Love can make you hard
Or it can make you soft
Love can break you
Or give you the power to make yourself
Love can leave you glowing
Love can leave you
Simple as that
The stories tell us that love is good and kind
And it is
But it is also terrible, awesome
Love is what we and others make of it
And that’s why we crave it
Fear it
Require it
We spread it from person to person despite the cost
Because the only force stronger than love
Is hope
And when you combine the two, anything is possible

She was speaking softly to me. Venting about her problems seemingly small ones honestly. She then started talking about the mistreatment she had experienced. We always vented to each other but I began to hear her talk slower until she turned to me, we stopped and locked eyes. I saw her body begin to weaken as tears roll down her face. She asked me “Why does this happen to me?” seemingly believing I had the answer. I didn’t. I just froze. She walked past me bawling. I ran to her and held her. Forcing her to look at me telling her everything would just be okay if she had faith. She buried her head in my shoulder. I held her tight hoping that I could make her feel alright. We we all alone in this dimly lit room, I asked her would she undress for me. As she started too so did I. I saw the scars on her body. Some deep and still bleeding. I told her sometimes I could see it soaking through her clothing. I came closer to her. Looking at her in amazement realizing her true character while wondering why someone would try to destroy the work of art that is her. I started to approach her and she put her arms as to cover herself. I grabbed her wrists and she realized that I too was naked, exposed, nothing was left sacred between us two secrets became common play. I touched her scars and sometimes she would flinch. Some scars I had to kiss. But eventually they healed all at different times. She eventually started to forget about all the pain and her clothes were no longer stained maroon. She left me alone shortly after. I looked down at my arms and saw that my scars had disappeared as well. I went sometime wondering how she was but I knew deep down she was alright. Someday I saw her eyes of gold. She came to me and thanked me. She apologized for leaving me. She promised to stay beside what had made her whole again. I told her to never break a promise you make to yourself.

10 upcoming 2016 releases by and/or about POC

American Honey
Directed by: Andrea Arnold
What it’s about: A wild teenager (played by newcomer Sasha Lane) who joins in with a group of similarly crazy kids who travel around the U.S. working for a multi level marketing scheme. This is also known for being the movie that Shia Labeouf cut his hand on. If the description isn’t enough to convince you then you should be convinced to watch it by Arnold’s talent alone. She’s an Oscar winning director who’s best known for Fish Tank and two of her previous films have played at Cannes. Crossing my fingers this one makes it there too.
Release date: Undetermined as of yet but A24 says they’re dropping this in the fall (so maybe they have an Oscar push in mind?)

The Fits
Directed by:
Anna Rose Holmer
What it’s about: An 11 year old tomboy named Toni who falls in with a dance troupe while she’s supposed to be boxing at the gym. But things start to go awry when the girls in the dance troupe succumb to violent fainting fits. The film already got rave review at Venice last year and is getting positive review at Sundance.
Release date: Undetermined so far but indie distributor Oscillope bought it before its festival premiere so the good news is this will be hitting theatres in limited release in 2016. Follow @TheFitsFilm for updates.

The Invitation
Directed by: Karyn Kusama
What it’s about: A man attends a dinner party thrown by his ex-wife and her new husband and slowly suspects that they have sinister intentions towards him. The low-key thriller stars Tom Hardy look-alike Logan Marshall-Green along with Michiel Huisman and Emayatzy Corinealdi. It has a mostly white cast but Kusama remains one of the few Asian-American women to have a strong and continuous career as a film director.
Release date: March 25, 2016

Directed by: Meera Menon
What it’s about: A female wall street trader played by Anna Gunn who is mired in a world of corruption, greed and scandal. Billed as the first wall street movie centered about a woman this has a predominantly (possibly entirely?) white cast however director Meera Menon is Indian-American.
Release date: No official date yet but this was picked up by Sony Picture Classics before its official Sundance premiere.

Directed by: Jeff Nichols
What it’s about: Real life couple Mildred and Richard Loving who married when interracial marriage was still illegal in their state and became plaintiffs in Loving vs. Virgina, the court case that made interracial marriage legal within the whole of the U.S. Ruth Negga plays Mildred with Joel Edgerton as Richard.
Release date: None yet, but this will probably head to festivals sometimes this year looking for a distributor.

Miles Ahead
Directed by: Don Cheadle
What it’s about: A passion project for Cheadle the movie examines the life of Miles Davis as he is interviewed by a Rolling Stone reporter, played by Ewan McGregor, in the 1970s. This one got mixed reviews when it played at festivals but by all acounts Cheadle’s performance is awards worthy.
Release date: April 1, 2016

Directed by:
John Musker and Ron Clements
What it’s about: Ayoung woman who sets off on an adventure helped by a famed demi-God. The nice thing about this one is that not only is it about polynesians but the main vocal cast (which includes Dwayne Johnson) also are of polynesian ancestry.
Release date: November 23, 2016

The Queen of Katwe
Directed by:
Mira Nair
What it’s about: A biopic based on Ugandan prodigy Phiona Mutesi who grew up in a slum and then turned her life around after her teacher taught her how to play chess. It’s also going to be Lupita Nyong'o’s first live-action role post-Oscar and also stars David Oyelowo.
Release date: Undetermined but this is owned by Disney so it will likely get a wide release sometime this year.

Directed by: Stephen Hopkins
What it’s about: A biopic on Olympian athlete Jesse Owens during his time at the 1936 Olympics in Hitler’s Germany. Owens is played by relative newcomer Stephan James, and the rest of the cast includes William Hurt, Jeremy “I’m a sexist creep” Irons, and Carice van Houten.
Release date: February 19, 2016

Songs My Brothers Taught Me
Directed by: Chloe Zhao
What it’s about: Set in the Pine Ridge Indian Reservation the film, about a young girl who goes looking for a father figure after her father drinks himself to death and her older brother starts making plans to leave for a better life, played at Sundance in 2015. This got great reviews but it struggled to find distribution until director Zhao announced she would self-distribute in 2016. The even better news? Indie distributor Kino Lober stepped up to give it a proper release!
Release date: March 2, 2016. Follow @songsthemovie for more info. 

i almost wish we were
lovers; holding hands under a
starlit sky, laughing in grocery stores
after midnight, loving you
loving you loving you so much
and being loved back furiously and
softly and gently. i almost wish we
fireflies; lighting up the evening
sky with our love. maybe it doesn’t
work like that but maybe it should.
i almost wish we were closer;
your arms wrapped around me, my
heart enveloping yours, a green
light telling us to go forward together.
i think you have my heart. i can
almost feel you, a criss-crossed
mess of a lover, loving me back.
—  a mess of a lover // r.e.s
Some people drink themselves sick night after night.
Others get high almost as often as they take in oxygen.
And some find a new lover every other month.
And the sad part of that isn’t the fact that they’re destroying themselves, though it may be true.
The saddest part of all of it is that each of those people are just looking for a remedy for whatever bullshit they’re forced to feel.
Lets be honest, we’re all just looking for a pain-killer. And mine just so happened to be you.
—  You were the only remedy.