i don’t think i’ve ever mentioned this on here, but i’m a singer songwriter. the other night i finished a song inspired by hannah and normally i would post a new song on my main blog but i felt like maybe you guys would appreciate it more. whenever i post originals, i try to include a little backstory so here’s the story for this song… basically i’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for a long, long time. i’ve been self harming for the past 2 years and i recently hit a super low point and slipped up pretty bad and my parents found out about what i’ve been doing. i had tried so hard to keep it from them so i was scared shitless when they finally knew. i thought the world would start crashing down on me but surprisingly that wasn’t the case at all. like i said, it’s a pretty recent thing but i’m already starting to see that things can get better, which is something i didn’t think would ever happen for me. i know it’ll be a long road but i don’t feel as stuck as i did before. one thing that hannah has said that has stuck with me during rough times is “the feeling you have is not forever, it’s just for now”. it’s something that i try to remember even though it has often felt like maybe what she was saying didn’t apply to me and what i was feeling really would last forever but what do you know, hannah was right. it’s not forever. my guitar had started collecting dust while i was in that low point but i was inspired to write a song based off some of the things that hannah has said that have helped me. i slightly reworded things to make them flow/make sense in the song but you’ll know which quotes i chose. i mixed that with my own words of advice/things that i would like to hear when in a slump. it’s just a work tape aka it was recorded on my phone with garageband so it’s not super amazing quality but i think it’ll do the job. with all of that being said, this is called “just for now”
it would mean the world if hannah listened to it, so if you like it or at least think it’s not complete shit and want to maybe help spread it around/tweet/tag hannah in it then that would be so so amazing.
mydrunkkitchen if you happen to see this, thank you thank you thank you.