loving you with my whole heart

You were there when my heart was broken in a million pieces, and you picked up all those pieces and made me whole again.
—  Poets Love Her

My mother says I say I love you like someone who’s afraid they’re going to lose everything
Like someone so certain that loss is just around the corner I have to make absolutely certain people know

But I think
Maybe
I say I love you more like someone who has never once believed it when it was said to them
Like someone who knows so intimately what it’s like to not be sure how others feel about me that I can’t bear the thought that others might not know how I feel about them
Someone who’s spent their whole life needing reassurance
Who wants
Needs
To make sure that those they care about are reassured

I say I love you consistently
Repeatedly
Until the words are like a chorus to a song that sometimes only I am singing
Because the idea that you—that anyone I love
Doubts my love
Doubts their importance to me
Feels the way that I do every day
Terrifies me


I never learned to love with less than my whole heart
And I never once said I love you just to hear it back

—  w.n.

anonymous asked:

ur adorable,, u get so excited over little things and i find it so sweet

I’M ;—–; 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 (<—- that’s my actual heart vibrating) I’M JUSt. VERY HAPPY THAT SOMEone INTERaCTS WITH M e  I’M NOT EVNE WORTHY OF SUCH SWEET PEOPLE EVEN TALKING TO ME I’M !!!!!!!!!! I’m so happy that someone interacts with me myY WHOLE BODy IS A HUGE ! EXCLAMATION POINT i’m crying a  bit / //
like, just the fact that you even told me this, i’m slightly vibrating in my chair cause my heart is warm and full of Love, hel p

I’m actually like. u h h. emotionless irl, because of my mental health stuff, so normally i’m this emoji  :|  all the time, bUT INSIDE I GET SO GENUINELY 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 full of love wheneever someone is nice to me okay i dont even know how to put everything into words but thankkn you for finding me adorabLE I Find YOU adorable for being SWEET AND KIND 💘 💘

anonymous asked:

Your love for Colin gives me life!! :) He was so wonderful during comic con, it was a delight to see him having so much fun. And I don't know for you but I feel like there was something liberating that he could take his time answering questions and not having questions only about how much Hook loves Emma. This weekend was a blessing!

YES. I absolutely love seeing Colin have fun. Somebody tweeted that he looked like he was in his element with all the fans and the cast and producers at the panel - and I have to agree. He was just so happy and silly and wonderful. It makes my whole heart smile.

Honestly? I think his excitement for S7 is genuine, and I think he’s super excited about getting a new start with his character, a new version to play with, new adventures to have… and, yes, I think he’s probably excited to break out of the “Emma’s Supportive Boyfriend” pigeon hole Hook was stuck in last season (and a lot of S5). I mean, there was an entire episode where all he did was brood silently over her lying and hiding things from him… and then finally spoke up to say, “Your heart’s desire is all I want for you.” I mean, I know CS fans loved that line, but I was kinda livid about it. And don’t get me started on “I could never be mad at you.” Seriously. Don’t get me started on that :<

Again, I don’t think CS was bad, I don’t dislike it and I don’t think Colin dislikes it. I just dislike that they seemed to forget every other aspect of Hook’s character in the process of over-emphasizing CS. And I wouldn’t be surprised if Colin was getting a little bored of it. Hell, I was.

And Colin even said at SDCC that he’s hoping the show will pick up some new fans with all the changes this season - and I hope so, too! Honestly, it would be awesome for him if the crazy $Qers and C$ers (not all of them, of course, just the crazies) dropped out of the fandom due to Jen’s absence and some new fans infused some new life into the whole fandom.

If anyone would donate to my Cashme app ( my name on there is $yvesorage )
I’d really appreciate it,
I am a disabled, chronically ill, trans man, and life hasn’t been too kind to me lately :(

I haven’t gotten many donations but the ones who have donated I love with my whole heart💕💕There’s still a LONG way to go before I’m out of debt and can actually sleep at night. I really need groceries rn and I haven’t really ate anything in two days besides (free) coffee. The only time I actually get to eat is the days I work because I get one free meal (I’m paid under minimum wage because it’s a small local business)
Anything is appreciated, thank you so much from he bottom of my heart 💕

Also If you can’t donate, boosting and reblogging really helps.

anonymous asked:

Neptune by Sleeping At Last. IF THIS ISN'T JOHNLOCK (I had some music playing in the background and was typing away when I started to listen and 'i wanna love you but i don't know how' went straight to my heart where my johnlockfeelings are placed)

are these the same people that have a whole album with all the songs named after the planets? it’s a modern gustav holst au to match our modern sherlock au. seems fitting, i love it

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Daishou scribbles cause he was there for, like, half a panel and I got excite

You’re good at being cold in the same way
love is good at being distant

And you don’t know my freckles or the skin
on the back of my fingers you don’t even know about the scar on my ankle but

you are something i think my heart
has always wanted to handle

your love is cold in the way it is always distant
but when I love it always has to be
down to the core
I am whole-hearted in the way
that I am always yours

but you wouldn’t know love if it hit you
you can’t taste it in the space between us when we’re laying in the same fucking sheets so I don’t know why I thought this would be different

maybe I just wanted to be whole-hearted
wanted to be yours for a while
wanted to love the skin by your fingers
wanted the warmth of your smile

wanted you to squeeze my heart into your fist
just to see how well it fits

wanted to dig all the bad times
out from under this arrow
and ask you if your love is something
I could maybe borrow

—  Temporary

OMG OK LET ME LEARN Y'ALL A THING. My friend told me about this guy named Sufjan Stevens and all I can say is WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT HIM.

Okay so first, he is such a pure lil bean. He’s a Christian but get this– HE’S NOT SEXIST, HOMOPHOBIC, TRANSPHOBIC, RACIST, ISLAMOPHOBIC, OR APHOBIC. I know right??? He just loves Jesus a whole hecking lot and it’s so freaking cute. He’s also this cute shy lil mouse boy and he barely does interviews because he has anxiety. Just a lil flower boy with no time for neurotypical BSery.

SECOND. He writes the most ADORABLE, PURE, SQUEE-WORTHY mlm music. Like seriously, put that shit on your fic-writing playlists and you will be writing some cute-ass fluff in no time. He just loves boys a lot and it makes my heart so big and full.

THIRDO. He is a STEAL. Seriously, I have high standards and I would go frickledy-frack on him in like three seconds flat if I was even in the same room as him. Those blue-green eyes. Those delectable lips. Whew, is it sweaty in here or is that just me?

FOURTHERLY. He and his gay opera friend Nico Muhly are way too cute for words and I am frankly disappointed that the Tumblr fandom crew hasn’t made any ship content whatsoever. If they aren’t dating I am going to be literally shattered. My poor heart can’t take all the cuteness.

IN CONCLUSION! Listen to Sufjan Stevens or the Tumblr gods will smite you.

Originally posted by animemhex

My beloved Natasha Bedingfield - These Words ♥ The video is so adorable, the colours are amazing, this had to happen :>> i’ve never drawn anything like this before idk what i’m doing halp

Otayuri Week - Day 1 - Confessions

im so sad i probs wont have time to finish my other days this week i have something i need to prioritize i criii… i’ll post them one day i swear to glob

♪no repost/edit etc pls♪

young justice panel thoughts

let me be real about the panel

  • I AM FUCKING PUMPED FOR SPOILER ARROWETTE AND 13
  • i really hope that zee is 13′s mentor bc my girl deserves so much more love
  • that’s if she’s a magic user as in traci thirteen
  • the fact that they said “zatanna and dick were to show you don’t always marry your first love“ really broke my heart but don’t think for a second i’m giving my otp up
  • uh steph/tim/cassie love triangle????? i want it but i don’t
  • WHY DOES KAL HAVE HAIR WHAT EVEN
  • why have the whole jason memorial if y’all aren’t gonna give any jason info???
  • bluepulse is gonna be canon no doubt in my mind pls and thx
  • virgil’s new look is fucking LIT and honestly i can’t wait bc i love him sm
  • still really sad about chalant
  • WALLY WHERE ARE YOU pls greg and brandon save him pls
  • what is up with this new ninja look???? 
  • i bet they’re their own covert team and they’re gonna get wally out of the speedforce pls
  • where’s m’gann???? 
  • ALSO KAREN AND MAL?????
  • and babs
  • kinda hope for wondergun but at the same time cassie and tim
  • GAR YOU’RE SO CUTE ILY
  • is my girl zatanna okay? is she sleeping well? eating? i’m v worried about her
  • WHEN GREG SAID HIS FAVE MOMENT WAS WHEN ZATARA SAVED ZEE BY BECOMING DOCTOR FATE I FUCKING BAWLED DOES HE ENJOY SEEING ME IN FUCKING PAIN
  • where is wally i’m so concerned about my fave speedster
  • HAS ANYONE HEARD FROM ROY? HOW IS LIAN? JADE?
  • lowkey glad they didn’t bring in starfire as much as i love kori i want to see other characters

I’m feeling a lot right now… so so much for Louis and the way things have been for him. I know we always say to read between the lines with print interviews etc but from what I took away from his interview in the observer was heartbreaking in a way. he talks about the reasons why he’s going solo now. Talks about doing it because of momentum and to keep the ball rolling, he wants to work hard, doing it for the fans and of course for his mum. 

But the vulnerability of his tone and the way he’s been portrayed. The whole underdog thing really breaks my heart.. because we’ve all know he’s felt like this from the start. But its been used against him.. its been used as a tool to make him cooperate and oblige so he can feel like he’s doing something for the band. So he can contribute his part. Can you even imagine the mental battles he would’ve been having this entire time… he wants to fight for what he knows is right and for what he loves and for his band because we know that’s the kind of person he is, but he also believes he has to do things he doesnt want to do because it’s his duty. Because he owes it to the band.. because he believed he couldn’t bring anything else to the table. 

I’m so proud of where he is right now. I know a lot of people judge him for things that are currently happening, but that interview really showed his vulnerable side and of course that was the plan. To have the GP back the underdog. But I also hope a lot of fans can read that and go “wow… okay. Well… this is why he’s agreed to do x y and z”. 

Even if that was also part of the plan… to get fans on his side again, I don’t fucking care. He deserved it. He deserves all the love and support and like he said, for people to start to understand the real him and not who his favourite superhero is. I’m a proud Louis fan right now. And I’ll be here supporting him till the end.

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Summary:

Peter gets bullied in school and they all say that he could never get a girlfriend, so Y/N who’s rather popular at school just kisses him in front of every one.

Words: ~ 1500

No spoilers!

A/N: This took me way too long to write… so sorry! Tell me what you think! :)

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Walking through the overcrowded hallway, I felt myself being to tired to move and bumped against several people. Not that I cared.

Normally I didn’t care about much going on in school, referring to the people. I did care about my grades and my career and all- but the people in school? I didn’t care at all about them apart from my friends.

It’s not that I didn’t like them. I mean, I was quite popular in school and I talked to a lot of students over the day. But honestly, I didn’t really listen when they told me about the last party or a concert they went to.

But there was one person that I cared about who wasn’t part of my friends even though I hoped I would have more contact with him. Body contact, too.

It was Peter Parker, the nobody of our school. No one seemed to notice him apart from me. His gorgeous face with the sweet hazel eyes and the fluffy auburn hair…
Yes, he was my secret crush that nobody knew about and nobody ever would.

I kept my little secret a long time, talking to him occasionally or having school projects together which lead to me falling in love with him.

He was so clever and his shy side was so cute that I just couldn’t handle it. I loved how kind he was and he always had something interesting to ramble about.

Nothing caught my attention while walking through the hall way, apart from him. I saw him standing at his locker, opening it to put a book inside. Me and my friends stopped at my best friend’s locker and I occasionally let my gaze slip to Peter for a few seconds.

I jumped when Flash and his friends appeared out of nowhere and pushed Peter against his locker after he had closed it. “What a looser you are!”, Flash exclaimed after Peter groaned loadly, getting everyone’s attention.

“Sorry to ruin your face but with these looks you won’t get a girlfriend, anyway.”, Flash claimed and his friends laughed at this comment before he pushed Peter again.
And Peter only stood there, head down, shoulders stiff while Flash threw several mean words at him.

But when Flash grabbed Peter’s backpack from his hands Peter looked up, his face filled with anger as Flash started throwing all of his stuff on the ground.
“Oh, what’s this?”, Flash exclaimed when he took a piece of paper from the ground. “DEAR Y/N, I wish i had the courage to tell you that I’d walk through fire just to see you smile…”, he started to read and I saw everyone’s eyes stare at me, making my face heat up.

I unconsciously made eye contact with Peter who seemed to be internally screaming. And while I was glued to the spot, not able to speak or think, Flash continued bullying him.

“But you do know”, he laughed, “You do know that someone like Y/N Y/L/N would never love you, right?” Oh, boy, how wrong you were…
I saw Peter’s head lowering again, his fingers brushing over his face before they ran through his hair.
Flash laughed triumphantly and suddenly I felt the strong urge to prove a point.

Someone like Y/N Y/L/N would definitely love Peter Parker.

My legs brought myself over to them, even though my friend’s arm grabbed me slightly. But I ignored it and shoved Flash ’s friends aside so that I could get to Peter.

“Peter, you told me you wouldn’t drag this old thing with you.”, I laughed, rolling my eyes and earning a very confused and very cute look from Peter.
“See? I told you that someone would think that you’re single.”

In the corner of my eye I saw Flash looking at me as confused as Peter and I smiled to myself.
And then I laid my hands on his shoulders and leaned in quickly, pressing my lips on his.

Ignoring the electricity coming from him and the urge to kiss him forever, I pulled back after a few seconds of giving in.

Peter’s face stated pure shock and he stared at me nervously before I smirked at him. “Bye, Peter, see you later.”, I smiled proudly, wandering off to my next class and ignoring everyone’s dazzled looks.

I let out a shaky breath I didn’t know I was holding. This had been life changing.

“Wait, Y/N, what the hell was that?”, my friend wanted to know, a strange look on her face.
“Spontaneous.”, I only answered, shrugging. “Yeah, I know. But what were you thinking?”, she asked and now there was a worried look that made me angry somehow. It seemed like she thinks something is wrong with me just because I kissed my crush. Okay, secrete crush. She couldn’t know this part.

“Nothing really. I just thought that Flash is a dick and Peter doesn’t deserve this.”, I simply said and only got a confused “Okay…” as an answer.

Later that day I sat down at a bench outside, my eyes roaming over the campus. I enjoyed being alone at lunch. Not because of my friends! I simply enjoyed the time to think without talking slash gossiping.

I thought about the kiss, obviously.

Was it right? Apart from the fact that probably the whole school knew it by now, Peter knew too.

But still, I was proud of myself: Helping someone by proving his bully wrong. Somehow it made me feel strong.

And there was another positive aspect, as well. I had kissed my crush Peter Parker!

Thinking of the devil… Peter suddenly stood next to me, a nervous grin on his face.
“Can… uh… Can I join you?”, he chuckled, nodding his head towards the empty seat in front of me. “Sure.”, I nodded, a smile on my face which was maybe a bit too wide.

He let out a relieved sigh as he sat down, letting his bag fall on to the ground.
“Rough day?”, I asked and he only nodded before he leaned forward slightly, his arms supporting his weight.

“Uhm, yeah.”, he replied before biting his lip, my eyes not being able to look at something else but him.
“Actually, it wasn’t that bad.”, he chuckled softly, his brown eyes meeting mine.

“Yeah?”, I grinned and he just nodded with a cute smile on his lips. Oh, how soft those lips had felt on mine…

A few moments of comfortable silence passed before my mind brought back the letter that Flash found in Peter’s backpack.
“Uhm, Peter…”, I started but paused briefly when his beautiful eyes stared at me, “I was wondering… I mean… would you… Would you really walk through fire to see me smile?”
He nodded instantly without a word, nervously fiddling with his fingers before my hands grabbed his. I couldn’t help but smile, my heart beat running in my chest.
“You know, you don’t need to do this. I start smiling as soon as you smile at me.”, I clarified, earning a grin from him and I returned it instinctively.

“Uh, I… um, I wanted to thank you for… you know.”, he began and I only shrugged, playing it cool,“No problem.”
“But the whole school thinks were a couple now.”
“Is that bad?”, I wanted to know, a flirty tone in my voice.

Peter shook his head, causing his brown strands to dance on his fore head. “No, it’s not bad at all.” He clearly gained some confidence when I grinned at his answer. “I liked kissing you.”, he confessed, tilting his head. “No, that’s an understatement. I loved kissing you.”

“That’s good.”, I laughed before grabbed the collar of his shirt and nearly pulled him over the table to feel his soft lips on mine again.

He was able to place his fore arms on the table to support his weight before our eyes closed and our lips met. He hummed softly when I started moving my lips and my grib on his collar loosened since I had him where I wanted. My cheeks blushed due to all to blood that my heart pumped through my veins and I felt the excitement rushing through my whole body.
My fingers wandered up to the back of his neck, playing with some of his strands after Peter tilted his head to deepen the kiss, causing my mind to go mushy.

He pulled himself back slightly, a huge grin on his face when I ran my fingers through his hair. “You like me.”, he breathed out and I nodded before I pecked his lips briefly.

He leaned back again, giving me a charming smile. I had to bite my lip to hid that huge smile on my face which Peter saw anyway and I felt my heart skipping a beat.

This one question wether I wanted to be Peter’s girlfriend was definitely in his head but there was no need to voice it.

He knew that I was in love with him.