An Open Letter to Leigh Bardugo
Hello, Leigh ( @lbardugo )! It’s your friendly-neighborhood Baillie!
I wanted to address the presents I’ve been giving (maybe shoving?) your way. While it’s been fun for me to create things that you (and whatever authors I end up latching on to) might enjoy–someone I volunteered with yesterday at the festival warned me to stop because you were probably uncomfortable with the gifts.
And it broke my heart.
A little background on why I started giving you gifts:
The last time I tried to give a friend a present, a personalized and signed copy of Vampire Academy, she accepted with a “Nice! I’ll add it to my collection!” And while I know she meant no harm–instead, meaning to make a joke about how many copies of tVA she had–it kind of made me recoil. It was a present that took hours of action (and standing in line) and a bit of planning to make sure we could get her this present. And my gesture was brushed aside.
I’ve enjoyed giving presents to friends for years and since then I stopped. Which is heartbreaking since I also feel inclined to stop keeping in contact with my friends because, in my mind, this brushoff is some sort of rejection. Even now making friends at my university is kept at a no-present policy so I don’t scare anybody off.
So I turned to authors because I figured they deserve presents and goodies after writing so much and I know I appreciate them to the moon and back. And I know some authors have to deal with mean people a lot and sometimes just need something nice.
I’ll be the first one to admit that my obsession with you increased tenfold when I ended up with SoC at SDCC (and I actually cried walking away from the Fierce Reads booth). Actually–I walk away from almost every interaction with you about to cry because I’m always in such complete and utter awe of your presence. The more I hear you talk at signings and at panels and even just on twitter– it’s more and more clear that you’re a fantastic and amazing person.
And by no means do I want to make you uncomfortable with my presents.
But please, please, please let me know if it makes you uncomfortable or you truly want me to stop. I just had never stopped to even consider your side of things.
It makes me feel incredibly selfish.
My Best Regards,
To Better Explain your gift basket from YallWest:
Blue Eyeshadow + Red/Gold Lipstick= Wonder Woman inspired Makeup
Fan: I thought I would get to you sooner and that it might help with the heat
Eyelashes: They Reminded me of Six of Crows
Justice League Stickers: I gave the same ones to Marie Lu. Just DC related.
Other Stickers: They were cute?
Glow Sticks: Some events just need glowsticks