making bread

anonymous asked:

what are ways to recover after an episode of abuse that has led to dissociation?

grounding tehniques are what’s coming to mind for me. some examples:

  • watching your favourite kids movie
  • drinking hot tea/coffee or even just holding the hot mug in your hands
  • listening to music that calms you
  • doing something physical and repetitive (this might seem counter-intuitive, but, at least for me, it tends to slowly bring me back into my body) such as doing the dishes, scribbling on a piece of paper, folding origami, ripping some paper to tiny shreds, peeling potatoes (only with a potato peeler please, do not try to handle knives while you’re dissociating), petting an animal, etc.
  • playing a kids game (like animal crossing. something where you can stand around and do nothing for a long time and it won’t affect the game, and nothing with violence, harsh language, or mature themes)
  • making bread (but i only recommend it if you’ve made the recipe several times before, so that you can let muscle memory take over). here’s a good very easy recipe if you want.
  • alternately, make naan–this is probably a great deal simpler, takes less time, and this recipe doesnt use yeast. the only ingredients are common household items (please make sure you’re 100% back before you start frying them, though)
  • stimming, especially physical stimming such as flapping, drumming your fingers, playing conductor with your hands. not everyone stims, obviously, but even for non-adhd/non-autistic/non-spd people it can still feel really nice and calm you considerably.
  • counting in a foreign language. i understand that not everyone knows multiple languages, but if you’re learning one, pull up a number list in that language, and count out loud. this requires a little thinking but not much, though don’t feel bad if you can’t do it. if you already know the language, it should be simpler, but still require a little concentration.

things that (most likely) won’t help:

  • anything that requires intense thought, such as homework, reading, baking a new recipe, or writing.
  • exercise (unless you do a lot of it normally, in which case do something simple and easy for a long time–right now you’re trying to come back to your body, not actually get your workout it. never do activites that could potentially be dangerous if you’re not paying attention)
  • anything that involves loud noise (unless that specifically calms you down)
  • anything that has themes which might trigger you (which means that most videogames are probably out)

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.