it’s the fact they have been through so much that makes it so hard for me to stop crying tbh.
it’s the fact that they went through so much as trainees in such a competitive world such as kpop where some managing labels go so far as to physically abuse or even mentally abuse idols into acting a way they want (and it’s the fact that this very well most likely happened to bts with that mishap with their one manager last year). it’s the fact that they’ve been told they wouldn’t make it, the fact that they’ve struggled so hard to prove them all wrong and to deliver each comeback with such precise choreo; the fact that they’ve literally worked big hit from the bottom up, going from having to use their manager’s car while filming mvs to exploding cars and hiring hundreds of extras in only a few years time; the fact that, the one time in kobe when they couldn’t perform, yoongi was so physically hurt and depressed that he had let the fans, that he had let us, down that he went back to the stage in kobe; the fact that he cried and then said that he knows crying is losing only to burst into tears tonight for winning artist of the year because he hasn’t lost, because he’s won something he’s been striving for for so long; it’s the fact that namjoon, the smart leader who always knows how to carry the group through thick and thin, was physically speechlessand started crying even before he could talk because he’s talked about being depressed and feeling useless and now he’s won such a huge award; it’s the fact that these boys have been with each other through literally everything with awkward and shy trainee days, to becoming family when they can’t even have the chance to see their own biological family, to encouraging jungkook to come out of his shell and for consoling taehyung when his grandmother passed away. it’s the fact that they’ve tried so hard to win a daesang and they’ve finally did it and it’s only the beginning of more wonderful achievements to come,
i can’t stop thinking about what kind of criers dan and phil would be. i feel like dan’s crying would be a slow build up. his eyes just get watery at first, and he tries so hard to keep it in, but eventually the tears start cascading down his cheeks. he’d get a runny nose and his forehead would crease out of frustration because he hates crying, but he does it all the time. when his crying hits its peak, he’d be a blubbering mess, wiping furiously at his tears and constantly blowing his nose. he doesn’t like to be comforted while he’s crying, but when he’s finished and all that’s left is tear stained cheeks, he’d cling to the closest thing, preferably another person that would play with his hair, rub his back, and comfort him quietly.
phil on the other hand is a quiet crier. it happens really suddenly because he’s not afraid to be emotional and soft. his tears build up and he doesn’t try to hold them back. his eyes get red and puffy, and he tries to wipe away the tears quickly with his sleeve. he gets sniffly, but hides it by taking deep breaths through his mouth. his eyes are glossy and doe-like when his crying reaches the climax. he likes to be held the whole way through, even if it’s just someone holding his hand or resting a hand on his knee. physical contact calms him down and helps him feel more real. his favorite thing is when people rub their fingers up and down his arm, it nearly lulls him to sleep, but it distracts him from whatever it is he’s crying about.