered with his baby voice.

“I love you too my baby.. I love you both.. my two boys.” Sirius smiled looking at me.

And tonight, Teddy got to sleep in our bed.

April 27th 1978

bad day with the marauders ;

• waking up tired
• getting stressed over schoolwork
• not feeling good enough
• being lethargic all day
• slowly making your way to the common room
• walking in and seeing the marauders
• giving them a sad smile
• them immediately knowing something’s up
• remus walking toward you for a hug
• you immediately breaking down
• the rest of them join the hug
• them taking you to their dorm
• you laying on james bed
• changing into sweats and sirius’ band shirt
• remus offering you caramel chocolates
• peter grabbing your favorite book
• sirius running his fingers through your hair
• james softly humming to you
• knowing not to ask, but just being there
• eventually all of you are on james bed
• james on your left
• remus on your right
• sirius’ head in your lap
• who knows where the hell peter went
• all of you falling asleep
• waking up hours later
• sneaking to the kitchen for hot cocoa
• cracking jokes for the rest of the night
• knowing they would do anything for you
• and them knowing you would do the same