This knee surgery thing is already driving me insane.
I’m freaking out because I’m so stressed out.
Last night I just broke under the stress and spent about 2 and half hours hysterically crying- Yes, that’s just because of the stress.
That all happened and my knee surgery isn’t until Tuesday the 12th, a whole 3 days. I can’t imagine what might go on with my crazy emotions between the rest of the day today and Tuesday morning. The last time I had this surgery I was crying hysterically in my hospital room so I had my mom call Mr. Whitehead, my favorite teacher that year, so I could talk to him and a few of my friends and laugh a little before I went back into the O.R. and got the anesthetic.
As stated above, it’s not the first time I’ve had this same surgery, but there are going to be a lot of more extensive things in this surgery than the last one. They’re not just shaving things down and removing things this time, they’re also repairing a number of things.
Having it this second time doesn’t make anything any easier, including the nervousness and stress. It’s still the same amount of stress and nervousness, if not more.