loss-of-appetite

Sometimes I lose my appetite for days or weeks - even the foods I normally crave become as appealing as eating paper towels. It normally goes hand in hand with sensory issues with the food. These are some of the tricks I’ve learned to make sure I get enough nutrition anyway

  • The first and most important thing is you need to remember that eating anything is better than eating nothing. You may need to suspend your normal standards or rules - eating foods that are less “healthy" than normal, eating the same thing over and over gain, or just not enjoying your food as much.
  • Energy (calorie) dense foods like nuts or energy bars are really helpful, especially if the actual process of eating is unpleasant. Sometimes its really nice to be able to eat a meals worth of energy in under a minute
  • Chewing gum helps me get my appetite going - If I am trying to get myself hungry for a meal I will often start with gum 30-40 minutes before.
  • I rely a lot on eating a little of something I’m comfortable with to pique my appetite and moving to a different food group afterwards. Eating the first thing is always the hardest - I find after I start my brain realizes that food is ok and I can move onto larger portions or a different food.
  • When I eat something sweet I tend to crave more sugar later. So I use this to my advantage and have a small portion of something with some sugar in it and then wait to be hungry for more. Sometimes I will try to eat something a little more nutritious the second time, others I just have more of whatever was finally able to pique my interest
  • For the same reason consider other foods you find hard to put down. I’ve heard that things with both carbs and fat in them are the most “addictive” and I use that when I’m struggling to get enough to eat. It’s ok if this is a “junk” food - remember eating anything is better than eating nothing
  • Ginger tea or ginger chews make my stomach feel better
  • Keep track of your food. It can be really informal, like making sure you don’t skip meals, or it can be some other strategy of keeping a food journal or counting calories. You don’t need to be super precise, it just helps remind you to eat when your body isn’t sending the right signals
  • Look at “food porn.” Scrolling through a food blog you love on tumblr or watching a cooking show can be a good way to get your appetite going
  • Have a nutritional drink like an ensure can help you make sure you are getting all the nutrients you need without much thought. I find ensure is best very cold or on ice.
  • Look for foods or categories of foods that seem easier to tolerate than the others. This might be something you know is easy on your stomach, something of a certain texture, something hot/cold, or just a favorite food. 
  • If there is a food that you find less unappealing than the others, or feels “safe” to you go for it, even if you’ve eaten it many times in the last few days. I even find having eaten a food or meal in recent memory helps convince my body its not gonna be harmful
Witch Bullet Journal Collection Ideas

Here’s some ideas for collections and habit tracker ideas for your BuJo. I’m Slow to to do this myself, but it’s hard to find time to BuJo with two children and being really depressed. So here it is.

  • Tarot Keep Guide - Lists of general meanings of the cards
  • Meditation Habit Tracker
  • Watering plants habit tracker
  • Garden Tips - this is handy for city witches that notice that certain plants may or may not grow on your patios/balconies. Make a little guide with sun, shade and water requirements as well as other useful notes
  • Essential Oil Quick Guide - I only have 10 essential oils because they are expensive in my area, but I wrote a little correspondence for them in my journal
  • An Actual Calendar! - Sorry but the traditional future log messes me up every time, so I use full calendar months
  • Eating Habit tracker - When I get really done in the downy dumps I start to loss my appetite, So I use this to make sure I eat at least something three times a day, even if it’s just soup. This is great to do with water so you can make sure you’re getting enough
  • Leave a space for sigils on every page. Or doodle. I always try and watch the doodle with what I’m writing.
  • Things to research - the names says it all

This is it for now, feel free to reblog with your own ideas. I’m going to post some of my Bullet journal pages on my Instagram.

- Witchy Wolf

The Signs Falling/Being in Love (NEW)

Aries: Appetite Loss - All you think about is him or her. Producing more dopamine, you feel little need for food or other basic necessities while floating through each day on a cloud of hope.  

Taurus: Abandon Regular Routines - You may abandon your work or your responsibilities.  Your thoughts and actions become devoted to your love interest.

Gemini: Fresh Complexion - You feel different and it shows. Others might catch you smiling or blushing for no apparent reasons.

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Boredom is different nowadays. It’s about super-saturation, distraction, restlessness. I am often bored but it’s not for lack of options: a thousand TV channels, the bounty of Netflix, countless net radio stations, innumerable unlistened-to albums, unwatched DVDs and unread books, the maze-like archive of YouTube. Today’s boredom is not hungry, a response to deprivation; it is a loss of cultural appetite, in response to the surfeit of claims on your attention and time.
—  Simon Reynolds, Retromania: Pop Culture’s Addiction to Its Own Past
Food for the not hungry.

I’ve said this before, but again, I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome).  And my doctor has put me on Metformin to combat the side effects and kick my out of control hormones into shape.  It’s great stuff.  My hair has stopped falling out (and is actually much thicker now), I’ve lost weight (and continue to lose weight), and my body is no longer held hostage by my hormones.

Thing is, it has a few side effects.  One of those being a loss of appetite.  So I have to make sure I’m eating, and when I feel I’m hungry I have to get up right then and go fix myself something to eat or else a half an hour later I won’t be hungry and will totally forget.  Also, I tend to wander the store having no idea what to get to fix for meals because I’m not hungry, therefore nothing looks appetizing.

And that’s when I discover how much I love Tumblr.  Because people reblog some of the neatest ideas for food preparation.  I saw someone reblog a baked eggs recipe.  I can’t find it now, but I remember about how it went. So I cracked a few eggs into a muffin pan with slices of bacon, and topped them with either cheddar or feta.  Oh and a little bit of sea salt and pepper.  

Cooked them at 350 degrees for 10 minutes.  Oh my god. I am in protein filled heaven this morning.  I microwaved a sweet potato to eat with them, with a little butter and cinnamon on it.  

Would do this again.

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Herb: Larrea tridentata, sometimes called Larrea mexicana

Common names: Chaparral, creosote bush, la gobernadora, hedionillo, medicine chest

Called creosote because it smells like the tar derivative also called creosote.

Family: Zygophyllaceae, also called caltrops. It is related to Guaiacum and Tribulus terrestris (also called puncturevine)

Warnings and Cautions: Rare reports of serious liver disease have been associated with internal use and ingestion of creosote. Seek advice from a professional health care practitioner before use and, in doing so, inform them if you have had or are at risk for liver disease, kidney disease, or if you frequently imbibe alcoholic beverages, or are using any medications. Discontinue use and seek a physician if vomiting, fever, fatigue, abdominal pain, loss of appetite, or jaundice (e.g. dark urine, pale stools, yellow discoloration of the eyes) occur. This is herb is NOT safe to be used during pregnancy.

Interesting facts: There is a creosote colony in the Mojave Desert called the “King Clone” that is 11,700 years old. Creosote is one of the oldest living organisms on Earth (as far as measuring this type of thing goes).

Creosote grows in colonies – rings of plants that sprout up from an underground root system that are genetically identical clones of the original plants.

Botanical Description: Larrea tridentata is a variably sized shrub with tiny evergreen dark green leaves. The resinous leaves are compound and opposite, with two leaflets attached to each other at the base. The flowers are shiny yellow with five petals, many to a branch. The fruit is a capsule densely covered in white hairs, which look like fluffy puff balls.

Wildcrafting Tips: Creosote is often one of the dominant plant where it grows. There are often huge colonies of it scattered through an area. Look for plants that have more young growth, which is a brighter green color and has a strong resinous smell. Cut areas of the plant where the stem is flexible, not hard and woody, and where the leaves are waxy or oily to the touch, preferably those which leave a faint residue on your fingertips if you rub the small leaves between the pads of your fingers. The best creosote to harvest is found in washes between the mesas of the desert, where water runs down into stream beds which quickly dry up. Do not pick plants alongside roads, as these are not safe for use.

Collect the bundles by either snapping off the flexible stems where they join the woody branches or using pruning shears. Creosote is not so woody as to require heavy duty loppers. Gather onto a laid out flat breathable cloth, such as cotton broadcloth or burlap or muslin, and roll up to transport. You will lose some leaves, but these can be gathered from the cloth.

Once to your bundling location, unroll and leave the plant flat on the breathable cloth for a day or so, flipping over occasionally, then bundle.

Creosote can mold, so please dry a little before bundling, to prevent the inner part of the bundle from moldering and the entire bundle from becoming unusable.

Caution: the smell of creosote as is it drying or being bundled is intense and will easily fill a small room. Some persons I have wildcrafted with have reported feeling dizzy, lightheaded, or nauseated from the aromatic oils in the air, so please keep that in mind.

Parts Used: The fresh green leaves or the green leaves once dried, the waxy yellow flowers, and the greener stems are all used for magickal and medicinal purposes. The woody stems are used for ceremonial fires, but caution, as creosote is mildly psychoactive and the fires may cause reactions varying from dizziness, nausea, lightheadedness, a feeling of floating, or even mild hallucinations. Of course, allergic reactions may also occur from breathing in the smoke, so start with small amounts and watch for difficulty breathing and itching of the skin, mouth, nose, and throat.

Medicinal Uses: Larrea tridentata is poisonous in larger doses. Please be cautious. There are multiple reports of serious poisoning, acute hepatitis, kidney and liver damage, up to kidney and liver failure, many of which were the result of using creosote preparations that were not properly diluted or which were taken too often. Do not take at the same time as hepatotoxic drugs or alongside large amounts of pain killers such as aspirin.

Creosote can cause severe stomach pain, nausea, diarrhea, weight loss, and fever. Putting creosote on the skin can cause skin reactions, including photo-sensitivity, rash, and itching.

An important consideration with creosote is that the plant is very bitter and the taste and smell are quite potent. So when deciding whether to use this as an herbal remedy, make sure the person it is being prepared for can tolerate the smell and taste. I do not recommend you attempt to improve the taste with large amounts of honey, agave, or sugar, as this just makes the strong taste saccharine with an intensely bitter aftertaste.

First Nations peoples of the Southwestern deserts of the United States have used this plant in teas, tinctures, and salves, as a poultice to retard bacterial growth, as an emetic, expectorant, and diuretic to treat venereal disease, tuberculosis, bowel cramps, and rheumatism (Kearney and others 1951, Mabry and others 1977)

It has been used as a herbal treatment for stiff limbs, open sores, snakebites, menstrual cramps, and poxes (Bowers and Wignall 1993, Mabry and others 1977)

The Breast Cancer Research and Treatment study in 2005 showed that the antioxidant compound, nordihydroguaiaretic acid (NDGA) inhibits the IGF-1 and c-erbB2/HER2/neu receptors and suppresses growth in breast cancer cells. (Youngren, J.F., Gable, K., Penaranda, C. et al. Breast Cancer Res Treat (2005) 94: 37.) Of course, this would be in a professional medicinal environment with controlled injections of an extracted compound – no amount of ingesting creosote will cure cancer, though it may kill you with liver or kidney failure.

Creosote is antimicrobial and anti-fungal, it has through time been used to prevent infections due to cuts, burns, and bites, and also those internal caused by pathogens and parasites entering the body.

Creosote is used internally to inhibit the growth of fibroids.

Creosote contains lignans that are very similar to estrogen, giving it an effect on the skin similar to that of soy taken internally.

According to an ethno-botanist of field studies for the herbal program at the Southwest Institute of Healing Arts, the Pima people of central Arizona would use just an inch or so of fresh creosote dropped in water as a cleansing drink, to flush a variety of fungal or parasitic microbials from the body, as well as for its antioxidant properties.

It is a very strong liver stimulant, and so should not be used by individuals with liver disease such as cirrhosis or hepatitis.

The main way I use creosote is to help prevent and kill a number of infectious organisms. These include bacteria, fungi, and protozoa. I mix creosote with myrrh and dragon’s blood resin, for I find it is not strong enough many times on its own. I do not recommend creosote for staphylococcus aureus.  It often works okay for fungal skin infections such as athlete’s foot.

For athlete’s food and similar, if the infection is on an area you can put into wash basin (i.e., hands and feet), simply soak the infected area in a very strong hot water infusion of creosote. If it cannot be soaked, use a hot compress. Afterward, I would recommend that you alternate between remedies (see Recommended Combinations below). Apply the Larrea tincture directly on the wound and/or put it on a gauze pad which is then held in place. With these types of infections, please also consider community protection and telling the infected person that they are contagious. And you and they both need to cleanse yourselves thoroughly after handling the infected area.

Creosote can also be used to treat infectious gut organisms. I recommend seeking a medical opinion on whether it is a gut infection or a non-infectious disorder, such as irritable bowel syndrome. Also, it can be difficult to know which type of infectious organism. Giardia, for example, can infect a person who drank contaminated water, and can be treated with a combination of creosote, parsley, wormwood, and black walnut.

Aching muscles can also be treated with creosote, specifically those associated with stress and stress related nervous pain.

The dried plant when powdered has been used by many First Nation people of the Southwest as an effective deodorant. A tincture of creosote combined with a tincture of witch hazel makes a wonderful deodorant that smells like rain, but do not wear it with white clothing – it turns everything greenish yellow.

Creosote is also used to relieve itching, though obviously not in those who find it causes itching, and it provides a protective moisture barrier even after it dries.

Medicinal Preparations: The part of this plant used medicinally is the leaves, though if you have some of the flexible green branches, the yellow waxy flowers, or the fluffy seed capsules in with them it will not hurt the medicine. The leaf can be used either fresh or dried, as there is not that much water in them to begin with, but you should not use leaves that were brown and desiccated on the plant.

Due to the antioxidant properties of this plant, most of these preparations will have a longer shelf life than medicines made from other plants, but beware that for tinctures or other infusions that keep the plant in the substance being infused, too strong of an infusion is dangerous, so remove the plant matter before storing.

My favorite delivery mechanism of the medicine of creosote is also one of the easiest to prepare. A sprig in cold water, used all day, as a cleansing tonic drink is my favorite. Just refill the same bottle throughout the day.

I also like making salves with the infused oil. For this either fresh or dried plant can be used, but if you have access to the fresh, it is much preferable. It relieves stinging and itching of cuts and seals them with a protective barrier. It is also quite useful topically as a treatment for the herpes viruses, including cold sores, herpes simplex, and chicken pox.

Tincture: Prepare the tincture with 180 proof food grade clear alcohol at about 1:2, or as close to this as you can get while still having the leaves covered by the menstruum and ideally to a few inches above it. Infuse in the cool alcohol in a dark, cool place for one week, then strain the plant matter and discard it or compost it.

Dosage with Tincture: When treating an acute infection or parasitic infestation, as with something brought on by ‘bad’ food or water (such as drinking water in the mountains) use a large loading dose, then taper down. A 110 pound person can start with about 4 ml in their first dosage, then taper down to about 2.5 ml every four to six hours for approximately 48 hours, then to about 1.25 ml for the next 48 hours. I recommend combining this with activated charcoal, and for serious infectious gut parasites (like giardia) with wormwood, parsley, and black walnut as well.

Infused oil: Add the green, fresh leaves or lightly dried leaves to good extra virgin olive oil (I recommend the stuff coming out of California right now). Cover the leaves with the oil, ideally to a few inches above them. Lett this sit in a cool, dark place for at least two weeks.  Since they resist mold, you can let the leaves stay in the oil for a longer period of time than most plants. The oil alone, or combined with other plants, can be applied directly to wounds as an antiseptic. Creosote is also naturally antioxidant, so the constituents stabilize the infused oil, so by adding the creosote oil into other oils or salves, it will slow down their rate of rancidity and give them a longer shelf life. It will be strongly scented, however, so if you don’t want the damp rain and earth smell of creosote in your other oils, you may wish to refrain and find another method of giving them added longevity.

Salves: Solidify the infused oil by adding beeswax or cocoa butter, or your preferred combination of the two, in a double boiler, then decant into a sterile salve container.

Tea: For creosote, I recommend a hot water infusion (hot water poured over the plant) rather than a decoction (plant matter cooked in the hot water). Remember that if this is for drinking, an inch long section of the plant is plenty for an entire day, and may be too much, as it is very strong tasting.

Honey: I recommend using raw honey, as non-raw honey is less helpful for anti-microbial uses. To get the honey to extract the volatile constituents from the creosote, warm the honey til it is liquid enough to allow movement, but do not simmer it, as then it is no longer raw. Cover the plant matter with warm honey to the point where the honey is a few inches above the plant matter. Allow to sit for one week, then strain the plant matter out and discard or compost it. This is better as a burn or skin infection medicine for external use than it is for internal use, for which I would not recommend it.

Compress: A compress comes from dipping a clean cloth (preferably cotton or silk) in a water infusion of the plant matter – the infusion in this case is a slightly stronger hot water infusion than the one described above for internal use tea. I would recommend the compresses for athletes foot and other minor skin infections. Creosote compresses are especially helpful when you cannot directly soak the affected area. You can also soak a bandage with the tea (or tincture), though I do not recommend keeping an open wound damp for very long. I do not use creosote as a poultice, where the plant matter is macerated and then applied directly to a wound, as it is so very strong and can cause skin irritation.

Soak: Simply add creosote to hot water. For something the size of a foot or hand, you can add a few inches of the plant. Do not scale up past a five inch by one inch bundle for the entire body, especially as it can be absorbed through mucous membranes and cause irritation.

Common Combinations:

Antimicrobials:

Echinacea (Echinacea spp.)

Goldenseal (Hydrastis canadensis)

Parsley (Petroselinum crispum)

Black Walnut (Juglans nigra)

Willow (Salix spp.) (good for pain as well)

Yarrow (Achillea millefolium)

Dragon’s Blood (Daemonorops draco or Dracaena cinnabari or Croton lechleri)

Turmeric (Curcuma longa)

Licorice (Glycyrrhiza spp.)

Antiinflammatories:

Arnica (Arnica spp.)

Yarrow (Achillea millefolium)

Willow (Salix spp.)

Turmeric (Curcuma longa)

Licorice (Glycyrrhiza spp.)

Astringents:

Anemopsis californica (Yerba mansa)

Oak (Quercus spp.)

Witch hazel (Hamamelis virginiana)

Geranium root (Geranium maculatum)

Black Horehound (Ballota nigra)

Vulneraries:

Calendula (Calendula officinalis)

Yarrow (Achillea millefolium)

St. Johnswort (Hypericum perforatum)


Extracting the Essential Oil: I recommend the enfleurage method to get the oils out of the leaves without destroying them.

You will need:

Only the freshest, newest leaves, from a period in the harvest season where the leaves are green and have an oily sheen that coats the fingers

Organic vegetable fat

A sterilized glass plate

Plastic wrap

A spoon

Sterilized mason jars

Strong, clear alcohol of 180 proof or higher (everclear, moonshine, etc)

Steps:

Spread a thin coat of new, organic vegetable fat on the sterilized glass plate and lay the leaves on the fat. Cover the combination with plastic wrap to make the plate air tight. Then store this in a cool, dark location for 48 to 72 hours. The oils will infuse the fat.

Strain the leaves from the fat and discard or compost. Spoon the infused fat into the sterilized mason jars and spread it out on the inside, exposing as much surface area of the fat as possible.

Pour the clear, strong alcohol into the jars, covering the fat. Cover and seal the jars.

Let the jars stand in the refrigerator for 24 to 48 hours - this extracts the oil from the fat (pouring vodka directly on the leaves will destroy them and will not extract the oils)

move the liquid to another steralized jar

allow that to rest for 24 hours, refrigerated - this will allow the oil to separate from the alcohol

siphon the separated oil from the alcohol

bottle in sterilized, air-tight, dark glass bottles - the oil should last you at least five years, unless, of course, you use it all first or it turns sour due to some contaminant

Other Uses:

Waterproofing

The waxy sap from the bush can be released by simmering the stalks, including the woody ones, in water. The resin is then applied to wooden tools, like arrows or bowls, for water-proofing. Do not waterproof using creosote anything intended for food storage or ingestion, as ingestion of the oils is toxic in large enough amounts.

Dehydration

Creosote branches were stored by First Nations persons in grain bins and other food storage areas to keep the moisture out and preserving the food. Sometimes, the leaves from the bush were mixed in with the grains to further the process.

Magickal Uses: Creosote has traditionally been used for cleansing ritual fires that have a psychotropic affect, including dizziness, lightheadedness, mild euphoria, and loss of consciousness. Do not burn the leaves or branches unless you are outdoors or in a very well ventilated area, as too much of the fumes being inhaled can be toxic and deadly.

It can be used for pre-ritual or post-ritual cleansing and grounding baths.

It is excellent for spells of survival, permanence, and stability, as it is one of the oldest known plant forms – ancient beyond even the redwood. It survives in some of the harshest environmental conditions on the planet: below freezing temperatures in the winter, temperatures about 100 degrees Fahrenheit in the summer, and less than 10 inches of rain per year in extremely nutrient deficient sandy soil.

It is also an excellent warding plant. Note that not much else grows around it in the desert, even when it grows where water flows. It defends its territory well, in colonies that are self-supporting.

Creosote can also be used in spells to connect people who live far away from each other. As the colonies grow in cloning rings, distant but still connected, so bundles can be used as a connecting force.


Please note that Haven Craft teaches the traditional uses of herbs. Statements made by Haven Craft regarding the benefits of an herb have not been evaluated by the food and drug administration, as the FDA does not evaluate or test herbs. This information has not been evaluated by the US Food and Drug Administration, nor has it gone through the rigorous double-blind studies required before a particular product can be deemed truly beneficial or potentially dangerous and prescribed in the treatment of any condition or disease.

The information presented by Haven Craft is provided for informational purposes only, it is not meant to substitute for medical advice or diagnosis provided by your physician or other medical professional. Do not use this information to diagnose, treat or cure any illness or health condition. If you have, or suspect that you have a medical problem, contact your physician or health care provider.

anonymous asked:

Hii I was recently diagnosed with ADD (I'm 16 yr old girl) and my doctor prescribed me to 10mg adderall take two a day and after being on it for a month I don't see literally any difference I don't think it has improved my cognitive abilities I don't expect it to do some magic or anything I do take it and really try to focus and set myself to finish my HWs I have another apt soon I wanna tell him this but I'm scared he'll put me on something harsher especially when my parents don't even (1/2)

-believe in things like this and if it does harm me I will get the last of it but I really need some guidance and was wondering what’s your opinion / the symptoms I went to him for were lack of concentration/memory problems (2/2)

also (2/2) 16 yr old anon person although I don’t see improvements on the adderall I get all the symptoms I have huge loss of appetite I’ve lost almost 9 pounds since being on it I do get dizzy at times as well it super calms me

It sounds to me like amphetamine (the active ingredient in Adderall) might not be the best choice for you, since you’re having bad side effects and not really seeing any improvement. When you talk to your doctor, ask if you can try something like Concerta or Ritalin (methylphenidate), or even Strattera (non-stimulant). Be honest about your reactions here and tell him you want to try something else.

-J

So I hadn’t really thought about it until all these “doctors not taking women seriously” posts started showing up but in either my sophomore or junior year, starting around April, I felt nauseous all the time. Doctors gave me anti-nauseals and chalked it up to nerves or stress. Well, come loss of appetite, and summer (absolutely stress free) I was still nauseous. It wasn’t until a full YEAR of being nauseous passed that a doctor did a stomach biopsy and found H. Pylori. A year. It was the worst year I ever had because no one believed I was actually nauseous and that I wasn’t making it up or just stressed

echocatthefluffy  asked:

My vaporeon, Shelly, isn't eating. I've had her for years now and I've never had this problem, she's normally sweet and gentle yet now she's unusually quiet and withdrawn, she's not quite into the old age for vaporeon and I'm very concerned, her colors are starting to fade a bit, too. Do you know if there's anything that I can do?

Get her to a Pokémon center now!

I hate to be a naysayer, but you really should have gotten help when she first changed her behavior. Pokémon will deliberately hide when they don’t feel well (even the biggest Wailord is vulnerable when sick), so trainers have to take any subtle sign of illness very seriously. Color changing and loss of appetite are the last things a Pokémon wants to display, so things have gotten very, very serious. She needs professional help immediately.

Today I lost my best friend.

It all started with a visit to the vet last thursday, as he seemed a bit more tired and weaker the past few days. He was diagnosed with feline kidney disease and they said he most likely won’t make it. 
I asked if it would be more humane to let him go right now, or if we could at least try treatments over the weekend. The vet said that we could give him the weekend in attempt to recovery.. so we did. The weekend was spent with medication, trying to get him to eat (he was extremely nauseous and had a loss of appetite) and lots of love. I fed him with syringe every other hour in order to help him recover, I also had alarms set on my phone so I could go up during the night every other hour to make sure he was hydrated and fed enough. 

His well being went up and down like a rollercoaster these few days, I really did believe I could help him recover if I tried hard enough, if I spent all of my savings on the right medication and vet care.. I really believed it. 
Despite all the treatments, he just got worse and worse. He couldn’t eat or drink on his own, because the nausea was killing him. Eventually he couldn’t keep the food we got into him with help from the syringe, he would just throw it up. Same with the medicine, his body rejected EVERYTHING. His body was slowly shutting down and I realized it was time to take the dreadful decision.. 

Today, only 4 days after him being diagnosed with this terrible disease, he was put to sleep. 
It was a very peaceful procedure, I held his paw firmly and stroke him over his head the whole time. He looked deep into my eyes, he looked happy, he looked at peace. He gently sighed, and took his last breath. 

He wasn’t just a cat, he was my cat. He was my best friend. I will always remember the times he have come to my rescue to shower me in kisses and cuddles when I was having a bad day. It’s empty without him, and I can hardly contain my tears as I write this, but he will always be with me. In my heart and in my thoughts.

This is also a reminder to appreciate what you have, every day. You never know what could happen. I never ever imagined I’d lose my baby this early, he was only 5 years old and has been as healthy as he could be. Please don’t take your loved ones for granted, please spend every day with them like it could be your last. 

I’m ending this now with: 
I love you Uno, I will miss you dearly, every day. You do not have to suffer anymore. 
2011.08.18 - 2017.03.20

35666) i cant even take a proper meal either due to stomach shrinkage or appetite loss. Or fear. But when i slip (and binge) i cant stop!!!! And then my ribcage would hurt like hell and i can’t breathe or move it’s like it’s going to explode from the pressure, why do i put my body through such pain!!!! It is so confusing and physically and mentally painful to be a B/P anorexic

on one hand i feel really good abt the fact that i’ve supposedly lost weight (old clothes fit me suddenly and some clothes are just loose?) but on the other hand i feel bad about feeling good about having (supposedly) lost weight? 

Difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
Fatigue and decreased energy
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
Insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
Irritability, restlessness
Overeating or appetite loss
Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
Persistent sad, anxious, or “empty” feelings
Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts

Sorry!

Sorry I haven’t been on more this week. I’ve been out with a myriad of strange symptoms that the doctors haven’t been able to diagnose. First it was an allergic reaction (to some unknown thing), then it was a virus reaction, now it’s…. “Come back in at 3:00 and we’ll see what we can do.” The left side of my face has been swelled since Tuesday morning along with fatigue, dizziness/headaches, loss of appetite, etc. It’s went from painful to annoying to now painful AND annoying. 

Mystery illness right before spring break. Yay me.