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Shadowhunters 2A + Quotes

  • she says: i'm fine
  • what she means: luke garroway spent more than 18 years in love with a women, his best friends wife, became a father to her daughter and her best friend, was always there for them, did all he could to help and just be what they needed, and never asked for anything in return or made jocelyn feel like she had to be with him, and when he finally gets to be with her she's killed, tell me what the f-ing point was?

anonymous asked:

🔥 + cc books

Okay, this is gonna get long and seriously if you are pro CC don’t read, okay?

Unpopular opinion about CC books (only doing TMI atm)? She is an absolutely shitty author, who treats her LGBT characters like trash most of the time, but embraces them as soon as they gain popularity. For example, Malec. What we got in 6 books was a shit ton of biphobia, a man child of a boyfriend, a midly paedophilic relationship, lots and lots of slut shaming, a very stupid reason for a breakup (just for drama™) and sending them far far away because heaven forbid they get some of the time given to Simon being a fuckboy and dating two girls at once.

She romanticisizes the shit out of abusive and toxic relationships. she made Maia accept her abuser back, ships Jace and Alec (who are brothers) together, almost made Sebastian rape Clary for no good reason, Malec of course is toxic because of the constant sut shaming, makes Clace have a make out session even when they knew they were siblings, made Climon into a thing (!!!) and made Jocelyn string Luke along for years before making it canon.

She doesn’t cover her plotholes, the biggest beimg the fact that she promotes parabatai as the most important relationship and yet when Jace died, Alec brushed it off as ‘just a feeling’. She also didn’t care for Alec for 5 books and yet in the last book he became the sassy gay friend™ immediately.

Not to mention the slut shaming, Clary and Izzy’s initial displeasure at being forced to work together, Magnus pressuring Alec to come out, Jace being a complete jerk who is unnecessarily rude to his love interest and Alec not having killed a single demon till he turned 18 and yet being the “acting head of the Institute”.

Send me a '🔥’ for an unpopular opinion.

The long way home. Pt. 2

He fumbled in the pocket of his jacket for his phone and then realized he had no idea what her number was. Magnus’ phone, it would be in that. He patted down his pants’ pockets and then his jacket before he found it and tapped the screen to find what he was looking for. If it had been any other situation, he would of gotten a kick out of seeing Magnus’ screen saver was a picture of them together.

He dialled the number and waited. And waited. Caterina wasn’t answering, the call going to voice mail.

“Caterina, its Alec Lightwood, there’s something wrong with Magnus. I just came home and found him on the floor out cold. Please call as soon as you get this.” He hopped that Caterina was able to make sense out of the message, the words had flown out of him in a panicked rush. The loft was in darkness now, the only light coming through the balcony doors from the lights of the city. Alec needed there to be light. The dark was too depressing. Fear lived in the dark.

He gently removed Magnus’ head from his lap and got up and turned on the lamps before returning to him. He sat with his back against the sofa and as gently as he could, pulled Magnus close to him so his upper body was lying in his arms against his chest. He ran a finger down the side of his face, feeling the warmth of his smooth skin. Most of the time when they were together like this, they were in their bed, surrounded by red satin sheets. It usually only took the slightest of touches for Alec to be able to wake the warlock and be rewarded with the sight of those beautiful amber cat’s eyes glowing back at him and that pretty mouth curved into a smile that was just for him.

God, how he prayed that it would happen now. He checked Magnus’ phone again but there was still no reply from Caterina.

“Please, Baby, wake up. I need you to wake up.” He said, holding Magnus closer to him and burying his face in the spiky tufts of his hair. He closed his eyes and took in the scent that was all Magnus’ own. How he had come to love that smell. It was as exotic as the man himself. Completely unique.

“I remember the first time I ever smelt you. It was the day we first met at your old lair and we’d just put down that Circle member that was attacking you. You came up to me afterwards to introduce yourself. I remember thinking I’d never seen anyone like you before and how you made my heart race, just by standing in front of me. You probably thought it was me just being a big dork stuttering like I was but it was because the second you came near me and I could smell you it just made all my sense want to leave me.” He told him. He bent his head and placed a soft kiss to Magnus’ forehead. But the warlock slept on.

“I can’t believe now what an idiot I was for so long. All that time wasted when we could have been together.” He gave a small laugh, as he looked down, watching his face. “But you knew, didn’t you? You knew before I wanted to admit it to myself.” He traced a finger over his perfect lips.

“You never gave up on me, did you? Even when I proposed to Lydia and was determined to go through with it, you kept going. The hardest thing I’d ever done to that point was denying how I felt about you to your face that day when I came to see you. I told myself I came just to ask you about finding the warlock who had made the potion that Jocelyn took,  but it was because in spite of everything else I still wanted to see you, I thought, for the last time.” Alec put his head back against the sofa closing his eyes and letting the memory take over his mind.

“You have no idea how much it ripped my guts out to stand there with you talking about love and the way you made me feel without giving in to those feelings. You were right on the money when you said you knew I felt what you did. And it scared me shitless. I’d never been so utterly attracted to someone before let alone another guy. Not even the stupid crush I had on Jace.” He took a deep breath remembering that moment and then the horrible way he had snapped back at Magnus, determined to live the lie that Magnus had confronted him about.

“It took every ounce of will power I had to walk away from you that day. I thought I’d never see you again, and it was almost too painful to bear it.” Alec looked back down at him, feeling a similar pain once more. He placed a soft kiss to his lips, trying to will Magnus awake but he remained unchanged. He could feel tears stinging his eyes. He couldn’t leave him, not now. He had to come back to him. He looked at the screen of the phone. Where the hell was Caterina and why wasn’t she calling back?

“You have to wake up now, Baby, please, I can’t loose you. I never wanted to feel this way again, like I did after the attack on the Institute and I couldn’t find you. I’d never been so scared in all my life at the thought of you being hurt, or worse. At least I can hold you this time, be with you even though you don’t know it. I love so much Magnus Bane. Please come back to me.” Alec felt the tears run down his cheeks and fall onto Magnus’ waistcoat with a soft plop. He  hugged him even tighter to him, and buried his face into his neck.

He had no idea how long they had sat there for, on the floor of the quiet apartment. Alec slowly became aware of something touching him. He could feel the warmth of a hand on his face and he gave a slow smile. Then he felt warm lips on his and he instinctively kissed them back, his own hand reaching up to go around the back of a neck, forcing them to press harder. Suddenly the fog in his mind cleared and he pulled back, his eyes flying open.

Magnus was still in his arms but this time those beautiful amber eyes glowed back at him only inches from his own. A soft smile curving his lips.

“Magnus! You’re awake! Oh by the angel! I thought… I mean.. I didn’t…” He stammered. Magnus gave a small laugh and held a finger up to press it against his lips.

“Sssh, it’s alright my love, I know. I’m so sorry I made you go through that, not knowing what was wrong with me. I know what you must of been feeling, having been there myself after you lost yourself in your parabatai tracking that time. I nearly went out of my mind.”

“But what happened? Why couldn’t I wake you up?”

“I was with Caterina on a job that had required us to burn through quite a bit of magic. She was very weak herself  but I managed to talk her into leaving and I stayed to finish up. I knew my own magic had drained me but I thought if could just get back here and get to my elixir I’d be fine. Seems I underestimated a little. Making the portal to get back here finished me off, I’m afraid. I was completely spent, Alexander, that’s why I was so unresponsive.” Magnus explained.

“I was nearly out of my mind worrying about you, Magnus. I came home and found you on the floor like that, it was horrible. I tried calling Caterina but she never rang me back.”

“She was probably asleep as well. Once a warlock depletes their magic to that extent, the only way to recover is by sleeping it off. The elixir I have can revive it but not when it gets that bad.”

Alec frowned at his boyfriend and wrapped his arms around him tightly.

“Never do that to me again, Baby. I can’t go through this for a third time. Promise me you’ll stop before you get that bad. The thought of you passed out somewhere where I couldn’t get to you is too much to think about.”

Magnus pulled back from him so he could look into Alec’s deep hazel eyes. He put a soft kiss on his lips and smiled.

“I promise, Alexander. I don’t want to cause you that much worry if I can help it. What do you say we get off this floor and go to bed?” he purred.

He stood up and offered him a hand. Alec took it, hauling his tall frame stiffly off the floor. He rubbed his butt, wincing at the numbness from sitting for so long on the hard surface.

“Need a hand with that?” Magnus said, smirking at him, one elegant eyebrow arched. He reached his arms around him and started to push his hands down into the back of Alec’s jeans. Alec grabbed his arms to stop him.

“Are you kidding me? You need more rest, we’re going to bed and you’re going back to sleep.” He told him, determinedly.

“Wanna bet?” Magnus crooned and he grabbed the front of his shirt and started hauling him off in the direction of the bedroom door. Alec thought about trying to resist him but once again he knew he was powerless when it came to the wonderful Magnus Bane. This time he wasn’t even going to try.

The Mortal Instruments, proposition

Here is my list for some of the characters of TMI (they are too many to have truly all of them so I tried to make a shorter list including the main ones.) There is also a basic description and justification for the choice, it’s up to you to keep it or not:

Clary Fray-Gryffindor. She is genuinely brave and ready to die for those she loves.

Jace Herondale-Slytherin. He is ambitious and works hard to obtain what he wants. He is smart and he understands the world and the people him, which helps him into achieving his objectives.

Isabelle Lightwood-Gryffindor. She is brave, strong and independent. She is careful for those she loves and when something happens to them always does what she can to fix it.

Alec Lightwood-Hufflepuff. He is the older brother and cares deeply for his family, he is really down to the impossible when it comes to helping them, even if he doesn’t like it 100%. His devotion and commitment make him a true Hufflepuff.

Simon Lewis-Hufflepuff. He is an outsider and he becomes it even more once he gets into the dimension of shadow-hunters, but faces it with humor and strength, making him a true Hufflepuff for his inner strength and capacity to go through life complications without breaking down.  

Magnus Bane–Ravenclaw. Naturally smart, with always some solution to propose, his 800 and more years made him also wise.

Jocelyn Fray-Gryffindor. One of the bravest and strongest characters (psychologically), she put up with her husband and then dedicated her life to protect Clary from him and give her the best life she could.

Valentine-Slytherin. Wicked and smart, awful combination.

Luke Garroway-Hufflepuff. He is a good fit for any house except Slytherin, but his loyalty and unconditioned love for those he loves make him perfect for Hufflepuff

Johnatan Morgenstern-Slytherin. Pure evil

Maia Roberts-Gryffindor. Despite all she went through she does not back down from new challenges and faces them with her head up.



does it ever hit you with full force that Simon Lewis forgot his best friend and the girl he loved and the two adults who were like family to him and he lived three months without them in his life where he had no idea they even existed and all the while they were missing him but they couldn’t mourn because he wasn’t dead - what he got was worse than death, in a way? and you think about the way clary must have cried all the time because she’s known him for so long and he was always there for her and she was always there for him and they were best friends like the mundane version of parabatai and she missed him so goddamn much and jace probably tried to comfort her but couldn’t get her to stop crying because she just wanted her brother back. and you know that Isabelle never would’ve let herself cry about him in front of everyone else but she was heartbroken and she probably sobbed herself to sleep every night and everyone noticed that her eyes were red and puffy in the mornings but never said anything. and you think about jace who had finally come to like the guy and who knew how much he meant to clary and who probably didn’t want to be sad but couldn’t help it. and you think about Alec who probably found himself missing Simon’s stupid comments and who hated seeing his sister so depressed but who knew he couldn’t do anything about it. and you think about Maia who had once liked Simon the way Isabelle did, and maybe she didn’t anymore and she didn’t love him the way Isabelle or clary did but she misses him because he was her friend no matter what. and you think about Jocelyn who treated that boy like her own son and who watched him grow up and who knew her daughter was sad but couldn’t bring herself to comfort her because she was sad, too, and anything she said would’ve been hypocritical. and you think about Luke who was a father to Simon because he didn’t have one, same as clary, who watched as he transitioned from his normal life to having a best friend who was a Shadowhunter to being a vampire and knew that he’d be okay because he was a tough kid but that didn’t mean that everyone would be okay without him. and you think about Magnus who had told Simon that it would be just them after everyone else was long gone, who called him the wrong name continuously but knew his name all along, who was probably looking foward to having an immortal friend who he could talk to about Alec and clary and Isabelle and jace with and who lost all that the moment simon’s immortality was taken away. do you ever think about Simon Lewis forgetting all the people who loved and cared about him the most in the world and not even knowing it because he can’t remember and the way that must have affected all of them and the realization hits you with such a force that you’re dead on impact?

anonymous asked:

Do what you will with this, but it reminds me of McKirk --> "sometimes home isn’t just four walls sometimes it has blue eyes and a heartbeat"

After watching the construction for a while, most of the crew slowly disperses back to Jim’s party. But Leonard can’t take his eyes off the skeleton of the ship being assembled overhead. He threw the party here on purpose, so that Jim would have a reminder of the future that he’s chosen to embrace, not just the past that’s full of so much loss. But Leonard thinks that maybe he’s here for himself too. That ship up there is a reminder for him too, a reminder that some things can’t be taken away, not for good.

“You all right, Bones?” Leonard looks to the side to find Jim watching him with soft concern. “I know the Enterprise was your home too.”

Leonard thinks about denying it, offering up the token grumbling about space and its many dangers. But Jim’s right, and they both know it.

“She was,” he sighs.

Leonard has lost so many homes over the years. He lost the childhood home that held too many painful memories after his father died. He lost the home he made with Jocelyn and Jo when his marriage crumbled. He lost the reluctant but surprisingly real home of Starfleet Academy when he graduated with far too few of his classmates. And now he’s lost the home of Jim’s ship, where he’s seen and learned and done so much, where he’s lived and loved for years.

He glances back up at the promise of their new ship.

“But she wasn’t my only home.”

Each lost home has ached less than the last, and Leonard knows what the difference is.

He feels Jim’s gaze on him, and he turns to meet it. He looks at the man who took one look at him after he lost Jocelyn and immediately decided to never let him be alone again. He looks at the man who took his hand after their somber graduation and never let go. He looks at the man who has shared each of his own homes with Leonard, shared his joys and his struggles and his victories and his passions. He looks at the man he can’t imagine a life without.

“Home isn’t just about four walls or a warp drive,” Leonard says, and his voice has gone low and solemn. “Sometimes it has blue eyes and a heartbeat. So long as I’ve still got that home, I’ll be just fine.”

Jim’s eyes go warm and soft, and he leans into Leonard’s side. That heartbeat echoes softly between them, a steady promise.

“Then I guess you’ll always be just fine.”

Just Over Four Years  - A Twins One Shot

TITLE OF STORY: Just Over Four Years
AUTHOR: cheers-mrhiddleston
WHICH TOM/CHARACTER:  AU Jag!Tom and Exec!Tom as Twins
GENRE: Angst, Drama
FIC SUMMARY: Four years ago, William proposed to his girlfriend, Jocelyn, and hoped to start their life together, white picket fence and 2.5 kids. But his world was rocked when he discovered Jocelyn having an affair, and he kicked her out of his life. He hasn’t seen her in ages, but when he unexpectedly runs into her, she’s got more than he bargained for.
FEEDBACK/COMMENTS: Stand alone one shot in the twins’ universe, taking place after WYIM. Please send feedback and I hope y’all enjoy! You can check out the twins here!

One of William’s favorite things to do during lunch, other than grab a bite with Thomas if time permitted, was wander book shops. Being surrounded by the words, the stories, and quiet tranquility of the shelves, allowed him to clear his head in ways that booze, sex, a gun, could never accomplish. Sometimes he missed the days where he spent nights pouring over the reading for a class, writing two essays with a different interpretation or argument in each.

He preferred small, second hand shops, with the cracks and weathered spines reading out their titles, the yellowing pages touched by however many hands, the idea that the stories had passed through so many owners… but sometimes he enjoyed the shiny and new of big retailers, like where he was today.

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Shadowhunters Season 1 Episode 5 “Moo Shu To Go” Review

I am seriously getting pissed off at all of these people attacking Alec. 

With that being said, I loved this episode, not as much as episode 4,but the love is still their.

Luke is one of the reasons I love this episode. Seeing Luke defend Clary against the alpha male made my heart happy. Jocelyn put her faith in the right person.

Alec is the main reason I love this episode (no surprise there). He is starting to really crack. He made a few mistakes but he realizes he made them, and he accepts the punishment every time he makes a mistake. He is a great soldier. But now I feel like he needs to get a reward for all of the hard work he does. **Enter Magnus Bane** 

Now I am not so happy about the way Jace has been treating Alec.We got one good scene between Alec and Jace in this episode, but it did not make up for all the shit Jace is throwing at Alec. Honestly, I am sitting here crying because I see how much Jace’s cruelty is affecting Alec. 

Me: Jace, back the fuck up off. Alec is your parabatai. Quit acting like a bitch.

Okay, now on to the fact that Clary and Alec were stuck together. I enjoyed seeing them talk it out. I will not say they were becoming friends because obviously no. But they were being friendlier… sort of. One of my favorite lines in the show was:

Clary: Go ahead. Knock me on my ass. You’l feel better.

Alec: Don’t make me say your right about something.

He said this with the smallest of smirks and it was pure perfection… (Matthew Daddario is making my heart melt.)

Then after Clary get’s of the phone with Simon later in the episode. Clary confronts Alec about being in love with Jace and his sexuality. I loved this scene. Especially when She is all like, “Just say it, you’re in love with Jace.” and Alec’s comeback is, “You’re in love with Jace.” and Clary mentions that he is using a middle school comeback. It was one of the greatest scenes  in this episode.

Alec was sincerely trying to protect Clary. It was not his intention for Clary to be kidnapped, but Jace is acting as if Alec just handed her to the werewolves. Ugh, Jace is irritating the crap out of me. I mean when Alec realized he lost Clary and could not find her himself he texted Jace immediately. He took the risk of pissing Jace of for Jace.

Isabelle is my precious Angel. She gets upset when Jace blames Alec. 

Jace: Damn it, Alec.

Isabelle: What?

Jace: Clary snuck out of the institute.

Isabelle: And yet your blaming our brother? Interesting.

Then when she found out Simon was kidnapped too you could hear the concern in her voice. Sizzy feels!

The look of irritation at Jace was evident on her face.

The little bit of Magnus we got in this episode was amazing, but not enough for me or Alec.

Okay Simon is changing and Alec is picking up on this hardcore. My perfect Alexander being the smartest person on the show.

Alec: Climbing a fire escape excites mundanes? I’ll never understand these people. 

Alec is so precious!

Now Valentine, Alan Van Sprang is making me hate Valentine as much as I hated him in the books. But that is a good thing! XD

Now I will admit, I was never a fan of either Robert or Maryse in the books, but Maryse is even more hateable in the show. I did not like how she spoke to her children. I am not going to say anymore about her because it is all negative, because she is just mean.

Raphael is amazing… that is all.

The werewolves were umm…. werewolves… and also looked like shaggy mangy dogs.

The end of this episode broke my heart a little. I need some happy in this show, cue next weeks episode!

Next week we get more Malec so WOOT! XD I cannot wait!

Just a quick reminder, that Alec did save Clary as well. He is the one that grabbed her from Luke while Jace punched Luke. You’re Welcome Jace.