Anina, maharlika

Anina is an Earth elemental and sister to the rest of the element holders. She grew up understanding the ways of the Catalonan, the ancient priestesses of the land of gold and was able to harness the power of the Earth–by moving the largest chunks of rock and earth, to being able to control plants with roots big enough for her to control. She used to be a Mandirigma, the warrior class, but retired from her post to focus on being a Catalonan. Despite that, she still trains her mind and body everyday to keep it fit for fighting. In her homeland, she is also able to communicate with the earth spirits known as the Anito.

She is a pure-blooded Filipino native and speaks fluent Tagalog and the dialect of her origin, Ilocano. Despite the change of times, she still upholds the traditional beliefs and with her gained wisdom, helps those who seek it. She harbors an old soul that has been reincarnated through various other Catalonan before her, which makes her speech similar to the elders, and also results to her disinterest to the modern living. She is calm, quiet and would often only show expressions as a response, having been taught by the elders to keep her mouth shut unless spoken to. She then grew up harboring a serious demeanour and maintains a premature gravity. Physically, she is 21 years old. 

Anina is overly fond of plants and spends most of her time sleeping on top of trees, under rocks as long as it’s with vegetation, across flowery fields and vines. If not, she spends her time talking with the Anito, and other various elementals which nobody else sees except for her. Despite all her power, she is particularly weak to ice, thus being afraid of it. 

Her main weapon is the Kampilan, and her animal companion is a female python named Ahapon.

Although appearing distant, Anina is very loving towards her sisters and would not hesitate to use her full potential to protect them (although honestly she thinks they’re pretty much formidable themselves!). All the more, she is very much willing to teach them what she knows and would gladly be /literally/ the rock they could hold on to.

Encantadia what happened to you?

Credits to my bessies who gave me the idea to post this 😘

The many rant-worthy sh*ts of Encantadia 2016-2017:
These are my thoughts on Encantadia 2016-2017 so far and why I seem to be uninterested lately.

The Amihan-centric first season

-This is where all the shits began. Back in 2005, the story revolved around the four sisters who conquered their differences and saved Encantadia against Hagorn’s forces and became the most well-known and well-loved guardians of the four elemental gems. Now I’m not gonna be biased and say that the first season of the original trilogy didn’t have their own fair shares of Amihan-centricness, and it is unavoidable since Amihan was the queen the during the first season so a huge part of the story will be about her, BUT the original book DID NOT FORGET that there are other main characters in the show and they had the chance to tell everyone their story, each of the sang’gres were given the spotlight, they had their own struggles, and showed how they overcame it to become pillars of Encantadia. That was the very reason why the original sang’gres were loved and recognized equally and became such effective quartet of heroines. The biggest mistake this new version has ever committed was making Amihan the center of the story, and while it’s not bad to give Amihan’s character a lot of scenes since like I said, she was the queen in book one so naturally her character will be involved in so many things that happened in the first book, but they focused on Amihan’s story way too much to the point that it degraded the other main characters ESPECIALLY Alena, she turned into this useless, lovesick, self-centered sang’gre who’s always MIA, and who by the way contributed very little to the story’s progress (in general). Danaya was way too dependent on Amihan back then instead of Danaya being Amihan’s anchor and shoulder to lean on when she needed it the most, that role was given to Ybrahim when the YbraMihan love team rose to fame, and as much as I love YA, I couldn’t help but feel sorry for Danaya’s character to be downgraded in such a way that she was remembered as Amihan’s sidekick. The team has been heavily implying that there are four main characters in the story, but for me, there was only one. I love Amihan, but Encantadia is not just about her story or the love story of Ybrahim and Amihan.

The inconsistent storyline, The Unforgivable Plot holes and Plot fillers

A. Lira, the so-called savior of Encantadia

-I remember before that Cassiopeia mentioned that Lira will become the savior of Encantadia and will become queen in 2005, Lira wasn’t the typical hero, but what made her “savior” is that she was the one who mended the broken relationship of the sang’gres, she was the one who made the sisters realize that family is more important than anything, she saved Encantadia by saving the sang’gres, she united all of them together (which also paved way for the gems to become one again) and faced their common enemy, Lira became queen but relinquished the throne in exchange of a peaceful life with Anthony in the mortal world. But it was forgotten in this new version, sure Lira became the sisters’ conscience at some point of the story, but her story especially in the first book told the viewers that she was an epic-fail sang’gre, the irony of her character was interesting, and while her failures were understandable except for those times when she was being ridiculously stupid or just plain stupid, the story this 2016 version never emphasized how she became Encantadia’s hero, Lira playing a pivotal role for Pirena and Alena’s character redemptions wasn’t heavily implied in the story, Pirena redeemed herself after choosing to kill Hagorn and succumbed to Ether’s curse as a consequence in order to save Mira. Alena solely redeemed herself by choosing to let go to heal herself from pain, it was more on the sisters’ choices to redeem themselves and although at some point Lira became their guide, this little heroine focused more on shipping her parents way too much than reaching out to her Ashtis or coming up with “mischievous” ideas to bring the four of them together was cut down to a handful of scenes. She seriously would have used her playful character to come up with something to make the sisters realize how much they still love each other despite of their dispute. Lira was like, “Ashti, come on team up with your sisters to fight the baddies” instead of making them realize or point out what was wrong which will eventually lead to Pirena and Alena’s self-realizations, like hello? Alena was alone most of the time and found comfort in Awoo, Lira’s persistence would have been more emphasized in that timeline. Lira is a very wise kid, she was the eye-opener to everyone, she think and act the way she did because of the many struggles she went through, but in this new version, she turned into a forever fan girl of her mom. She wasn’t even given the chance to step out of Amihan’s shadow. And in the end, it was Amihan and Kahlil who saved Encantadia and brought the evil Hathoria down, in contrast to the sisters fighting together with the Sapirians, mandirigmas, and other encantados who by the way would have joined the battle because of Lira’s efforts (remember in the original series? Lira was the one who convinced the other encantados like the barbaros and adjantaos to join them in the war against Hagorn), Lira’s weapon to save Encantadia was her heart, Lira was the symbol for unity, that  was the very reason why I loved her character as much as Amihan’s. In this series, Lira was a hard-core shipper of her parents and DanQuil, she clinged on her mother way too much, and forgot that she had an entire realm to save.

B. Cassiopeia’s incompetence
-This is probably one of the biggest plot holes in the entire show. That episode made the viewers believe that it was an accident, unintentional, blah, blah, blah. No, it was just Cassy’s stupidity. She knows and she’s fully aware that the Etherians are evil, being able to live during their reign, she had her own doubts about Avria’s peace-making act, she knew that Ether has been keeping a close eye on her, and yet she failed to grant protection to the island to prevent intruders from finding them. But what really frustrated me is the fact that she failed to realize that she just spread information to a fake Danaya, the sang’gres have a chance to win against the Kubur, they even would have figured out that monster’s weakness even without her, the youngsters have very limited skill and power, and if she sees them as saviors, wouldn’t it be more appropriate to save their lives first?

C. The epic fail adventures of the seven guardians
-They made us see how this whole set of new guardians thing unfold, yet this subplot ended so badly which is another factor why the show was brought down to it’s worst. They say it was major plot device, they wrote this story so badly for what? Give way to nonsense plot fillers like the finding Haliyah thing?

D. The promised “character developments” for Lira and Mira
-I’ve had enough grand comebacks, they promised character developments for Lira and Mira yet they killed their characters, if they were up to something for these two, I don’t think killing them was necessary, it’s bad enough that Amihan died in the show and the next generation of heroines perished as well. I did not see how Lira and Mira evolved from immature diwanis to being sang’gres, I wanted to see their transformation from being girls to women, I wanted their story to be just as great as the four sang’gres. I don’t know what the hell are they up to, but this season is more sang’gre-centric than a balance between the stories of the current and future guardians. Major plot device they say? I’d say it’s their lame way of getting people’s attention because the sarkosi plot did not work.

D. The golden hourglass theory
-How can Pirena not realize that if Avria kills Alena and Danaya she can just turn back time and kill the bitch after saving Lira and Mira? I don’t see the whole point of this, and I therefore conclude that this is an arc filler, bow!

E. The sarkosi plot
-Like I said this is probably the reason why they had to come up with a major plot device, because this subplot is the REAL EPIC FAIL in this story. Amihan was given the prize to create her own destiny which turned out to be a curse, now here’s the thing, if Ether is able to resurrect a thousand-year-old Etherian using her power and the brilyante, then why can’t Emre do the same? I know this plot was necessary for Kylie to leave the show without Amihan’s story being left hanging, but still, seriously? If Emre is the god of life, shouldn’t he have granted Amihan another shot at life without her going through some shit and be a sarkosi or “creating her own destiny?” And why did it take so long for that to happen? Then Arra would have had more time to improve, and if Amihan was given that extraordinary privilege, then why didn’t Emre allow her to go back when Amihan asked him back then? That plot hole is so obvious. And in addition to that, I’m just not buying the Ybriana romance because it seems rushed and not well thought of, even Ariana being motherly to Lira is just, no. Honestly this would have been an interesting subplot if they casted an actress who can play Ariana’s character a million times better than Arra.

F. The lame and unconvincing love triangle
-I just feel so bad for Ru and Joross, these gentlemen are really working hard to cover up the lacking which Arra’s supposed to provide. I’m sorry but I consider this more of a plot filler than a subplot.

G. The poor characterization of the supposedly interesting characters
-Ariana: I wanted to kill her so badly when she let Lira die. Just when she needed to be Amihan-mode the most. Kapal pa ng fez para umaligid kay Rama ‘king ina, there was neither guilt nor trauma in her, she never thought of apologizing to Ybrahim and admit her pagkukulang, in short punyeta.
-Muyak: disappointed that she didn’t even felt that urge or desire to seek justice for her beloved Lira whom she looked after eversince she was a baby, I liked her when she was a lambana, but now—I’m not so sure.
-Pao Pao: what have they ever done to his character? He was such a joy when he was a little boy, so brave and optimistic. When will he stop being a useless jerk?
-Avria: All baddie, but they never really narrated her story the way the original Avria’s story in the original Etheria was told, if it weren’t for Ms Eula’s acting, Avria would have been an epic fail.
-Alena in book 1: the queen of MIA
-Memfes: a major plot filler, I know Encantadia loves to make surprises, but some stories or characters doesn’t need a grand introduction, seriously just who the hell is he?
-Hagorn: they just turned him into an all out psycho, this would have been the perfect time to redeem his character and see his good side. But RaquiMin is returning so…

The Endless introduction of nuisance characters and their REALLY BAD choices of actors

Arra San Agustin (Ariana)- she will always be the A-lister among the worst cast members in the show, you don’t have to read my reviews about her to know the reasons why, just watch her scenes, and the narrative of her character. I encourage you to do it.

Jinri Park (Juvila)- Juvila is my fuckin’ favorite Heran what the hell?! And she was Amihan’s mortal heran enemy too. Why are they doing this to me?! Clearly Jinri Park is not fluent in Tagalog and speaking En-chan would have saved her face in the show, but Jinri is far from Conan Stevens who played Vish’ka (and he was awesome btw). She’s struggling even in En-Chan which another factor why she is ineffective as Juvila aside from her bad acting, because she’s supposed to sound fluent in that language, like Arra, she seems to be reading the script. Learn from Solenn girl!

Lance Serrano (Memfes)- he’s good at acrobatics, he’s cute, that’s all.

Valeen Montenegro (Haliyah)- not complaining her performance but her character is clearly introduced just for the sake of it, most useless character ever.

There are so many other things I can add but these are all I think that are necessary to point out, hopefully Mine-a’s return will redeem the show, because at this point of time, I’m so done with the usual “soap writing.” The twists are clearly shocking and unexpected, but what came after the twists were truly disappointing, introducing of new characters and re-introducing old characters especially pivotal ones should be given to REAL actors not some “raw talents” who’s raw talent I don’t actually see. We are no longer in July 2016 when the show is just starting, we are on the near-end of the saga and this is Encantadia, I don’t settle for less when it comes to this show. I expected so much in this season but they took everything I have rooted for and gave me some really uncool storyline and torture me with some lame performances. Everything is just disappointing, where’s Kylie when the show needs her the most?

P.S. I want Lira and Mira back too.

Pre-colonial!Philippines headcanons for El Noli:

(Warning: talagang shippy ‘yung ibang parts, lalo na sa mga bias ko.)

  • Babaylan si Sisa. Kapag nasasapian siya, paraan ng pag-prophesize ‘yun. Siyang pinakamagaling na babaylan sa tribo ng San Diego.
  • Elias is the hottest Pinatdo sa buong isla. (Ayon kay Ibarra.)
  • Anak ng datu si Ibarra, pero ayaw niyang makipaglaban. He wants to help heal ‘yung mga mandirigma kasi takot siyang pumatay
  • Ibarra is the head healer ng tribo ng Sand Diego. Apprentice niya sina Basilio at Paulita Gomez. 
  • Si Tandang Pablo ang isa sa mga pinaka-skilled na mangaaso at mangingisda sa tribo ng San Diego.
  • Si Pilosopo Tasyo ay babaylan din. Yes, he crossdresses for this.
  • Si Padre Florentino ang Alagar at si Donya Geronima ang Katalonan. (Ang ‘Alagar’ at ‘Katalonan’ ay close to the modern priest and priestess. See, sa panahon ng pre-colonial, puwede maging pari ang babae. So, yeah, salamat sa Roman Catholic dahil ninakaw nila ang karapatan ng babae na maging pari ngayon. -_-)
  • Si Tiya Isabel/ Sabel at Maria Clara ay mga guro bago pa dumating ang mga Kastillang prayle o Thomasites. While the men hunt for food, ang mga babae ay nagtuturo kung papaano bang maging mabuting mamamayan sa kabataan. They teach hunting (pangaaso), pangingisda, pagsasaka, pagluluto, pagkukwento ng epiko (kasaysayan ng kanilang mga bayani), at pagtatanghal. Yes, they know how to do ALL these things, siyempre. 
  • IMPORTANT: Healer si Paulita kasi mandirigma si Juli. (IMPLIED JULITA PO. <3)
  • Si Paulita ang ‘senpai’ ni Basilio under Ibarra. Mas magaling at nauna si Paulita sa larangan ng paghilom. She was destined to take care of Juli. Awtsu. <3
  • Before, si Basilio ang taga-gangsa (gong ringer; for lack of a better term). Siya at si Crispin ang taga-alarma ng tribo gamit ang mga gangsas at dabakan (gongs and drums; its an indigenous instrument). This is used for warning Halimbawa: may paparating na kalaban, o may wild beast bigla, lagpas-tao na ang baha, atbp. Puwede rin for other purposes, halimbawa: pagsamba (’yung time of worship nila sa mga diyos at diyosa), o kapag may pista, o may dula/ tanghalan 
  • Ngayon, sina Tadeo at Juanito ang taga-alarma. Nawawala na kasi si Crispin… Juanito sa gangasa/ agong; Tadeo sa dabakan.
  • Si Crispin ‘yung bata na napakaamo sa mga hayop. Kahit mabangis na hayop, kaya niyang alagaan. (May inuwi siyang tigre sa bahay kubo noon. Nahimatay si Sisa.)
  • Dahil sa kabubuhat ng malaki’t mabigat na gangsa, naging kuba si Juanito. 
  • The place/ shed where the gangsa and dabakan are kept, malapit sa kubo ng mga Penitente. Therefore Placido and Juanito almost always sees each other. (IMPLIED PENILAEZ PO. <3)
  • Si Placido ay well-known scribe sa tribo. Iskolar ng bayan tribo siya. At tulad ni Isagani, siya ang isa sa pinakamabilis magsulat (ng baybayin, siyempre) at mag-isip. 
  • Special skill ni Isagani nama’y pagiging story-teller. All the kids love his stories! They all listen. (Mesmerized din si Basilio hihi. IMPLIED BASAGANI, OP KORS. <3)
  • Isagani definitely writes love poems para kay Basilio. Sisa accidentally read one letter, at masaya na lang siya para sa kanila. (BASAGANI AY KANON PO)
  • Same thing happened with Kapitan Andang (nanay ni Placido). May nabasa siyang unsent love letter ng anak niya, para kay Juanito Pelaez. 
  • Tadeo tries to write for his bebe labs, Pecson, pero… tinatamad siya e. HAHA. (IMPLIED TADECSON. I’M SORRY PECSANDOVAL SHIPPERS BWAHAHA.)
  • On the other hand, Pecson cooks amazingly, mapaprito o mapaihaw. (Figures why he’s a bit chubby? Kyut.)
  • Badass babes: sina Salome at Juliana ay side-by-side sa labanan. Magaling si Salome sa bolo (isahan o doble armas), at si Juli naman sa sibat (long-range attacks).
  • Lahat sa tribo ay marunong mag-arnis. Tinuturo sa kanilang lahat. Required PE, bale. CHOS.  
  • However, si Isagani at Placido, sinakripisyo niya ang pagiging mandirigma para sa trabaho ng makata. 
  • Sina Elias at Ibarra ay may night-time private sessions sa pag-aaral ng pakikipaglaban. (Kasi Ibarra sucks at arnis, ayon kay Clarita.) Doon sila sa tabing-dagat nag-eensayo, para hindi kita, sa ilalim ng liwanag ng buwan. Napakaromantiko, ano?
  • Si G. Rafael Ibarra ang nag-suggest na turuan ni Elias si Ibarra na makipaglaban. Pero, naturuan lang ipaglaban ang pag-ibig nila. AYYY. (SIYEMPRE KANON DIN ANG ELIBARRA PO.)
  • Magaling lahat ng binata (Basilio, Isagani, Juanito, Placido, Macaraig, at Tadeo) mag-swimming. Except si Pecson, na may phobia na lumubog. 
  • Tadeo reassures him and ALWAYS holds Pecson’s hands, kahit nagtatampisaw lang sila sa pampang. AWWW.
  • Sandoval: ang Insulares na naiwanan ng barkong Espanya, at ‘di na binalikan. In short, na-stuck siya sa Pinas. Pero oks lang kasi burgis si Macaraig, ‘yung nag-aalaga sa kaniya rito sa Pinas. 
  • Donya Victorina VS Donya Consolacion: Battle 1- kaninong pinakamasarap na adobo? (Nobdoy wins. Kasi winner luto ni Pecson.)
  • After a war, the San Diego tribe always make a production/ play. Tradiyson talaga ito, bilang pagpupugay sa mga bayani.
  • Madalas kwento ni Tandang Pablo o si Elias ang play. Kung paano nila natalo ang Tribo de Kastilla, na pinamumunuhan ni Fray Damaso. HAHA.
  • Halos palagi may fixed cast sa dula: si Macaraig ‘yung bida, kasi marunong siyang kumanta. Si Paulita ang girl role/s. Marunong din siyang kumanta. Also, they’re both good performers and friends. Kapwa-mayaman, kaya good friends dapat. (Unless gusto nilang malugi. CHOS.)
  • Kapag musikal na dula, nasa dabakan ulit si Tadeo, habang nasa kudlung/ kudyapi si Juanito. Placido does second voice, habang nagkukulintang.  naman si Basilio. Script-writer po si Isagani.
  • Donya Victorina VS Donya Consolacion: Battle 2- paputian ng laba at pabilisan magsampay (VIctorina: 0 –Consolacion: 1)
    *Labandera talaga si Consolacionn so obvious ‘to.
  • Basilio can imitate lots of animal sounds. Sometimes, ganiyan sila mag-usapan ni Sisa. 
  • Nang dumating ang mga ibang-dayo na taga Tribo de Kastilla, Ibarra tries to peacefully talk sa kanila. Pero ‘di sila nagkaintindihan dahil sa salitang PUTO.
  • Isagani and the youth fight for their rights na ipagpatuloy ang pagsusulat ng baybayin. USO MAG-GRAFFITI NG BAYBAYIN SA MGA PUNO AT BATO.
    (Meanwhile, pinagsusunog itong taga-Tribo de Kastilla dahil, “Gawa ito ng demonyo!” TANGINANG PO!)
  • Donya Victorina VS Donya Consolacion: Battle 3- paramihang nakuhang ani sa bukid
    (Victorina: 0 –Consolacion: 1)
    *Kasi ang kabataan ang nagtatrabaho sa bukid. LAHAT ng kabataan ay magbubukid sa umaga.
  • Sa gabi, si Datu Tiyago ang nagbabantay sa kaniyang tribo kasi mahal niya ang bawat tao at gusto niyang safe ang lahat. 

Tanghalang Pilipino

Nicanor Tiongson’s
A Steampunk Musical

4-5, 11-12, 18-19 July 2015; 3pm
3-4, 10-11, 17-18 July 2015; 8pm
Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino (CCP Little Theater)

On 12 June 1898 Apolinario Mabini presents his vision and plans for the second phase of the Philippine revolution against Spain to Gen. Emilio Aguinaldo. Impressed, the general appoints the paralytic as his chief adviser, believing that the two of them are destined to finish the revolution and set up the new Filipino nation. Mabini advises Aguinaldo to open a congress that will legitimize his government and act as his advisory body.  After the US forces grab Intramuros for themselves, the revolutionary government moves to Malolos, where Aguinaldo promptly convenes congress and appoints Mabini chief minister. But soon, the new government must face major threats to its rule, not only from the American colonizers but from the ilustrado members of congress. First, the bourgeois ilustrados  led by Pedro Paterno and Felipe Buencamino prepare a 50-million peso loan package to the new government that will allow them to control and profit from the financial assets and institutions of the government, and thereby control the government itself. Mabini exposes the ploy, but Aguinaldo, desperate for funds to buy arms and pay his soldiers, approves the loan. Second, refusing to be a mere advisory body, congress creates a constitution that privileges the “oligarchy of the educated” (congress) over the “oligarchy of the ignorant” (the executive and the army).  Mabini insists that in time of war, the executive must be free to make decisions without being shackled by congress. After a few concessions are granted to the executive, the constitution is approved by Aguinaldo. At the dinner celebrating the new republic on 23 January 1899, the president toasts the members of congress, the army, and especially the Mabini cabinet that served the government gratis et amore. The ilustrados are jealous of Mabini’s powers.

Librettist: Dr. Nicanor G. Tiongson
Director: Chris Millado
Dramaturg: Manny Pambid
Music & Composition: Jed Balsamo
Co-arrangers: Chino David, TJ Ramos & Emerzon Texon
Sound Design, Over-All Sound & Recording Engineer: TJ Ramos
Choreographer: Denisa Reyes
Set Design: Toym Imao
Costume Design: James Reyes
Lighting Design: Katsch Catoy
Technical Director: Barbara Tan-Tiongco
Video Projection Design: GA Fallarme
Assistant Projection Design: Perky Parong & Sheryl Polancos

Ticket prices: Php1,000 | Php800 | Php600

50% off for students
20% off for senior citizens, gov’t. employees & persons with disabilities

For tickets and inquiries, please contact at tel. nos. (632)832-1125 loc. 1620 and 1621, 0905-2544930, 0921-8204155; TicketWorld (632)891-9999.


Isang eksklusibo, eksplosibo at nagbabagang rebelasyon ang nais kong ipahayag sa mga oras na ito.

Matagal ko na itong gustong sabihin pero ngayon lang ako nagkalakas ng loob para harapin ang katotohanan.  Pinilit kong buuin ang aking sarili, magpakatatag at magpakatibay ngunit..

Namimiss ko na talaga yung pritong galunggong na luto ng inay.

Medyo may pagkahardcore kusinera kasi yun. Yung tirang sinaing na galunggong namin sa tanghali, piniprito pa niya sa gabi tapos pag may tira pa ulit, almusal naman sa umaga and so on and so on. Feeling ko naniniwala siya na imortal yung galunggong na binili niya. Tipong “May something.” Hindi siya titigil hangga’t hindi nabibigyang hustisya yung pang-ulam. Minsan nga naaawa na ako dun sa isda. Hiwa-hiwalay na yung katawan, putol na yung ulo, tapos kung tititigan mo yung mata ng isda teary-eyed na, tapos labas na yung dila ( Oo, may dila talaga yung galunggong na nabili ng nanay ko) tapos wakwak na yung tiyan yung tipong gusto ng magbunjee-jumping ng galunggong dun sa kawali namin pero para siyang tinanggalan ng karapatang pang-isda sa itsura niyang iyon. Mas gugustuhin pa nilang magsuicide kesa iprito pang muli. Wala silang kalaban-laban. Pero more more prito pa din ang nanay ko like it’s the end of the world. Yung pake niya nasa Tinder account niya. ( At oo, may Tinder account din nanay ko, kayo lang ba pwede?) Tapos kapag kinain mo, hindi pa lumalapat sa bibig natutunaw na. Dun pa lang, mararamdaman mo na yung lupit na dinanas nung galunggong sa kamay ng nanay ko. Well atleast, nagampanan ng galunggong na ito ang major role niya sa buhay ng ilang ulit. Bibihira lamang ang nabibigyan ng ganitong klaseng pagkakataon.

Lesson: Wala. Walang lesson. Wala ding hugot. Kung nageexpect kang meron, wala talaga.  Miss ko lang talaga yung pritong galunggong ng nanay ko. 


Ang ikatlong lebel ng badtrip ko ay nagmumula sa bigla-biglang pagdungaw ng tutsang ( a.k.a buhok sa ilong na parang paa ng ipis ) na may kasamang nakalambitin na grayish colloidal substance a.k.a kulangot. ( Nagduduyan siya, actually.) Nakakainis lang dahil napakafriendly, labas ng labas. Ramdam ko yun kahit hindi ako nakaharap sa salamin dahil nangangati yung circumference ng butas ng ilong ko. Hanggang sa hindi na ako nakatiis at naghanap ako ng salamin. Nakakita naman ako.

Binuklat ko yung butas ng ilong ko, hinawakan yung buhok, hinigit-higit ng pakonti-konti para magloosen-up, bumuwelo, sabay higit ng buong pwersa. Brutal. Napaheadbang at napapikit ako sa sakit. Napaluha yung left eye ko at umagos ng tuluyan sa pisngi. Isang buhok lang yung hinigit ko pero paralisado buong pagkatao ko. Nangangatal pa yung kamay ko habang hawak yung buhok. Pero ang sarap lang sa feeling pagkatapos. Fulfilling.Isang malilinaw na paglalarawan ng tunay na mandirigma.

Pagkatapos nun, parang bumilis ang palitang ng oxygen at carbon dioxide sa katawan ko na naghatid sa'ken ng matinding good vibes. Nasanay pa naman ako na pagkatapos kong higitin yung buhok ko sa ilong, pumipikit ako at nagwiwish. Nagwish ako pero akin na lang yun.

Habang pinapagpagan ko yung ilong na may konting pagpapa-cute na rin sa harap ng salamin, biglang may kumatok. Ibinaba ni kuya yung bubog. “Tapos ka na bang manalamin sa bintana ng kotse ko?!"Napa shit brix ako tangina. Ang sarap kong i-high five sa mukha. Gusto kong magpasampal ng napkin na may dugo at pakyu hanggang birthday ko. Malay ko bang may tao sa loob ng kotseeee.

My Repentance to Jesus

Jesus, today I surrender my life to You. I have decided to turn from my life the way I was before to my life now with You as my savior. Prior to this, I was doing things on my own until I turned around and found You. You got my back all along. Now, You are in control of my life. I come before You and repent all my sins. Change me and make me Your new creation. There will be times that I will be tested, but I will be still and know that You are my God. I will gather strength from You alone, because You are more than enough for me. I have made plenty of poor decisions back then, but right now, I have no regrets because the moment I decided to follow You is the greatest decision I have made in my life. Lead my life Lord as I live to praise and worship You with all my life, in Jesus’ name. Amen.

written last September 26, 2013