love will write the words

How could you
not notice
this whole galaxy
made of feelings
in my head,
when your eyes
are a black hole,
pulling me closer,

// dimensions

Twenty things I’ve learned in Twenty Years

1. Life will break you down until you’re crawling on your hands and knees, until you feel like you are Atlas holding the world upon your shoulders, until you feel like the raging inferno inside of your chest is going to combust. These are the moments that will forge you in a fire and make you more unbreakable than diamonds.

2. We are made of stardust, at least that’s what they say. I remember someone told me that every atom in my body once belonged to a star that exploded. At night I stare at my hands and wonder when I will erupt. I know now that I cannot trust anyone else to keep me whole in the darkest hours of the night but my own two star infused arms.

3. You will fall in love, and that is okay. Sometimes we need to fall in love to remember that there is good out there. Fall in love with the boy who opens the door for you, fall in love with your boss who works too hard, fall in love with the woman who hands out roses on that one street corner, fall in love with yourself.

4. They weren’t lying when they said we accept the love we think we deserve. I grew up being told I was a mistake and so I adopted the idea that no one could ever love a mistake. I was wrong (they were wrong) and now it’s up to me to prove them wrong. Don’t believe the things they said, you are so much more than the toxins they tried to poison you with.

5. Close your eyes, count to ten, and open them again. You are not alone. I know it may feel like you are the only one, but believe me when I say that you aren’t. I was where you are, and now I have talked to more people that have been through much worse than I than I would like to admit to. You are never alone, not really.

6. Music can save. Play it as loud as you can with the windows down as you drive (probably a little too fast). Play it while you are at work and while you are in the shower and play it when you want to give up in the middle of the day and when you want to give up in the middle of the night. Just play the music that tugs at your heartstrings, it may save you.

7. Nothing in life is easy, not really. You will catch a few breaks here and there, but the rest of the time you will find yourself fighting tooth and nail to make it back to the top. Don’t give up, I almost did this year and if I had I wouldn’t be able to witness what the sun looks like shining in her eyes.

8. You will have scars, and that’s fine. We all have them but it’s up to you if you want to hide them or show your battle wounds to the world so they know how strong of a warrior you are, so they know not to fuck with you.

9. Watch the sunrise, and watch the sunset. There is something about the sun that screams life; let the light bleed into you and consume you until you shine with it. Sometimes it’s the simple things we are missing in life that we need the most.

10. They will say they love you and then they will turn around and break your heart. You cannot compare your life’s worth to the empty spaces that were once filled around you. People will leave (willing or not) and life will go on. Let life go on.

11. If you are under the impression you are broken, then it is up to you to decide if you are or not. It took me years to admit that I was never quite whole, but when I did it was the most freeing feeling ever. Brokenness does not take away from perfection, and you are the very definition of perfect.

12. It’s okay to let people in, you don’t need to cage yourself away from the rest of the world, don’t forget to live your life while you pursue safeness.

13. Hobbies will save you when all else fails you, find a hobby and stick to it. When the world feels all too loud, a hobby can make you go deaf.

14. The moment you realize Wonder Woman or any other superhero you idolized as a child is not going to swoop down and save you is when your life changes. You have to be your own hero in this world. Stop waiting for someone to save you and go save yourself.

15. They are gone, she took her own life and he died in a car crash and she died from cancer and he left. You cannot live your life counting how many people that held a piece of your heart vanished, I’m not saying to forget about them I’m just saying that it’s okay to say goodbye.  

16. It’s okay to cry; cry in the shower and in bed and in your car, being sad is okay as long as you don’t let it consume you.

17. Smile as much as you can even on the bad days.

18. For God’s sake, don’t let them ruin you. You are so strong, you’ve made it this far and that means you can make it another day. If you can get through today you can get through tomorrow and every day that follows. If you feel like you can’t get through the day then sit down and don’t move until the light is peaking in through your window.

19. Never say never. If you think you can’t do something try anyway, this is your life, you are the main character of your own story, but you are also the author of your story. Write it however you want, but don’t give up halfway through.

20. Just don’t take your life. While this is something I learned this year I’m also writing this as a reminder to myself and to you. Don’t do it, please. There can be more to life then what you are feeling right now, don’t rob yourself of the beauty of this world. Don’t give up, no matter how much it hurts.
—  An open letter to myself, and to you. (Sometimes I write until I run out of words) ALightLitInTheDark

“Why couldn’t you just have let me in?” Her eyes locked on him, with tears threatening to fall.

He stepped forward. Giving her a tortured look. “You know, you’ve been my best friend for years.” He said as he wiped a tear away.

“I was scared to love you.” He admitted.
Everything froze for her. He had never uttered the word love to her.
“Because I knew that you were it for me. I didn’t want to fuck it up.” He said as he gave a humorless laugh. “But I ended up doing that anyway.”

She couldn’t muster up any words in her throat. Even if she wanted to, she wasn’t sure that she could get past the lump in her throat.

“I know I’ve done shitty things. When I would push you away, but there you were. Always by my side if I needed you.” He told her, regret hanging heavy in his eyes.

“That’s because you’ve always been my best friend too.” She admitted. “You’ve always had this effect on me that I could never shake.”

He gave her a sad smile. “I’ve made a lot of mistakes, but my biggest one was letting you slip through my fingers.” He said as he touched her face. “You’re still the best thing to ever happen to me. Even if I didn’t get to actually have you.”

Something hung so heavy in her heart hearing all of that. All she ever wanted was to be with him. It tore her to shreds having the person she loved, standing right in front of her. Knowing she could never have him.

—  melindacarolinee
During the day, I’m lost in your thoughts.
At night, I dream of you.
I think about you every nanosecond a day.
I just can’t imagine my life without you.
You’ve taught me to enjoy life.
You’ve brought happiness in my life.
You’re the reason I’m alive right now.
All that I need is a promise 
Promise me that you’ll always be mine.
—  The Devilish Girl

How could I ever possibly explain that whenever I look at you I feel as if my heart is pounding a thousand miles, and my face hurts too much from smiling at the thought of you?

How could I ever tell you that your eyes have this kind of sparkle in it that makes me nervous but at the same time fall even more in love with you?

How could I ever tell you that whenever you’re near me, my thoughts ramble and sometimes I forget what I’m about to say just because the sight of you always manages to take the breath from my lungs?

How would I ever be able to put into words that you make me feel alive again after months of being dead inside? How could I possibly tell you that ever since I’ve met you, there’s nothing else I would rather stare at then you.

I’m in love with sunsets, and every night I used to watch the sun go down and adore the colors that rippled through the sky. But ever since I met you, it’s you who I can’t keep my eyes off. I’d rather admire you then the colors in the sky. Nothing could ever be more beautiful, my love, you are exquisite. And everything about you has me so awestruck. I could find everything about you so poetic and beautiful but when it comes to writing it down, my mind is always left blank.

You are poetry. And my words that are left unspoken sometimes just prove that there isn’t any word in the English language to describe your worth, and your beauty. And the love that I have for you.

—  S.V//@Sempiternal.poet on Instagram

i’ve never visited
the castle in the sky
that sings to me in my sleep
and whispers in my ear.
and it was the castle
that taught me how to feel
and in love
and longing,
longing for something
i could never have.

and then i met you.

you, and your eyes
like stone and fire
and your voice
that sang me to sleep.
and it was you
that reminded me of feeling
and in love
and longing,
longing for something
that would never truly be mine.

—  castle in the sky // prompt from @thekaijusleeps
I’m still trying to forget the way your lips formed when you said my name, and those three words you used to say to me every single night.
—  “I love you.” you’d say | a.m
I want to be the one that heals you. I want to be the one that makes all the bad go away. I know it may take time but I want to be there every step of the way. One day I want you to look at me with a smile on your face and tell me how happy you are, how the past no longer hurts, how all the wounds turned to scars and although the past cannot be forgotten, it no longer pains you. I want to be the one that saves you, that makes you believe in love again, that makes you see that not everyone out there is out to hurt you.