I really want to die, i hate myself and how i look, it's been 2 years that i graduate in high school and I don't wanna do anything, I don't even get out of my house because I really hate my body I am just make my family and myself sad and there is no hope left cause i've been like this for so long that i don't have will to change anymore. I just wish my family could forget about me so i could die without think that i could kill them to. - Sorry if my english is bad.
The thing is that if you keep staying at home that won’t make your family happier. And it also won’t make you feel comfortable with your body bc you don’t see others reaction to it. I know that kinda sounds counterproductive but maybe the people outside like your style or your body isn’t that bad as you thought. I know it’s damn hard but you need to built up self-confidence to get through things like that. Even if it’s just a tiny bit.
Please stay strong, alright? It’s gonna be better in the future. Keep fighting ^^ x