man i love this woman

‘I meet a woman, fall in love with her or we simply find we’re compatible; she agrees to live with me; a child comes or does not come in the order of things and that, for me, is marriage - by whatever name. Mutual consent. And to be mutually dissolved if it comes to that, with a moslem-style simplicity at its best.

To you that’s heresy but, that’s the code by which I live. For me, it’s the genuine bond, not church or court registry, not even the traditional ties or exchange of vows in any idiom. What people call formal marriage has no meaning for me; it never has.

When I see a man and woman contentedly together, I don’t ask for their marriage certificate. It’s sufficient for me that they consider themselves married to each other, that they’re content to be together, that they accept responsibility for anything they bring into the world, and continue to do so even if the union collapses…’

Wole Soyinka | Ibadan:The Penkelemes Years

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.