“Looks good, doesn’t it? They’re trapped in here. Terrified. Meat for the beast. And there’s nothin’ they can do but wait. That’s all they’ve been doing for days, waiting to be picked off, having nightmares about monsters that can’t be killed. But I don’t believe in that. I always find a way. I am the thing that monsters have nightmares about. And right now you and me are gonna show ‘em why. It’s time. Welcome to Thunderdome.”
(immigrant latina anon here who likes your blog a lot and wants to share a thought) What gets me too about the Chimamanda thing is...where is the empathy and desire to understand HER position from all these white pomo libfems? Why are THEY so certain they have nothing to learn from HER? They're so sure they know everything about our lives b/c they read a tumblr post like "uwu these silly savages were too innocent to understand vaginas" and it's like--listen to US. We're not brainwashed! (cont)
(cont) it’s like…I’m kind of on the fringes of a industry w/ a lot of well-known white trans women, some of whom I respect and admire, even, but I’m so angry rn b/c they’re…white males condescending to a Nigerian woman! And I KNOW they know SHIT about being a Nigerian woman! And it’s like…you’re really sure that one of my most celebrated and brilliant speakers on African women’s life needs to be “enlightened” by YOU, who grew up a suburban white boy??? (to be blunt about it…)
re: how teens and adults text, I would be super interested for you to explain your theory!
ok SO. a lot of this comes from various stuff i’ve seen on the linguistics of tumblr, but at the heart of it is that people in my generation (at least in the us; idk abt other countries’ timelines on this front) went thru (or are still going thru) our Formative Social Years in an environment where we’d regularly interact with even our closest friends on text-only platforms (whether texting or gchat or fb messages or w/e), and b/c so much linguistic/social information is actually conveyed by facial expression and tone of voice, we’ve collectively made up all of these textual ways of conveying that in a concise, efficient way
so like, sometimes on this blog i’ll talk about “straight people”, and sometimes i’ll talk about “str8 ppl”, and even tho i would pronounce those the same, the first is much more neutral — it would probably happen in the context like “i’m not sure how i feel about straight people writing stories that center around experiences of homophobia” — than the second, which which is much more frustrated/venting — it would be more likely to crop up in the context of “all i want is to live quietly in my little queer utopia but no str8 ppl have to come along and heteronomativity UGH #over it #whatever #NOT RLLY OVER IT”. or even with more subtle things like end punctuation: “i’m not going” basically just means i’m not currently planning to go to the thing; “i’m not going.” carries much more of a connotation of “i have seriously considered going and have Reasons for staying at home” (and note that capital — “i have Reasons for staying at home” feels different than “i have reasons for staying at home”). (and this isn’t even getting into things like shitposting or advanced memeology, but there are specific textual markers that go with things like that, some of which would be pronounced if you read them aloud, but many of which wouldn’t be)
but, crucially, for these kinds of things to carry meaning, they have to be used consistently: if i use “str8 ppl” and “straight people” interchangeably in all contexts (as i do for something like “the supreme court” vs “scotus”), then there’s no way to develop a distinction in meaning between the two — the only way to do that is to consistently use the different orthographies in different contexts. (to take another example: if something is “great”, then it’s solidly good. if something is “gr8”, it’s more in the land of “i can’t quite believe this is as earnest/tacky/tasteless as it is but i’m weirdly into it anyway?” (sometimes with a side helping of “do i just enjoy this ironically or do i genuinely enjoy it there is no way of knowing please send help”))
the upshot of this is that to be fluent in tumblr (or texting, or fb messenger, or w/e) means to actually be paying a lot of attention to subtle points of grammar and spelling, to know when to use “did u kno” or “ur” or even pull out an old-fashioned tip of the hat to “e733T haxxor 5killz”. most of these are very subtle distinctions, the kind of things you feel intuitively rather than write out explicitly, and so it’s very hard to convey them concisely and accurately to someone who’s not already immersed in the linguistic environment
and let’s be real, people in my parents’ generation aren’t. i mean, sure, many of them have facebook accounts, but these kinds of platforms weren’t around when they were in their “really getting to grips with social interaction” years, and their most important social interactions usually don’t take place exclusively online. for me, all of my closest friends are people i’ve only interacted with online for more than a year now (with a few brief face-to-face visits when various travel arrangements have allowed), so tumblr, facebook, and gchat are absolutely critical to my social life and interpersonal interactions; for my parents, their closest friends are people they see in person at work every day, so social media is a light overlay to their social lives, not the thrumming core
as such, my parents don’t grok these distinctions. to them “what are you doing?” means the same thing as “lol wut r u doing”; “gr8” is just like “great” (and “gr9” takes some parsing … ); dogespeak doesn’t have the same distinctive valence that it does to us. since they don’t know about these distinctions, they don’t feel the need to maintain more “proper” spelling/grammar when texting with a friend — different people have different set points for this, obvs, but in general i feel like “standard (setting aside all the class and racial implications in that term …) spelling and grammar” (with lighter-than-standard punctuation and capitalization) translates to “relatively neutral/pleasant conversational voice”, and then deliberate misspellings, abbreviations, letter substitutions, and grammar deviations are markers used to indicate shifts in mood — i have a vague sense that bitterness tends to collapse down and preserve grammar but weird spelling (“lyk w/e im happy 4 u but pls, i kno u lied 2 get that”) whereas enthusiasm tends to preserve spelling but weird grammar (“what i can’t even no how do air AMAZE”). since people in my parents’ generation don’t realize that doing so unintentionally changes the way their words come across, they feel free to text “poorly” (ie with lots of errors/substitutions, generally mixing various text-flagged vocal tones in ways that are often incoherent) in order to do so more quickly (b/c lbr typing everything out can be a pain (esp on a non-smartphone), and since parents don’t do it as much, they’re not necessarily as fast as our spry young fingers on a familiar interface)
so yeah, that’s what i suspect is going on
tl;dr: parents don’t use orthography to mark vocal tone in the way youngfolk do, and thus feel free to condense their texts and otherwise use textspeak. youngfolk are using orthography to mark for tone, and thus text more “correctly” to preserve their social intentions
Update on all my black metal art, posting these to keep track of them (and cause they’re trve kvlt) but honestly a lot of this just comes from my head and with the inspiration and support given to me from you guys on Tumblr blogging such beautiful aesthetics 🖤☺️
What do you reckon are the benefits of posting your poetry on tumblr (if theres not even a large chance of anyone stumbling across them) rather than just keeping it all in your notebook?
i’ve been stuck on this for daaaays bc i wanna give the best comprehensive answer but the Truth is contributing any kind of creative work on tumblr is a thorny business & i would urge anyone considering it 2 Rly think on it before they do. publishing my work on here was in a lot of ways a huge blessing but it comes w/ its own baggage.
i started writing on tumblr after a huge years long drought of not writing at all. it was great bc thru other ppl reblogging my work it gave me motivation to write & publish more. it also put me into contact w/ other writers which has been invaluable not only creatively but in my personal life. some of my greatest friends are ppl i met thru the writing community on here.
if ur not necessarily in it for the exposure (which is a double edged sitch i’ll get 2 later) then starting a sideblog for ur work like i did here is helpful because it in some ways keeps u accountable. i mean i say this & i haven’t posted a new poem on here in 3 weeks but u get my Drift. if accountability & motivation is an issue for u, then posting ur poetry on tumblr can help w/ that. it definitely reinvigorated my writing. its also cool bc u end up w/ this platform where u can v much visually see ur growth & how ur writing has changed. u could go to my writing tag on my main blog & do a quick /chrono & its V obvious that my style & interests have evolved.
that said. in all the ways tumblr can be a great place to write & engage w/ other ppl’s writing (look how many ppl have had books published thru their tumblr poetry!) it can also be a huge crapsack.
i think it can b rly dangerous for young/new/insecure writers to start off on here. we all want validation but if ur Soul reason for writing on tumblr is for ppl to see ur work u might b disappointed. it can be hard 2 get ur work seen & i know that can be v discouraging. so many ppl end up equating quality for notes & its just not true. the truth is some ppl just have a bigger following than u & that helps them get attention. u just need 2 keep that in mind & go into w/ realistic expectations.
the other thing is…people steal. straight up no sugar coating ppl will fucking steal ur shit. if they don’t do it blatantly then u’ll see it in other ways. sometimes they don’t do it on purpose. but it happens. it sucks. it doesn’t just happen to ppl who have 1k notes on a poem it happens 2 everyone. & its not just ppl w/ v little followers who plagiarize, sometimes its successful writing blogs w/ published books. every single one of my friends who publishes on tumblr has had their poem plagiarized at least once. its not a safe place to post ur writing.
bottom line: u have no control over how ppl choose to engage w/ ur work. when u post it to tumblr u leave urself rly vulnerable to a lot of shit. ppl will misappropriate & misuse ur writing if given the chance. if u still wanna do it, which is ur prerogative bc Hi, my friends & i still Definitely do it, this is my advice:
never post ur best work. save it. try to publish the best stuff thru a mag or journal or whatever. but keep ur best stuff 2 urself!! b a dragon sitting on a pile of dope poetry u won’t let strangers touch.
after that decide what 2 do w/ the rest. maybe u wanna post it & tag a couple friends. maybe u wanna make a writing blogue 2 workshop ur stories. mayb u just wanna write gay love poetry abt ur Girl where other Gays can see it. who knows! the world is ur oyster.. just b safe out there guys…
breakup anon here again! 1st of all, thanks for taking the time to answer me! nice to discuss these things w/ thoughtful people :) 2. I know there's lots of talk of new beard. Could very well be legit. I'm skeptical b/c i think few actually know full plans. Stuff like this gets spread to fandom for a reason. My guess: they're testing reaction to new beard just like they're doing w/ other things. Seeing what's worthwhile. I think there's a lot of testing of strategy happening right now.
Well hello again breakup anon. I agree. I think tumblr is used to test strategy and plans a lot. and to see what people’s general reaction is to things, Though a lot is missed as much of the conversation takes place in private. I can say the idea of a new beard is not going over well. Most prefer if not the truth, than single Darren.
Hope wherever you are its a beautiful a day as it is here in the city. Got to take a lovely 3 hour walk this afternoon and I enjoyed every second.
here’s a few blending tips, requested by morrriigan :^)
Use a rough brush first, highlight darker/lighter areas, and then start blending using a softer brush (or multiple brushes - though i use only one because i’m lazy ahaha). create a new layer for each step (it helps a lot)
don’t be afraid to change your brush settings often! you need to be 100% comfortable with the brush you’re using.
you also need to remember that skin is red/yellow/blue-ish in places. create a new layer, set it on multiply/soft light (depends how dark your picture is) and using a soft (!!) brush with low flow & opacity, highlight some areas like this. trust me, it’ll make your painting look much more plastic!! ->
and now, a few important tips:
NEVER, I REPEAT, NEVER SHADE WITH BLACK. unless you’re painting a B/W portrait. dark red/brown/purple/orange,.. - yes, black - no!
don’t use a round brush to paint freckes. freckles are not perfect circles. i suggest looking up free freckle brushes, there’s a lot of them on DA/tumblr! (i paint them using my default brush i use for literally everything, just with different settings, so that’s a possibility, too — if you use a messier brush that also works as a freckle brush)
there are websites with skin color swatches, use those!!
Since you love genderbends ... like a lot... what about Nero and Dell ( Neru and Haku's genderbends) ?
soz to dish this out on you my friend, there’s literally no hard feelings b/w us at all but i gotta say this directly because I’ve only been saying this in tags or strikeouts and i don’t think anyone is getting an idea but- can ppl pls pls plspslsplsplspslpsl check my suggestions tag before submitting a suggestion…….. or even just jjinomu.tumblr.com/search/nameofcharacter,,,,, ive gotten dell like 8273192873912 times at this point (and i remember getting nero as well) idk if I’m going to reply to suggestions if all I’m doing is repeating my answer… pls
anyway, sorry to start off my response being a total dickwad but to answer ur actual question, dell’s a maybe-yes and so is nero (bc i want to do neru, haku first but if u want nero and dell as a set with then surelito my palito, but that may mean no sakine, or they can be a five pack man who knows)
From this point on, if someone talks to me about this Bering and Wells mess in a way that is not polite, well-worded, or reasonable, I will block them. Unfortunately, a lot of the B&W fandom cannot accept an apology and think any man who says a fact is a misogynist,w hen if it were a woman saying the same thing, nobody would bat an eye.
If you are polite, I will gladly talk to you, of course. If you just want to kindly and calmly explain why people feel the way they feel, I will be happy to discuss.
I hope that you all can at least try to see things from my perspective, like I’m trying to see things from yours.
Tumblr and fandom etiquette isn’t written down anywhere, so it’s not like I would know everything about responding to an old post. The interiew was not mentioned in the post, so it’s not like I would know it was brought up (from what I saw, it wasn’t).