The reason I feel a shot of pain and hurt go through me whenever anyone says I support an abusive relationship, is because I’m an extremely empathetic and compassionate person. I would never. I try not to take offence and I brush it off. But it does hurt. This weekend I attended a womens conference and a brave soul shared her story on stage and I literally was in the middle of the crowd sobbing hearing her talk of how she escaped an abusive relationship.
She said that she was terrified of him, that he dictated everything she did from who she was allowed to see and when and where, what she was allowed to wear and not wear, eat and not eat, socialise with, when she was allowed to leave the house, and how she could spend her money. Her voice was breaking as she told us all about the day he beat her so much she thought she was going to die. And she stayed. Why? Because of paralysing fear. She said that one day God helped her and she found the strength to leave him, calling up her brothers saying she was desperate to come home, and they helped her pack and brought her home. She wouldn’t go to work or leave the house without one of her brothers present protecting her, and she looked over her shoulder at every turn, her life filled with anxiety and fear.
But she healed. In time, she healed, and she now has a beautiful husband who cherishes her and kids (and one of her sons is named after her little brother that brought her home.) I cried my makeup off through her whole story and if you know me I’m not actually one to (literally) cry. I cry maybe once in a year, its just something my body refuses to do so my emotional hurt is expressed in other ways. But my heart broke for this poor woman. And I was a mess.
I felt like sharing this because this story in a weird way inspired me, made me sob, and also reminded me that people need our love and support. It reminded me that I’m a loving and beautiful person who deeply cares about others - no matter what anyone else tries to tell me.
If you need anyone, ever, my inbox is open. I care about all of you.