loving

Atheism gives me a better ability to see everyone as equal. As an atheist I do not hold on to one belief system or philosophy to be better than others for me, in fact I find equal beauty in different cultures, philosophies, and religions. It allows me to see humanity more equally, and not hold any strong cultural, religious, nationalistic, and ethnic identity. My identity is simply who I am as an individual. I hold no strong feelings of nationalism, patriotism, or morally superior attitudes over others. I simply want everyone to love, be happy, and take care of one another. Why can’t we all just love each other as humans, love and care for each other, have fun, be happy, enjoy this one life we have, and make sure others enjoy their lives? Atheism is not a path that everyone should embark on and I would never force others to, but surely for myself it is the rational path which makes my life peaceful, tranquil, and much more enjoyable. 

I can handle it if you don’t care about me. I can’t handle you leading me on and making me think I’m special. Just tell me now so I can process it and not get hurt instead of finding out for myself a year from now when I’m clinging onto a hope that wasn’t there in the first place. Don’t wait for me to make plans for us thinking we’ll get that far and don’t let me wonder how it feels to lay my head on your bony chest while we watch a scary movie and your heartbeat quickens and your grip tightens around my waist. Don’t let me wonder how it feels to lie down on your roof with you and watch the stars while a cold breeze goes by and I shiver, only to have you pull me closer and give me a warm feeling inside and outside my body. Please don’t wait. Tell me now. Tell me everything you need to say.
—  Because if you don’t, I’ll keep waiting.
And waiting.
And waiting.