I saw a life with him.
I saw coffee dates and camping trips.
I saw us holding hands on winter mornings.
I saw goodbye hugs and welcome back kisses.
I saw him meeting my parents, meeting my friends, seeing where I grew up and who I grew up with.
I saw friday night movie marathons and sunday morning cookie baking.
I saw a house with a backyard and puppies, all with him.
I saw every sappy thing with him that I always tried convincing everyone I didn’t care for.
I saw a future in him.
And it isn’t just the death of a relationship that I have to mourn,
its the future I saw with him.
I’m mourning the death of a love I thought would last a lifetime, but I am mourning the memories we never got to build on too.
—  mourning him // a.b
I realized, I was crying over someone who simply didn’t care. I’m finally moving on. Although you did teach me one thing, to never hold on to someone who isn’t holding on to you. As for me, I know better, as for you, you lost a person who actually cared.
People think im crazy when I smile after they back stab me, they don’t realize that they’re just adding to my collection and reminding me why to never trust anyone fully.
—  Shade
You know you’ve lost her forever when you miss her so bad but you can’t do anything about it. You just miss her but she’s not coming back
—  AdviceToSelf

“Listen to me, your body is not a temple. Temples can be destroyed and desecrated. Your body is a forest—thick canopies of maple trees and sweet scented wildflowers sprouting in the under wood. You will grow back, over and over, no matter how badly you are devastated.”


Beau Taplin


Graphic - Enrique Serra y Auque

I keep getting drunk
So that I can forget
How your mouth felt on mine
The warmth of your hand
And the beating of your heart
I keep making bad decisions
Hoping one will take your place
To erase your scent
To hear a new voice
And experience a new sensation
But every morning when I wake
I am filled with pain
That you’re not here
And the only thing on my mind
Is regret