love me like music

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

based off of this vine

please consider

"i fell in love with a girl" mixtape

1. helplessly // tatiana manaois

“i’m not a coffee drinker, but i lost sleep just thinking of you. so pour me a cup, i need to wake up, i need love - now give it to me.”

2. red // miki ratsula

“a tilt in her head and parted lips, all sense of time vanishes. the engine stands still, my heart does not. fingers intertwined, her skin is soft.”

3. drove me wild // tegan and sara

“when i envision you, i think of your sheets tangled up beneath me, your body inching closer to the edge.”

4. one bad night // hayley kiyoko

“when it feels this good, don’t let go. you make me feel like i wanna be bad.”

5. oceans // lauren sanderson

“every time i see her smile, i feel that time is passing me.”

6. drive // halsey

“your laugh echoes down the highway, carves into my hollow chest, spreads over the emptiness. it’s bliss.”

total track time: 23 minutes