The hate that I hold for this Mind, words can not explain
My thoughts, my ego, my desires, my hypocrisy
The way I imagine scenarios that don’t exist
Singing praises of people that don’t matter
Finding joy in the most horrible things
Engulfed in misery but to blind to notice it
Disguising myself to be accepted
To insecure to pick a side
And to weak to love Him.
But I want to so badly.
I want to be madly and deeply in love!
To have my day, my every second, be devoted to that love
To have that love completely engulf every corner of this disgusting mind
To have it undue all these sins that haunt
I just want to love Him, like how He loves me.