The real goodbye is the one that happens slowly, over time, wordlessly. There is no ‘see you again.’ There are no future plans. You stop checking up on each other, and eventually you go back to being strangers.
as much as i hate admitting it to myself, i still do type your username on the search bar. i still remember your birthday and the way your blue eyes shine when you smile. i still wait for a someday where maybe we’ll cross paths again but deep down, i know someday doesn’t have a date. i still lay on the floor, listen to your song and feel my tears filter through the cracks of my broken heart. no one told me getting over someone would be so damn hard, if only you would’ve come with a warning sign…
i long for the day i won’t see you in my dreams anymore.
i continued to love you,
even after you broke my heart
because you were my first love
and i didn’t know what it is
that you’re supposed to do
with all that love resting in your hands
when you cannot give it
to the person
you first fell in love with.