Yes, I went out and bought temporary hair dye just because I had an undying need
I put on some makeup to make myself look more feminine because Sherbet’s a pretty feminine-esque looking character, I guess. I wanted to get a softer, younger look. (Me being pretty much a permanently prepubescent boy has its perks??? I’m seriously gonna be 30 and my voice will have never changed. #prayforfelix)
Ok so I haven’t properly been in tumblr for… like a month now, and have no other excuse other than work and getting ridiculously busy all of a sudden since I am officially moving to York, UK this September (a year at first, we’ll see what happens after). But I wanted to use my birthday (May 24th) as an excuse to post; I do it every year, if just to congratulate myself for still being here.
This year is special, no less – I’m turning 30 (!!) and I’m currently in Seoul, South Korea! We’ve been here with @gatoraid for almost a week and will continue to for a little while longer. I wanted to do something special for this year, to make sure that I had a memorable 30th birthday. And, well… it’s been memorable alright, if not entirely for the right reasons; first I had some health issues upon arriving, then we had a bit of a scare with our accommodation (more on that later, maybe), and on Tuesday I woke up to horrible news from the world, including a tragedy in the city I love more than anything. So it’s definitely been an ups-and-downs trip, but I’ve also had great moments (cardboard GD cut-outs may or may not be related) and wouldn’t trade it for the world.
But yeah! Just popping in to wish myself a happy birthday and say that I haven’t gone anywhere; hopefully I’ll have more time for hobby stuff once my life stops being so erratic, but haven’t I said that for the past 3 yrs anyway? At least come Autumn things will definitely get a change of pace and I’ll be forced to not be such a workaholic all the time. I still hold onto the hope that I can finish writing some of my main stuff come the end of this year, but we’ll… we’ll see. In the meantime, if you want to wish me a really good 30th birthday, maybedrop me a comment on one of my fics or something haha, that always makes me really happy! But it’s all good, just knowing you guys are out there, whoever you are. I appreciate it all the same.
Still haven’t had sex yet. Maddie’s 9 weeks old and the last time we did I was 9 weeks pregnant. Wtf. I have no idea if it’s ever going to happen at this rate. Like we don’t even kiss much. I’ve tried to make out with him a couple times, but he shuts it down pretty fast. He never initiates anyhing either, I think the last time he actually wanted to have sex with me must have been a year ago. Obviously he’s not attracted to me right now. Why did I have to end up with a guy who likes thin girls? Why did he even want me in the first place? On my good days I’m still chubby, no one has ever or would ever call me thin since I was like 8. Now I’m 30 lbs. heavier than I was when we met and I feel so unattractive and gross. He’s let me know before that he likes smaller girls and I’ve seen the porn he watches, fucking stick thin little blondes with tiny boobs. Great. I’m 5'4" 165 lbs. and a brunette who looks awful as a blonde. He encourages me to lose weight and start running and all this crap and it just makes me feel like shit. Like, yeah, I’d like to be stronger, but when it feels like I have to lose weight in order to get the love and physical affection I very badly need, it really makes me feel angry and hurt. It shouldn’t be this way. And it doesn’t help that I’m always fucking exhausted and hardly have the opportunity to shower and do my hair or put makeup on. Who has time to stand in front of a mirror when there is shit to do around the house? When I get the chance to put Maddie down I’m immediately running around the house trying to get things done. I look all kinds of fucked and I just wish he’d make me feel like he loves and wants me anyway. I always let him know that I think he’s good looking and that I like to be with him, idk why he can’t do the same for me. You know what’s fucked up though? When I was with a guy who liked bigger girls I felt fucking awesome. I felt like my body was perfect and I didn’t need to change a single thing, except my boobs, I’ve always wanted better looking boobs. I hardly ever gave my body a thought because I was so comfortable. I’m totally happy having a little extra fat, but because my husband finds it unattractive I feel like shit about it. Why should I feel that way? I don’t get it. How did I end up with someone who judges me like that? How did I end up with a man who’s so completely different from me? We don’t really connect on very many levels anymore, idk if we ever did really. I want our relationship back. It feels like he doesn’t and that really breaks my heart. I feel like I’m moving more and more towards depression and frankly it scares the shit out of me. How would I be able to take care of Maddie? I can’t exactly sleep all day when I have her to take care of. I can’t stop eating if I’m still trying to nurse and I have to carry her still, what if I got light headed and dropped her? And I really can’t isolate myself when everyone is always over here and my family wants to see Maddie. Most of all, I don’t want to lose this time. She’s only going to be this small for so long, it would be awful if I couldn’t remember this time. What’s the solution? Dedicate myself to a work out routine? Probably. Somehow I need to convince myself (brainwashing? Hypnotism?) that I’m doing it for myself instead of for the hope that my husband will find me attractive enough to touch on occasion. God. What a fucked up situation.
Hi I’m selling this wood antisepticeye/darkiplier wall art/plaque thing because after painting it I realized it doesnt fit the colors in my room and I’d rather someone have good use out of it rather than it just sitting in my closet. I’m selling it for $30 (US only if possible, please. If you want it and live outside of the US I might charge more bc I am a poor child thank u). Message me if you’re interested or have any questions. @markiplier@therealjacksepticeye
Our Glenn Research Center in Cleveland, OH will host a tour of its Electric Propulsion Lab. This lab is where we test solar propulsion technologies that are critical to powering spacecraft for our deep-space missions. The Electric Propulsion Laboratory houses two huge vacuum chambers that simulate the space environment.
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Our Johnson Space Center in Houston, TX will take viewers on a virtual exploration trip through the mockups of the International Space Station and inside our deep-space exploration vehicle, the Orion spacecraft!
Our Kennedy Space Center in Florida will bring viewers inside the Vehicle Assembly Building to learn about how we’re preparing for the first launch of America’s next big rocket, the Space Launch System (SLS) rocket.
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Hello everyone! So in my time here I haven’t really come across a studyblr challenge other than the great “100 days of productivity” meme which I know is really helping a lot of people! I know there are probably some out there but I decided to contribute too!
However, I know some people struggle with what to post and when, and 100 days is a huge commitment! So I designed this short(er) “30 Day Studyblr Challenge” that anybody can participate in if they want to! The 30 days don’t have to be consecutive because I understand that people are busy and can’t always find time in the day to come on tumblr! So I invite you to take part in this little activity, and please feel free to tag me in your challenge uploads - If I see that I’ve been tagged I’ll check the post out.
Here are your challenge questions: Day 1: A photo of your supplies Day 2: A photo of your study space Day 3: Your favourite motivational quote Day 4: A photo of your most recent work Day 5: A photo of your favourite book Day 6: A photo showing how you relax Day 7: The best advice anyone’s ever given you Day 8: A photo of your to-do list Day 9: A photo of your desk in use Day 10: Who is your favourite teacher/professor and why? Day 11: A photoset detailing your routine for the day Day 12: A photo of your favourite study snack Day 13: A photo of your textbooks Day 14: Send your favourite studyblr(s) an uplifting message! Day 15: A photo of your handwriting Day 16: What music do you like to listen to whilst studying? If you don’t listen to music while you work, what do you do? Day 17: Find a new/different study spot to your usual one and snap a photo! Day 18: A photo of your favourite pen(s) to use Day 19: A photo of your study space featuring a glass of water. (It’s super important to stay hydrated while you study!) Day 20: Talk about your favourite fictional character Day 21: A photo of your diary/planner/journal Day 22: A photo of your dream school/university Day 23: A photo of your favourite character from TV (Because it’s important to relax sometimes too) Day 24: Write the sentence “I can do anything as long as I put my mind to it.” in all of the languages that you speak and take a photo. Tell yourself that every day! Day 25: A photo of the work/notes you’re most proud of Day 26: Try out mind-mapping and photograph the end result Day 27: Try out a printable and take a photo of it in use Day 28: Try going for a walk before you start studying today. Take a photo of something interesting you see while you’re out. Day 29: Describe your study technique. Is it different for different subjects? Day 30: You made it! Reward yourself by doing one of your favourite things to do and snap a photo!
Please don’t forget to tag me in your posts, and/or tag them with #studyblrchallengehayley so that I can make sure I see them!
Okey dokeyo (is that true? Yes!) I know I’m just kinda dropping this without a warning and I also know that I promised I would do hoseok next but this boy kept filling up my drafts and it was getting annoying so here ya go…
all bolded fics or writers mentioned are ones that have been recently added.
Also if ever want to send me your own fic recommendations I”m always up for some more reading…