Ehm…  Yeah…  it’s always my own life that I write from, and, you know, at the time I was going thru a break up and I wanted to quit music and I just wanted to quit a lot of things, and that was out of fear, out of discomfort of continuing on.  

But rather than kill myself, I thought why not go and live an extraordinary life instead, because you know, death is inevitable to us all, so why make it earlier when I can live an extraordinary life. 

So that song was my own way to heal myself in times of sorrow.

(Jason Mraz En Chile , 5 Dec. 2013)

I Won't Give Up. ❤

Day 46/365 | June 7, 2013

As you can see in my post last night…it was like it doesn’t makes sense. I was too sleepy so I just end it. Tonight, I have energy to do this.. I did a lot of things today and one of them is to smile, you know the kind of smile that makes you happy inside because you are inspired to do the tasks in front of you. One reason for the smile is that I am really happy to see my new crush..*laughs he was just walking around and checked on some things like equipments, floors, establishments, etc. He has a wife, I know, that is why it is safe for me to have a small crush on him. 😍

The other reason is that it makes me happy to see kids enjoy theirselves and get excited to work and all so my work is just the same as before, serving others.:) I really hope that these kids will make a better world in the near future.

When I went home, I just did my laundry and cook my lunch food for the next 3 days. And every time I tried to do some personal chores… I ended getting my hands hurt, bleed, and wounded… Still the clumsy me.. :) I hope that tomorrow would be a great day. And also, I am fond of listening to the song “I Won’t Give Up” because I am hoping that one day, someone will stay and will never give up on me no matter what happens.

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well there’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, i won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that i can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts
We got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what i got, and what i’m not
And who i am

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
I’m still looking up

I won’t give up (No I’m not) on us (Giving up)
God knows i’m tough (I am tough), he knows (I am loved)
We got a lot (We’re alive) to learn (We are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (And we’re worth it)

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

The lyrics were really touching and makes one hope that one day someone will come and be somebody important to that one’s life. I still won’t give up even if that person I love gave up on me. Martyr much? Idk.. just maybe I love too much like what he said to me before. I miss him. Seriously! But he just want to have a 정신수양. I am just putting the pieces of me back and after that, I hope I can love again. 🎶💙


“If she’s gone, I can kiss that fucking light away.”

30 Days of Long Way Down Countdown | Coming: November 20th, 2015