I’m silver, but most of my friends are mid gold - diamond so when I play with them, I’m constantly pitted against people better than me. I used to relish it, but now my confidence in my ability to play the game is waning, and I always feel useless, even though I’m beating myself up so much for not being able to keep up with people much more advanced. I need to play solo or find other people around my rank again.
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.