lost all of his respect for human life

Levi, Erwin, and the Decision to Die

I’ve heard some criticism of Levi allowing Erwin to die, and Erwin choosing to die, in Chapter 84. They claim that it was a plot device to allow main-character Armin to survive that went against their characters. To them, I would advise them to reread the manga the chapter and really take in what’s going on.

Specifically, the flashback sequence. 

Isayama didn’t include those to fill up pages, you know. Each one is a crucial memory in Levi’s development which results in the decision he made. The salvation of Armin was very much a character-driven decision, not a plot one - it was made to be Levi’s choice for a reason, and his decision resulted in the perfect resolution to Erwin’s arc and extensive growth to Levi’s.

The first of these flashbacks displays Armin’s motivation. Again, this is by no means an ass-pull; Isayama planned for this all these chapters ago by having Levi listen in on this conversation because it his decision to save Armin is crucial to his development. It’s Armin’s dream which is crucial here. Look at the genuine joy and excitement in his eyes. He really, truly wants to see the ocean for the beauty of it all. But in the next flashback…

…Erwin’s words don’t match his actions. He expresses the same determination as Armin did, but without any of Armin’s fire. Even as Erwin speaks these words his head is downcast, and he even admits that he has no idea what he will do afterwards, whereas for Armin, the idea of seeing the ocean is more of a symbolic gesture for appreciating the freedom outside the walls - one of hope for the future itself.

As an appreciative side note, the parallels between Armin and Erwin continue to be strong, and the fact that both of their fates rely on Bertholdt, their third parallel, ties in the three interconnected worlds of the Warriors, the Survey Corps, and the 104th. It is a decision to save one of three halves of the same self. For Armin, the dream that drives all his actions is to see the ocean; for Erwin, the basement; for Bertholdt, his hometown. Levi doesn’t consider the worth of Bertl’s life in this equation, given his lack of a personal connection to him and Bertl being an enemy, but panels of Bertholdt between flashbacks do, I think, imply his connection to the two.

Anyway getting back on track, Levi hasn’t realised this crucial difference between Armin and Erwin yet. It takes a very important memory to trigger that recognition… 

The death of Kenny Ackerman in Chapter 69 is perhaps the definitive moment for Levi’s character development, as well as for the vital theme of Intoxication throughout SNK. In probably my favourite scene of the series, Kenny explains how in this cold, brutal, bloody world, dreams and aspirations are existential drugs to keep the trauma and the pain at bay, and give meaning to the endless slaughter.

But there comes a point where one experiences so much pain, so much loss, that the drug enslaves you. Just like how drug addicts eventually cease to take any pleasure from its consumption yet can’t stop because now they’re addicted, Kenny no longer feels any real longing for power; but after Uri’s death, that’s all he has left.  He sets himself a goal to distract himself from the emptiness inside. If he had still truly desired power, he would have taken the titan serum himself. But he doesn’t. His dream was simply the strings animating his lifeless body.

And the same is true of Erwin.

Kenny’s words about Uri echo back to Levi to refer to Erwin. As it should, as Uri and Erwin are the respective receivers of the infamous Ackerbond. He, like Uri, like Kenny, is enslaved by this dream. Erwin practically says it himself in Chapter 80:

The answers are the only thing that drive Erwin. Aside from that, his life is empty, thus his longing to die…but he can’t. Because the addiction still enslaves him.

This is, of course, the long-awaited revelation of the question Erwin asked his father in his flashback in Chapter 55, all those years ago.

“What doesn’t exist” in this scenario specifically refers to the lost records of humanity. revealing that dream at the core of Erwin’s character - to challenge convention and find the truth of what lies beyond. This is the dream. This is the memory that reappears in Erwin’s dying moments because it is the base essence of who he is - it is what plays inside his head with every decision he makes. This question is all he is now. 

And here it is, the explicit connection between Erwin and Kenny - the two most important people in Levi’s life. You can see the shock and pain in his eyes as he makes the connection and knows that Erwin was about to make the same choice Kenny had…

…to reject the serum and die. To be free from their intoxication at last. He doesn’t know about Armin’s situation. He’s making this decision because he does not truly want to see the basement anymore. Remember that Erwin is still in a delirious state - the recollection of Levi’s words to Erwin were included to show that here Erwin is not thanking Levi for offering him the serum; he is thanking him for his actions in chapter 80 - what he wanted to say behind his sad smile. By making the decision for him, Levi liberated him from his intoxication at long last. 

At this point, Levi knows that the cruellest thing to do to Erwin right now would be to return him to its grasp. The panel showing Armin’s eyes, free from the sadness of Erwin’s, shows that he still posseses the younger dream - the innocent dream of a younger version of Erwin’s self, before it escalates into a life-dominating intoxication. Levi knows that the younger dream is the one that must be preserved.

“Hell” is his addiction, the compulsion that swallowed up his life and caused him so much pain and grief. This is what people who insist that Erwin should have seen the basement before he died don’t understand. Seeing the basement could never be a positive thing for Erwin’s character, because once he saw it, he would have been overcome with despair because it could never have possibly lived up to his expectations. His goal would be complete, but he would still be a broken man, and upon discovering the secrets of the basement he will have no choice but to see those ghosts all the time.

Seeing the basement would not have been the fulfilment of a dream. It would have shattered it. It would have been the fruition of a toxic addiction which had ruined Erwin’s life, and by allowing Erwin to die, Levi gave him the agency to wrest back control of his life from its grasp.

And Erwin, by dying, fulfilled what the dream was back when he was a child, back when it was chaste, before it was the basement and when it was a simple question. With that question, he saw beyond the illusion and defied the powers that be. In accepting death, he in turn saw beyond the drunken haze of the dream and broke free of its control on him.

Erwin Smith died triumphant, and free.

Just thought up sad headcanons where when Barry comes back the team has trouble refocusing on Barry as the main Flash & the team leader.

After six months gone, they rely on Wally first over Barry - call him first, trust him to get the job done, etc.

And then when a decision needs to be made, they look to Iris before Barry. They might look to ANYONE else before Barry. 😩

At CCPD, Singh has a hard time taking back an employee that was just “out of town” for half a year. He says the blinds have fallen from his eyes, and what Julian wanted a year ago is finally happening. Singh no longer sees Barry as the “golden boy.” Barry only gets back in at the insistence of both Joe AND Julian. When Iris storms in, outraged that he’s reluctant to give Barry his job back, Singh says, “I know you’re going to marry the guy, but that doesn’t give you any weight whether he gets his job back or not.”

Even the general population is hesitant to see the Flash as their hero again, since he “abandoned” them for six months. Kid Flash made a statement following his disappearance saying that the Flash sacrificed himself to save them all. Most believed him and were in awe. They even built a statue in his honor. But when he reappeared many thought it had all been a cover up for him to leave for whatever reason & they don’t trust him.

On top of all of this, Barry is just plain OUT OF IT living in reality again, trusting what he sees is real and not an impersonation of the speed force. And also just being in touch w/ his own body, since he’d started to become one with the speed force, and so more of an element of speed than a human body.

Barry & Iris have a fight one night when Barry takes Iris’s engagement ring while she’s in the shower. When she demands it back, he refuses, saying maybe they should slow down now that her life isn’t in danger. She rails abt how he already took back her ring once. He’s not allowed to do it again. The fight escalates & he finally vents about all the above frustrations & that he feels like everything he loved about life has been taken from him. And w/o even trying, people have lost respect & faith in him - even his own team. She insists he hasn’t lost her no matter what & that the months w/o him were unbearable. He says that while he hasn’t lost her love, she has taken over his role on the team - “because I HAD to!” she screams. To which he says he left everyone in capable hands, that they don’t need him anymore, that they’re getting along fine without him. He’s numb when he says this now, not angry, not raging, not hurt, just sort of detached from it all.

“You should’ve left me in there,” he says quietly, finally.

Iris is absolutely CRUSHED, but she’s too shocked to stop him when he walks out the door with her engagement ring, not knowing if or when he will return.


Why do I torture myself?!

Aang and the Lion Turtle.

“The true mind can weather all the lies and illusions without being lost. The true heart can touch the poison of hatred without being harmed. Since beginningless time, darkness thrives in the void, but always yields to purifying light.”

The lion turtle reminds me of Aang, the lion turtles of the air nomads. I’ve never seen this parallel pointed out before, but I believe it can be significant, and shed new light on the above quote and ATLA’s ending in general.

In one of his moments of greatest doubt, Aang desperately asked the universe for a way to save the world without having to take a life, via meditation, and the lion turtle answered. Why? When I first watched ATLA, I thought it was because of his status as the Avatar. After all, back then, the Avatar was supposed to be the vessel of the Spirit of the Earth: we saw how Aang could connect to the life around him, how the earth itself could call to him and help him on his quest (in The Swamp for example). So, without thinking much about it, this is how I kinda subconsciously read this scene: the lion turtle came because it should, because it is a part of the universe - it represents the universe - and when the Avatar asked for its help in trying to restore balance to this universe, it was only right that it does.

But now, I think maybe there was something more personal there? More unique and relevant to Aang as a person and the Lion Turtle as an individual being.

(as usual, this post accidentally got long)

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To all transgender Wiccans...

The Maiden loves all those who sow seed and help bees to pollinate Her flowers.

The Holly King protects all those who take evergreen into their homes in His honour over winter.

The Mother cherishes all those who cherish each other and all life on Earth.

The Oak King brings life and strength to everyone who respects Nature and honours the Gods in their life.

The Crone brings comfort to those who have lost, and brings strength and life to those who reap the harvest with respect and sustainability.

The Gods don’t care what gender you were assigned at birth. 

Nature doesn’t care what’s between your legs, or on your chest.

Embrace that which makes you a better person. Be loving, kind, and respectful, both to your fellow humans and to all of nature. Take pride in yourself, because you’re a wonderful person with great things to offer. Take pride in others when they take a chance, and support those who need your help when their attempts fail. 

Your gender does not define you. Nobody but you has the right to define you or any aspect of you. 

– Juniper

Let us be vividly clear about this.

What the New York Times did to Michael Brown today was not merely slander. It wasn’t a case of a lack of journalistic integrity.

Highlighting that a black teenager was “no angel” on the day he is being laid to rest after being hunted and killed by racist vigilante forces is not an unfortunate coincidence.

The New York Times deliberately played into an archaic American tradition in devaluing both the merit of black life and the tragedy of black death.

They chose the day of his funeral, as his family, friends and activists everywhere have to grapple with a human being lost to pontificate about how he was “no angel”. Michael Brown was many things to many people; a son, a brother, a cousin, a nephew and another black causality of murderous police institutions and today, amidst all the racist violence he, his loved ones and community have had to endure, he was going to finally receive the respect and moment of honor he deserved and NYT decided today, of all days, to tune in their audience onto wholly irrelevant facts about his life - that in turn, transform the very injustice surrounding his death and the following police violence that plagued Ferguson into a national panel about whether or not his death is actually worth mourning and their language suggested that to them, it indeed is not.

This was hardly an accident or mistake. This is the perpetual hostility that is met against black life in America. The consensus is that black people deserve no respect and for black life to be legitimized and honored, we must meet a list of prerequisites. Subsequently, if black people aren’t valued, neither are our deaths understood as tragic or murders seen as criminal action.

This has been the atmosphere of America since its inception and much has not improved.

his-cornelia  asked:

(Meme reply) "I'm sorry"

Luca’s salt and pepper fur shone in the afternoon sunshine. It was a beautiful day really and he had decided to go for a walk outside of the ape city, it could no longer be called a village. Too many had joined the number of their colony to call it such. Thousands lived there, and Luca along with the other high ranking apes ran it underneath their nearly mythical leader Caesar. 

The city lay far away from where their first village had once sat. Miles and miles away. The exodus east led by Caesar had put them a world away from Francisco.

Many years had passed since San Francisco, and now Luca encroached on being almost 40 years of age, yet his health was as hale as ever. Apes could take care of themselves in wonderful new ways now, no doubt he had another decade or so left in his life….perhaps even more. 

Yet here Luca walked, outside the city, collecting his thoughts and enjoying the pleasant weather. That is when he saw it, a distant hill with wooden markers sticking out of the ground. Graves. Graves from long ago, nigh 20 years ago. Markers made for those lost in their final conflict with the humans…bodies which could never be recovered. It had been years since he had paid his respects, so there he would visit.

Luca was adorned in loose-fitting/light clothing, all the apes who held esteemed positions did so. This clothing was for casual excursions such as the one he was on, for ceremonies he had an ornate outfit which he dawned, complete with a tall headdress with flaps on the side, he was the general now after-all of their people.

Finally he reached the top of the hill and looked over the markers until at last he came upon Cornelia’s, Caesar’s late queen….when she had “died” Caesar was gutted. He had not taken another mate since. 

Luca sat before Cornelia’s grave, reflecting on the times he had with her so long ago. Luca believed that somewhere, somehow, she lived. Not in this world mind you, but beyond. Luca had heard Maurice speak of such things he had read in old human books, such things as “Soul’s never dying.” and this made sense to the gorilla. There had to be more to life than what was before them.

Then it rang out, a rather clear voice with a small amount of rasp to it;

“I’m sorry…”

Luca turned at once, beads on his clothing clinking against each-other. His green eyes grew wide. Cornelia. It was her. Not in a kingdom come but before him now! 

anonymous asked:

How about the person that doesnt respect you for your religion, maybe kicked your dog but runs a homeless shelter, is a loving parent to 2 adopted kids and gives all money left to charity. Punch them too?

yea. if he threatens to remove my ability to freely practice any faith, that does not impose on his ability to continue his own, and he threatens my peaceful life, going by the tenets of satanism i will punch him. he is an asshole who believes another human does not deserve the same liberties he does, and following the tenets thusly he has lost his access to those liberties himself.

i may not necessarily wish him dead but i will certainly do all in my power to keep him the hell out of my life. his abuse of me is not forgiven by the other deeds he does for others, he has not taken motion to seek my forgiveness and no longer impose on me. so, he is my enemy.

the logic of “[x] did this nice thing, they can’t possibly be bad” is fuckin awful and leads to ignorance of awful deeds.

Why I Love Stelena

Anon asked: I really love your Olicity metas,they are always so profound and amazingly written,you make me fall in love with Olicity even more if that’s possible! Now, I’m a huge Delena fan (don’t worry, I come in peace;) ), but I totally agree that the show hasn’t been at its best in s5, to say the least… However, my questions go back to the roots of Stelena, because I’m truly curious: doesn’t bother you that they didn’t get a longer build-up? And what made you ship Stelena (aside from disliking Delena)?

Oh!! That makes me soooo happy. Nothing pleases me more than when my posts help you enjoy Arrow more or love Olicity more.  YIPPEE!!

And I LOVE hearing from Delena fans. No seriously. There is absolutely no reason why we can’t converse in peace. At the end of the day - we are all Vampire Diaries fans right? Yes, we totally agree- the show has slacked off in the later years. It frustrates me because this is Delena’s “time” and you guys deserve better than the shitty writing you are getting.

That’s a really interesting question about Stelena. You are right. They didn’t have much build up. It was 1x10 that they slept together and they were pretty much together until the end of S2…with of course that tortuous break up in 2x06.  You know, it didn’t really bother me. I get why fans love the slow build. I am LOVING it with Olicity.  However, I think there are couples where a slow build is necessary and there are couples where a slow build is not. Whatever serves the story better is what matters. To me, Stelena was one of those couples where a slow build wasn’t necessary.

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homogorman-deactivated20141105  asked:

but can you explain me how kili/tauriel is a great addition to the plot?

Sure, I can try. 

When we first heard about Tauriel being in the movie I was totally thrilled and happy. It’s because Elves are my favourite race and it’s always great to see more of them on the screen and secondly - in the book we don’t really have female characters so it would be amazing idea to add one to a movie because, why not? However, after revealing some spoilers concerning her love relations with some other canon characters, well, I stopped liking her at all, ESPECIALLY when I was reading about her being in love with Kili or Legolas. That was because I was simply scared that it would change plot of the book too much and make it annoying or too incompatible with Tolkien’s canon?

But now when we’ve seen the movie I think we can all agree on the fact that the relationship bewteen Tauriel/Kili and maybe even Legolas being a bit jealous and angry doesn’t affect the major plot of the movie AT ALL. And that is why I accept it and enjoy watching them together. Desolation of Smaug is way more… vigorous than Unexpected Journey? I mean, lots of stuff is happening literally all the time - we see much fighting, running, jumping into fire and so on and to me, beautiful scenes between Kili and Tauriel are kind of taking a breathe while watching. 

What’s more - in my opinion a big part of both Hobbit movies is about hatred and dissension between two races, Dwarves and Elves. We can see how it began and then grumpy Thorin makes it even more obvious. Thranduil and Legolas also make it clear that Dwarves are not really nice companions to get drunk with. And then thanks to Tauriel we see that it’s all just a rubbish and the conflict not worth of all this anger and old offense? I mean, to me it’s amazing to see that nothing is lost and the friendship bewteen them is still possible, that’s why I also totally LOVE the scene where Thorin saves Legolas’ life. 

Except all those serious reasons like race-alliance and respect  I simply enjoy seeing them together, talking about stars and being dreamers, understanding each other because they both love the beauty of the world, are able to see its light among all shadows and evil things. Isn’t it beautiful? Tauriel sees Kili as a young human, being full of goodness and hope, desire to live and fight for his family, friends and home. 

I know I may sound a bit (or a lot) pathetic but to make long story short - their relation is beautiful, makes me happy, brings a light and doesn’t destroy the plot of the movie at all. That’s why I grew up to love it.