I-I just can’t right now. like i can’t stop crying. WATCHING LITTLE DEREK HAVING TO KILL THE GIRL HE LOVED. i just can’t. And what’s worse is that he found out that she knew all along and she still loved him for who he was. He didn’t need to change her, but he tried and it got her killed. He’s been carrying the burden of knowing that they could’ve still been together; that she could’ve still been alive.