Who ever thought that five simple words could tear you apart? I didn’t, but I guess I was wrong since it just happened to me. If only you knew how many tears soak into my pillow every night because of you…
So today’s pink t-shirt day, for bullying….I refuse to wear anything pink. Now before you start to judge me or call me rude, heartless, etc. listen to where I’m coming from. I refuse to wear anything pink today because wearing pink, isn’t going to it raise awareness, and it isn’t going to help stop bullying. Because a stupid pink shirt sure as hell didn’t help me when I was being beat up everyday for years. Every person who wears pink today wont truly understand that this won’t help, look at it thru my eyes..cause to me, all I see is a group of people all wearing pink.
When you can openly talk to him about how your feeling shitty cause your on your period and he doesn’t freak out at the first mention of the word…you hold on to him lol. He’s a keeper. It doesn’t matter if your dating him or just friends with him, if your able to talk about stuff like this… Don’t let him go.
I’ve just been reminded as to why crows freak me the fuck out by my horticulture class.Those little bastards can pick people out of crowds and remember there faces for up to two years and can pass that on to their kids, like holy shit, cause thats what I want, a family of crows remembering my face thru the years so they can come fuck my shit up if they wish!! :s
I wish there was a button that could turn my emotions off, even for a short while. Because I can’t seem to control them lately. What is it about you that does this to me? Your the reason I wake up and get out of bed in the morning but your also going to be the death of me…kinda ironic, isn’t it?
It’s good to be home and by home I mean tumblr! I finally have wifi all the time and my phone back after being away from it for a week…dumb cruise ship made me pay for wifi, fuck that, wifi should be a given right but whatever, I’m home, I missed you guys and I’m ready to make up for the week I missed
I’m determined to get my shit together this year. I’m gonna check off everything on my list, even the small things. I’m gonna find a job so I can start saving as much as I can for college, I’m gonna work my ass off in school to get the scholarship for the college I want, I’m gonna let my hair grow, I’m gonna get fit, I’m gonna take my board out of the corner and practice 24/7 so I can kick ass at the skate park and most importantly I’m gonna try to learn to love myself and be happy with who I am and what I’ve got. 2012…please don’t fuck this up for me.