you painted me black, pushed me into the dark, told me you could only love me like this. i dimmed myself down, clamped a hand over my mouth, became someone unspoken, unclaimed. so you left me. because i was too boring but it is you who made me this way. you painted over my sky blue with black so when your absence tried to hollow me out i chipped away the black paint, i came back with yellow. i learned to glow in the dark, i learned to become more, i learned to shine through.