Healing The Healer || Notes on Being a Healer/Empath.
-Put the Oxygen Mask on Yourself First-
I’ve been a Reiki practitioner for a little over two years now. When I was first attuned I noticed the drastic changes in my life and was inspired to be apart of a small reiki group in my community. I would attend monthly shares where I was able to offer sessions to other practitioners. I had no plans to take Reiki any further until my teacher suggested that I teach. She invited me to attend the Reiki Level 2 class and certification. It wasn’t until level 2 that I actually considered going to the master training and eventually attune others.
Reiki affected my life so much that I definitely wanted to spread the love, but I knew I wasn’t ready. Being sensitive to energy, I understood the importance of shielding and the need to be grounded when doing any kind of healing work. I had major issues with both. Being exposed to reiki amplified my sensitivities, making healing others outside of my circle almost impossible. Here I am with access to this pure loving energy that I can’t fully use.
Now I had no issues with performing healing sessions on close friends and family who’s energy I was already familiar with. It was when I stepped into a strangers auric space that it became difficult to ground myself. It was as if I could feel what they were feeling. I would end a session feeling sucked dry. I was drained to the point of pure fatigue.
After a few years of trying to master shielding and letting go of unwanted energies, I still struggle with cutting cords and protection. It has become an issue to the point where working in an environment that involves a large volume of interaction with people, leaves me drained at the end of each day. I find myself needing to be a spiritual diva, taking weekly salt baths.
In addition to the protection rituals and self-reiki, I have been really trying to come up with a regimen to heal my physical body as well. The more I see the outcome of reiki in those around me, the more I want to be able to offer reiki to the public. As much as I want to go out there and heal those in need, I have to protect myself to be able to fully heal myself. And I have to heal myself to begin healing others.