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OH MY G OS H HELLO FR I E N DS I’M LIKE TWENTY EIGHT BILLION Y E AR S LATE FOR THE STRANGER THINGS TRAIN

BUT I JUST FINISHED IT AND I ADORED EVERY SE CON D BUT I HAVE JUST ON E COMPLAINT

W H AT ABOUT B A R B

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sunshine,

I’ve never hated having obsessive compulsive disorder more in my life. You are my constant obsession. It’s not even you, it’s the constant: Why did she leave? Why wasn’t I enough? Why couldn’t she love me? How could she do that? How can she just be fine? Was it even real? Did she ever actually love me? Why can’t I let it go?

All of it brings pain. I want.you not because of you, but because now everything that I thought was real is fake. I thought we were beautiful together but clearly my thoughts were a lie.

It really fucking hurts. I cry all the time.  I want you to miss me back. 

I don’t love you but you consume my every thought. All of the obsessions, all of the intrusive thoughts…..they all revolve around you. 

I miss you so much that it physically hurts. I’m aching for you. 

I don’t know how to stop thinking that you’re beyond beautiful.

I need it to stop.

- i used to be your baby girl

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