Sometimes it’s such a blessing and a curse to feel everything so deeply. To see the world through your heart instead of your eyes. To have your heart permanently stitched on your sleeve. Your heart is so big that it causes you to act on impulse, make decisions based on feelings, and have high expectations for the ones you care about. When you’re upset, your heart is on fire and you can make a mountain out of a small hill. You’re passionate, wild, and believe love is what makes the world turn. You cry hard but laugh harder. You dance around your kitchen with the windows open and always tell people how you feel about them. You’d drive hundreds of miles in the middle of the night for the sake of love. There are more days than you can count that you solely run on too much coffee and not enough sleep. You are fire, hot-headed, and you call yourself passionate. You live for love and truly believe that the rest will take care of itself. You’re a little all over the place and get distracted easily. When you see something beautiful in someone, you speak to it. Even when you get caught up in the little things you always find your way back home.
It’s because of these things that sometimes you learn the hard way. You’ve learned that you cannot change people, that is not your purpose. You can only love them. It is not your job to pass judgement, to question the worth of others, to tell them that their feelings are not valid. No. Your job is to love and love hard. With urgency but not with haste. Say you’re sorry and let your light shine so that others can do the same. Cultivate gratitude, humility, hospitality, generosity, joy, serenity, contentment, faith, kindness, forgiveness, and creativity. Be known as the one who smiled in a world that didn’t smile back. You cannot change what you said, what you did, how you made them feel - but you can learn from your past. You can only rise in love and love people for who they are, whether they meet your expectations or not. You have to understand that people are flawed, scarred, insecure, and will never be perfect. Just like them, you are forgiven. You are forgiven for the times you went wrong but you need to allow yourself to learn, to allow yourself to accept grace, to reach for the hand that has been held out to you all this time.
When God had your blank canvas in front of Him, He stood back and let a few moments pass. He knew you’d be a tough one. He knew you would be dealt a difficult hand, He knew people would leave you, would hurt you, would teach you lessons. He knew it would take you awhile to find Him even though He never left your side. But that didn’t stop him from taking every bright color and splash it abundantly on your canvas. He knew you’d be strong and have an enormous capacity to feel. He knew you would seek the truth more than most people and He knew it would get you in trouble and He knew it would allow you to experience life. Grab His hand and let Him allow you to be proud of that canvas. You are colorful and stitched together with the best of intentions. Perfectly in process. Yes, you are.
It’s okay. You’re going to be okay. Continue to see the world through your heart instead of your eyes. To have your heart permanently stitched on your sleeve. You are loved and were made to love. Someone, some day, will realize that they cannot change you either - that only He can. They can only love you. Love you for the way you dance when no one is watching. Love you for your quirks and shortcomings. Love you for seeking to become like Jesus even though you’re surrounded by imperfection and brokenness.
You are esteemed, valued, set apart, chosen, pursued, and loved. Please don’t forget that and remind yourself when you get caught up in the imperfection of the world. You are bankrupt without love so let that guide you instead of trying to change what’s out of your control. Live for love and let the rest take care of itself.