No one answered. The noon-bell rang. Still no one spoke. Frodo glanced at all the faces, but they were not turned to him. All the Council sat with downcast eyes, as if in deep thought. A great dread fell on him, as if he was awaiting the pronouncement of some doom that he had long foreseen and vainly hoped might after all never be spoken. An overwhelming longing to rest and remain at peace by Bilbo’s side in Rivendell filled all his heart. At last with an effort he spoke, and wondered to hear his own words, as if some other will was using his small voice.
`I will take the Ring,’ he said, `though I do not know the way.‘
The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring by JRR Tolkien
You step into the road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there’s no knowing where you might be swept off to. Do you realize this is the very path that goes through Mirkwood, and that if you let it, it might take you to the Lonely Mountain or even further and to worse places?
Bilbo Baggins, who used to tell this to Frodo on the path outside Bag End’s door, especially after a long walk. Fellowship of the Ring, Ch III: Three’s Company.
Bilbo spent his life wishing he could return. He left his heart at the Lonely Mountain one November day among the falling snow, but went back to the Shire because that was where he was supposed to be. Where he ‘belonged.’ And he could not suffer himself to stay after the grief of the Battle of the Five Armies.
But every time Bilbo got on the path outside Bag End, he remembered his 50-year-old self also getting on that road to go on an adventure. And an older Bilbo was always tempted to follow it, back along the paths through Mirkwood and on to the Lonely Mountain.
But then Bilbo would recall all that had happened and who would not be there.
Maybe he imagined walking further into the Lonely Mountain, along pillared paths and great halls of stone until he was led to the catacombs of Erebor, deep within the mountain.
And for all his adventures, all the dangers he had faced, Bilbo Baggins could not stomach going to worse places – those inside himself.
So I’ve decided to re-read LOTR before going any further with HoME because it’s becoming too difficult to comprehend anything relating to the 3rd age, since I have utterly and completely forgotten the source material. SO. a re-read is in order. plus, i miss an actual story? i mean, HoME and the silm are great but… they’re encyclopedias lmao. therefore, I’m going to be liveblogging my reading beginning with chapter 1. idk how long it will take me to read it all but I’ll try to do some every day.