Salam, Idk if you might understand me but I have this little things running throw my mind telling me I should give up in life & just die. I hate feeling like this but I'm always thinking like My Dua will never be accepted, I'm not good enough, what's the point of all this, & I'm always thinking maybe I should go back to my old ways. I feel like since I repented I'm Having so many problems in my life & people think of me as good person who changed so much, but they don't know I struggle so much.
I will try my best to answer your
question by referring to the Qur’an and Hadith
Wanting to give up in life and die
“And never give up hope of Allah’s
Mercy. Certainly, no one despairs of Allah’s Mercy, except the people who
“Do not give up and do not be
downhearted. You shall be uppermost if you are believers” (3:139)
The Prophet ﷺ
said: “No one of you should wish for death or pray for it before it comes, for
when one of you dies, his good deeds come to an end and for the believer a long
life will not increase him in anything but good.” (Muslim)
A version narrated by al-Bukhaari
says: “No one of you should wish for death. Either he is a doer of good and
will do more, or he is a doer of evil but perhaps he may stop.”
Al-Nawawi said: This hadeeth clearly
indicates that it is makrooh to wish for death because of some harm that has
befallen one, such as loss or distress caused by an enemy, or other such
hardships of this world. But if a person fears harm or fitnah with regard to
his religious commitment, it is not makrooh to wish for death, according to
this hadeeth, and several of the salaf did that.
The Prophet ﷺ
said: “The best of people is the one who lives long and does good.” (Ahmad)
Acceptance of Dua
And when My slaves ask you (O Muhammad) concerning Me, then
(answer them), I am indeed near (to them). I respond to the invocations of the
supplicant when he calls on Me. So let them respond to Me (by obedience) and
believe in Me that they may be (rightly) guided. (2:186)
The Prophet ﷺ said: “Nothing can
change the Divine decree except Dua.” (Ahmad)
The Prophet ﷺ said: “Du’aa’ may be
of benefit with regard to what has already happened or what has not yet
happened, so adhere to Du’aa’, O slaves of Allaah.” (Tirmidhi)
The Prophet ﷺ said: “No precaution
can protect against the decree of Allaah. Du’aa’ is beneficial with regard to
what has been decreed and what has not been decreed. The du’aa’ meets the
calamity that has been decreed and wrestles with it, until the Day of
The Prophet ﷺ said: “Ask, and you shall be given it; and you shall be
given it.” (Tirmidhi)
The Prophet ﷺ said: “Let everyone of you ask of His Lord all that He
We were informed by our Prophet ﷺ that Allah (subhana wa ta’ala) fulfills
everybody’s wishes so long as a person does not get impatient and say, ‘I asked
Allah for so and so and I still haven’t received it’. We are told never to
despair of the mercy of Allah (subhan wa ta’ala).
The Prophet ﷺ
informed us that there are several forms for the acceptance of dua. One is that you are given what you ask
for. Another is that you are given better than what
you asked for. A third is that some calamity that was about
to befall you has been averted instead. The fourth is that the dua is saved up for you as
sawaab/reward for the Day of Judgment. In all cases, asking Allah (subhana wa
ta'ala) for things is beneficial.
Feeling like you are not good enough
He created the heavens and earth in
truth and formed you and perfected your forms; and to Him is the (final)
Indeed, We have created the human
being upon the best of forms (95:4)
Allah SWT has created each one of us
unique; you will find no two people in the world with the exact same
personality, physical appearance, strengths, weaknesses, interests, etc. The
way Allah SWT has created you and moulded your personality is for a
reason – he has made you this way because he wants you to achieve your full
potential and use your abilities for a bigger cause – do not lose heart if the
situation looks difficult right now – keep striving and doing your best and,
most importantly, keep asking Allah SWT to see you through this difficult time
and be by your side – if you have His help, there is no difficult you cannot
overcome. Again, remember He has created you the way you are for a reason –
Allah SWT makes no mistakes with His creations – you are good enough –
you are exactly the way He intended you to be – you only have to work hard to
move from strength to strength now.
What’s the point of all this?
(He) who created death and life to
test you (as to) which of you is best in deed (67:2)
And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me (51:56)
Going back to old ways,
Do people think that they will be left
alone because they say: ‘We believe,’ and will not be tested. And We indeed
tested those who were before them. And Allaah will certainly make (it) known
(the truth of) those who are true, and will certainly make (it) known (the
falsehood of) those who are liars, (although Allaah knows all that before putting
them to test)” – (29:2-3)
“And certainly, We shall test you with
something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad
tidings to As-Saabiroon (the patient). Who, when afflicted with calamity, say:
‘Truly, to Allaah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return.’ They are those
on whom are the Salawaat (i.e. who are blessed and will be forgiven) from their
Lord, and (they are those who) receive His Mercy, and it is they who are the
guided ones” (2:155-157)
And We have certainly revealed to you
verses (which are) clear proofs, and no one would deny them except the
defiantly disobedient. (2:99)
The Prophet ﷺ said: “No misfortune or disease befalls a Muslim, no worry or grief or harm or distress – not even a thorn that pricks him – but Allaah will expiate for some of his sins because of that.” (Bukhari)
Facing struggles after having repented
The Prophet ﷺ
said: “If Allah wills good for His slave, He hastens his punishment in this
world, and if He wills bad for His slave, He withholds from him (the punishment
for) his sin, until He requites him for it on the Day of Resurrection.”
The Prophet ﷺ
“If a certain status has previously been decreed by Allaah for a person, and he
does not attain it by his deeds, Allaah afflicts him in his body or wealth or
children.” (Abu Dawood)
The Prophet ﷺ
said: “Great reward comes with great trials. When Allah loves a people, He
tests them, and whoever accepts it attains His pleasure, whereas whoever shows
discontent with it incurs His wrath.” (at-Tirmidhi)
Narrated by Sa‘d ibn Abi Waqqaas (رضي الله عنه)
who said: I said: O Messenger of Allah ﷺ,
who among the people are most sorely tested? He ﷺ
said: “The Prophets, then the next best and the next best. A man will be tested
according to his level of religious commitment. If his religious commitment is
solid, his test will be more severe, but if there is any weakness in his
religious commitment, he will be tested according to his level of religious
commitment. And calamity will continue to befall a person until he walks on the
earth with no sin on him.” (at-Tirmidhi)
Al-Hasan al-Basri (رضي الله عنه) said: “Do not resent
the calamities that come and the disasters that occur, for perhaps in something
that you dislike will be your salvation, and perhaps in something that you
prefer will be your doom.”
Al-Fadl ibn Sahl (رضي الله عنه) said: “There is a blessing
in calamity that the wise man should not ignore, for it erases sins, gives one
the opportunity to attain the reward for patience, dispels negligence, reminds
one of blessings at the time of health, calls one to repent and encourages one
to give charity.
Finally a word of advice from me: it
is very common that, once someone finds their way back to the deen and tries to
practice it earnestly, they are faced with hardship. Do not fear these
hardships as they are from Allah SWT and may be intended to either purify you
from your previous sins, help you learn an important lesson and come out of the
difficult situation a more mature and improved individual or to test whether
you can withstand challenges you face in life and, having gone through them,
still maintain your level of iman in Allah SWT and keep trusting Him to take
the best decision for you.
Take this difficult time in life as a challenge you
will get through and form an intention that, once this difficulty is over, you
would have come out of it a much stronger individual and a much better Muslim
in’Sha’Allah. Remember, every night ends and every difficult situation is eventually taken care of by Allah SWT. You will soon witness good times in’Sha’Allah.
And, behold, with every hardship comes ease (94:5)
Read all the above mentioned Quranic verses and Hadiths
remembering that each of them are intended specifically for you and are a
message to you from Allah SWT to help you through this difficult time. Whenever
you are faced with negative thoughts, try to remember the above and find hope –
I know it is easier said than done but we must strive in Allah’s path and never
doubt his decisions and power even for a second. You are strong enough to face this hardship and you will not go back to your old ways - You are strong enough for this! As Allah SWT has stated in the Quran:
Allah does not burden a soul beyond
that it can bear(…) (2:286)
More than the average individual, cultivating your own self-worth is going to be more challenging for you. There are many blockages standing in the way of you truly loving yourself and feeling at ease in your own skin. You must realize that a lot of these blockages are self-created. It’s not enough to say that you suffer from not feeling “good enough.” That is quite a general statement that can apply to everyone at some point in their life. It’s that it might make you deeply resistant to even overcoming this feeling. When you’re caught up in your fears, insecurities, and doubts, without doing the work involved to better yourself, it’s as if no amount of self-help statements, compliments, affection from others, money, or nice things will ever compensate for that crippling feeling of lack. It’s just this emptiness inside that nothing can really fill. But, you may desperately attempt to fill it. It’s not uncommon to see you become a massive, compulsive consumer, under the misguided belief that buying all of this stuff is going to make you a better person. The age-old phrase “money doesn’t buy happiness” applies to you for so many reasons. The first being that, yes, going down the route of extreme materialism isn’t going to get you anywhere, with this placement. If you foolishly think that your worth is tied up in the car you drive, how much money you make, or the house you have, you’ll soon realize how mistaken you are. It’s actually quite a pattern to see your material things repossessed or taken away, in some way that brings your worst fears to life. Eviction or foreclosure notices can plague you, that beautiful car could get wrecked or totaled, and you may even regularly become the victim of theft, major or minor. Your wallet may constantly get lost or stolen or maybe people are just always “borrowing” your stuff, often without even asking and never returning it. All this does is exaggerate the green-eyed monster of greed and possessiveness within you. You have a fear of just losing your shit. I mean literally losing what you have. It’s enough to give you a very neurotic case of “what’s mine is mine.” If you run into someone with this placement who freaks out if you so much as move their laptop or rearrange their books or anything else that’s seemingly harmless, they are still operating out of a place of fear and worry. The root of all of this is your poor self-esteem; the feeling that these possessions are an extension of yourself. It can be tough to feel solid and substantial for you, which is what makes you desperately possessive. Also, the potential for cheapness and stinginess of this placement is legendary. You may have been born to a poor family, or who has quickly and easily learnt to be able to live on minimal resources. You are a survivor who will start your finances from zero. You will dedicate a lot of your time and effort to build your income and establish your security net. You can become a workaholic, or a millionaire, if you’re lucky. In any case, success comes slowly and usually late in life. Nevertheless, when it comes, there is no turning back; you will have a very wealthy old years. You are a logical person who weighs in on every situation with reason and caution. You are all about commitment and responsibility. You take your time in making decisions because you want to ensure that everything goes smoothly. Chaos is not something you want to deal with. In fact, you have difficulty dealing with anything that doesn’t go your way. This inability to go with the flow can muck up the work sometimes and cause problems that you don’t know how to take care of. You don’t like to gamble or otherwise risk losses of wealth. You may sometimes forget about enjoying the money you earn, and keep too much aside for a rainy day. In extreme situations, you can be a very stingy person, which many times is not at all visible to yourself. In addition, you can have melancholic thoughts and depression over material matters, even if things are not going so bad. You frequently worry excessively about whether you have enough money, and having everything you need. You can feel impoverished, regardless of what you own or what you had growing up. You feel very insecure around your own ability to sustain all of these things. You may feel a lack of self- value and security inside and so wealth and ownership represent the only sense of structure you feel is real. You may lean heavily on others for material needs and have not mastered the lessons of self-sufficiency and how to earn a decent living. On the other side, once you’ve mastered these lessons, you will take your finances very seriously and will not rely on others for financial help. It might make you feel depressed for having to spend $25 at the grocery store; for groceries that you most certainly needed. The sheer act of just spending money can be disheartening for you. It’s as if you look at your bank account and want it to remain perfect and only want to build from there. So, any form of spending is seen as a threat to your security. But, of course, this can get absurd. It’s to the point where you can truly worry about ending up in the poorhouse. Your worst fear is poverty, ending up some homeless beggar on the street without a cent to one’s name. This is a worry that can continue far into adulthood, even when you already have cultivated financial security for yourself. The truth is, when you are acting out of fear and anxiety, there is never enough security for you. All you can think about is wanting more and hoarding what you already own. This is another definition of the “money does not equal happiness” mantra. You can spend all that time pinching your pennies and still end up feeling insecure and unhappy, often because you’ve become such a curmudgeon that you can’t help but feel unhappy. It’s quite a breakthrough for you to understand that money has to be enjoyed. You cannot just earn and save in such a rigid fashion without taking the time to not only use your money with an attitude of joy but have a true attitude of appreciation for what you already own. This is a wisdom that dawns on you on your later life. It’s a compulsive feeling for you to feel like you don’t have much. When it comes to your income, you might always say, “I don’t make much money…” When it comes to your home, you might think, “Well, it’s not the nicest place…” In terms of the car you’ve just bought, “Well, it’s not the newest model…” And so on and so forth. It takes maturity for you to realize how you keep undermining yourself by diminishing the worth of whatever you own. You can become a true master at handling money, through plenty of effort, persistence, and discipline, as well as through many stumbles and setbacks. You can experience wonderful success by taking the right attitude toward money. Of course, you have to be practical and disciplined about how you save and spend. At the same time, don’t be too rigid or controlling. If you trust that there is more money coming your way, you will find your income being strengthened significantly. The less you care about money, the more you’ll have, especially since you already possess a skill for handling money efficiently. This combined with your newfound gratitude will bring a steady cash flowing your way. You need to discipline yourself to truly, deeply love yourself, to want to experience real peace of mind. The stability you seek first has to come from within. Then, it can manifest externally. So, I think the only way you will be able to worry less about money or be less neurotic or destructive about it is to be much more comfortable in your skin and worry less about yourself. Doing lots of affirmations to tell yourself that you’re good enough is crucial and will very likely help you through. This is a time where you may be so full of negative inner voices that it’s hard to see anything good about yourself. So, this is when the good sense and simplicity of the 2nd House must be channeled. Just don’t listen to any of those voices! You are very susceptible to people’s input over their worth. The society we live in can be very judgmental and for very superficial reasons. Someone just dropping a hint that you don’t make enough money, for example, is enough to lead you to feel terribly unsure of your worth. Do not look to others for this validation. Find structure in the simplicity of listening to that one voice – your own voice – and making sure this voice is full of love and appreciation for whatever you have and whatever you stand for. It doesn’t matter if it’s “enough” for others. Is it enough for you? This allows you to cultivate the strong values you need to feel accomplished.
The revelations of Uranus strike like lightning. It’s unexpected, abrupt, and earth shattering. While Pluto can indicate a slow burn of exhuming transformation, Uranus reverberates sudden changes that consciousness may not be prepared for. Uranus is the third eye of the storm, crackling like thunderbolts and swirling cyclones, leaving a trail of emotional wreckage and psychological puzzles. The area of life that Uranus contacts is kind of like a glass snowglobe. It gets picked up, turned upside down, and shaken uncontrollably. Because Uranus is an outer planet, like Neptune and Pluto, it works on very subliminal and unconscious levels. They suggest the sort of soul and deepest layers of the psyche
expressed by the collective. But they also emerge on personal levels
that seem guided by some sort of fate. The discovery of Uranus changed the way astrology is perceived until this very day. Suddenly the closed system of seven planets was ripped to pieces. The fear of the unknown was traumatic. The universe was bigger than we once perceived, mysteries called from the invisible, the possibilities were endless. Steven Forrest regards Uranus as the most ‘unpredictable’ of the planets. It does not spin in its orbit. It rolls. Even in space, the planet of individuality dances to its own tune. There can be a disturbance with Uranus, instantaneous and intense events, that end in a moment, but the psychological reaction can live on. Uranus incites rapid change to restructure for the better. Uranus is Utopian and visionary, it represents the intellectual component of intuition, as the higher octave of Mercury, we can receive the radio signal of Uranus through otherworldly ideas. The sort of traditional trauma associated with Uranus includes major cerebral events like stroke or psychiatric ailment. It’s outer planet position also suggests much less debilitating experience. It could be the wave of enlightenment that one needs to finally leave a job. Maybe it’s the burst of revelation that promotes a long term spiritual awakening. Watching the transits Uranus is making across the natal chart can be significantly insightful. Maybe those bolts from the blue won’t be so unexpected.
Uranus in the first house: Trauma involving constant psychological restructuring and perceptions of the self and the world. Shifts in mental formations can change the way the individual understands the world and relates to his inner self. Maybe the person goes through periods of ‘losing themselves’ and becoming vacant and then renewed
Uranus in the second house: The individual may experience sudden loss so that there can be a revaluation of what is meaningful, valuable, and truly resourceful. This loss could come through materials and also losses of inner wealth like what was once enjoyable is no longer, how the individual once related to themselves seems misplaced
Uranus in the third house: The immediate perception is subject to abrupt alteration, like the world can be seen with new eyes, but this can generate withdrawal, the mind and the brain become one and not separate, obsessive behavior can arise and atypical behavior. The world changes so quickly that mentally the individual craves but feels will never attain stability
Uranus in the fourth house: Pronounced and sudden loss of security existentially and internally. The inner world fluctuates and adopts changing needs, the inner child never settles, surrounding structures and those built within can become trampled on causing immense trauma
Uranus in the fifth house: The creative experience and the will for life and joy fluctuates. There are barren periods where the individual perceives abandonment, loss of approval and general malaise. The feelings of the individual’s meaning and place in the world leave him hanging off a ledge
Uranus in the sixth house: Matters surrounding health and the way the individual relates to his physical body are emphasised. There can be a loss through health concerns or perceived or actualized. Acknowledging the subtle needs of others whilst retaining individuality promotes dissociations. Psychological ailment can result of feeling alien from his surrounding environment
Uranus in the seventh house: Revelations pertaining the self spoken from the mouth of others can promote internal storms. The shadow self bellowing into consciousness can be traumatic as it rearranges psychological structures and perceptions. It may be through other people that awakenings occur. Self projection can also generate trauma as Uranus’s need to express individuality is shattered amongst reflections. He can feel lonely from himself
Uranus in the eighth house: Transformations pertaining to the deepest layers of the psyche and most primal perceptions occur rapidly, overnight the individual is forced to change the way he identifies with the world, himself, his beliefs, and spirit. Betrayals from others, often touching ultra deep levels, through love, or sexual gratification or whatever, alternates the way he relates to others and reveals parts of himself
Uranus in the ninth house: Sudden restructuring of held beliefs and worldly perceptions, the messages of the higher mind passing through, the way the individual understands the universe. The individual identifies with certain paths of faith or connections with ‘God’ that fluctuate through trauma or experiences that reshape the inner vision that weaves with the outer. There can be a loss of meaning
Uranus in the tenth house: There can be abrupt loss of will and purpose, a distance between themselves and vision. The individual could face traumas that relate to the way the public perceives him, and often detachment with the father, and thus he must learn to walk it alone.
Uranus in the eleventh house: Abrupt and profound revelations regarding the self and loyalty to individuality and the ‘true self’ spin life into a flux. There can be a neuroses and isolation until the individual is reflecting the core that constantly changes. His relationship to society fluctuates, there can be a sense of abandonment
Uranus in the twelfth house: The way the individual relates to the world at large generates trauma through his need for withdrawal and dissolving of the self. The self can shatter into pieces as it becomes split by the howls of the collective and the longing to break free and return to the source or space or some sort of home. Trauma can come through a lack of security and comfort, as if earth is hostile
i don't want to be rude but God can't be that good if he lets some people starve? or do you mean that God only controls the way of the universe and we as people are the only ones who can make it better for others? and i don't want this to come off as rude i just want to know how you see it
Allah puts us all through tests in life. There’s an Ayah from the Qur’aan, and it goes like this:
“And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient, who, when disaster strikes them, say, ‘Indeed we belong to Allah, and indeed to Him we will return.’ Those are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy. And it is those who are the [rightly] guided.“
Allah has given us all a test in this life. It’s very easy to say something like, “if God is so good, then, why is there suffering in the world?”, because, that’s a very physical thing to see. We see people suffer. We see people die. We see statistics, facts, figures. It’s tangible.
So then, what about our test then? What about the test that people go through who aren’t suffering?
But there’s tests in everything. The test for us lies in the giving. Allah’s given us wealth, health, food, clothes, shelter. Are we grateful for that? Do we give to the poor and needy from that? Do we help improve the lives of our brothers and sisters from that?
Because, whenever we’re going through a rough period, a rough time, it’s then, that we turn to others, for some kind of help. And some of us, turn to Allah for help. And that’s what Allah wants. He wants to help His believer, and He’ll provide a source of help from another person in the world, by giving charity, by giving some money, in the same time that that person, who was giving charity probably turned to Allah and asked for help with something, and in the remembrance of Allah and to gain some form of peace and reward, gave money to charity, and Allah will help this person through the means of someone else helping them with what they are struggling.
But the beautiful thing in both of these people’s circumstances was, that they both turned to Allah for help.
It’s all a circle that Allah has created, and it’s all linked together, so wonderfully, so logically.
can Allah test you with faith? I've been asking for a firm faith for more than a year and my eeman is getting low everyday... why?
Here is what Allah says:
Holy Qur'an, al-Ankabut 2-3. Do people reckon that they will be left (to themselves at ease) on their mere saying, “We believe,” and will not be put to a test? We certainly tested those who preceded them. (This is Our unchanging way) so that Allah will certainly mark out those who prove true (in their profession of faith), and He will certainly mark out those who prove false.
Holy Qur'an, al-Mulk 2. He Who has created death and life, so that He may try you (and demonstrate to yourselves) which of you is better in deeds.
Holy Qur'an, al-Anbiya 35: We try you through the bad and the good things (of life) by way of testing (so that your real character and rank may reveal itself).
Holy Qur'an, al-Baqarah 155. We will certainly test you with something of fear and hunger, and loss of wealth and lives and fruits (earnings); but give glad tidings to the persevering and patient:
Here is what Prophet (salallahu alayhi wa sallam) said:
Allah will test the ones who are dearer to Him so they turn to Him completely. Please don’t be discouraged. Keep praying. Keep staying away from major sins. Allah wants us to try. The result is not our business. We are responsible from the journey not the destination.
وَلَنَبْلُوَنَّكُم بِشَيْءٍ مِّنَ الْخَوْفِ وَالْجُوعِ وَنَقْصٍ مِّنَ الْأَمْوَالِ وَالْأَنفُسِ وَالثَّمَرَاتِ ۗ وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient - Surah Al-Baqarah [2:155]
Ash-Shaykh Al-Mufassir Al-‘Allāmah 'Abdur-Raḥmān As-Si'dī رحمه الله said:
And beware of feeling regret over past affairs which were not decreed for you, or loss of health, wealth, a job and the likes. Let your focus and concern be rectifying the actions of the day you are in; for indeed a person is the offspring of their day - they do not greive over the past, nor do they look distantly in to the future where it is of no benefit to them.
And be truthful, fulfill your oaths and promises and be just in all of your dealings. Give people their rights in full and in abundance. Do so, with a soul at peace and an īmān (faith) that is truthful and sincere.
And busy yourself with your own shortcomings and your own affairs above the shortcomings and affairs of others.
And deal with every individual person according to what is appropriate for their mental state; whether young or old, male or female, the ruling class or the ruled.
Be gentle and merciful with every individual - even the wild or domesticated animals. Verily Allāh is Merciful only to His Slaves who show mercy.
Strive constantly in all your endeavors and affairs. Keep your mind open to any and every benefit - whether religious or worldly. (end quote)
Reference: Majmū’ Mu'allafātihi [21/258]
قال الشيخ المفسر العلاّمة عبدالرحمن بن سعدي - رحمه الله - : “ … وإياك والتحسر على الأمور الماضية التي لم تُقَدَّر لك ؛ من فقد صحة ، أو مال ، أو عمل دنيوي ونحوها ، وليكن همك في إصلاح عمل يومك ؛ فإن الإنسان ابن يومه لا يحزن لما مضى ، ولا يتطلع للمستقبل حيث لا ينفعه التطلع ، وعليك بالصدق ، والوفاء بالعهد ، والوعد والإنصاف في المعاملات كلها ، وأداء الحقوق كاملة موفرة ؛ بنفس مطمئنة وإيمان صادق خالص ، واشتغل بعيوبك وشؤونك عن عيوب الناس وشؤونهم ، وعامل كل أحد بحسب ما يليق بحاله من كبير وصغير ، وذكر وأنثى ، ورئيس ومرؤوس ، وكن رقيقًا رحيمًا لكل أحد حتى للحيوان البهيم ؛ فإنما يرحم الله من عباده الرحماء ، وكن مقتصدًا في أمورك كلها ، وافتح ذهنك لكل فائدة دينية أو
دنيوية ” .
مجموع مؤلفاته [٢٥٨/٢١].
Translated by our Brother Abul Layth Ziyaad Qureshi
This woman didn’t “live as a Black woman.” She put on Blackface and appropriated an entire culture and history. She used Black bodies (children and the elderly) as props in the photoshoots she used to perpetuate her lies. She fabricated culturally specific racialized abuses, not only making a mockery of actual victims, but also crying wolf in a hostile social environment that tends toward not believing the experiences of Blacks. She STOLE space from ACTUAL Black people–Black women particularly–usurping opportunities for them to speak to their struggle. She took a six-figure job from a Black person during the period of the largest loss of wealth among Blacks since Reconstruction. And she did it even though White women are the only group to have appreciably benefited from affirmative action legislation. Furthermore, she has fomented animosity in the Black community toward light-skinned people of African descent, including those with European admixture through a White parent or grandparents. She did not “jettison” her privilege as some have suggested. She KNEW about colorism in the Black community and used this opportunity to transform herself from an average White woman into an elite Black woman by exploiting the same system of supremacy that favored her whiteness to begin with.
Transracial identity/practice is bullshit and dangerous. What Rachel did is exactly what Whites have been doing to Blacks for the duration of this country’s history. And it is VIOLENCE.
‘’No soul shall have a burden laid on it greater than it can bear.’’ (2:233)
‘’..And Allah loves the steadfast.’’ (3:146)
‘’[He] who created death and life to test you [as to] which of you is best in deed - and He is the Exalted in Might, the Forgiving.’’ (67:2)
“And rely upon Allah ; and sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs.” (33:3)
“Do the people think that they will be left to say, "We believe” and they will not be tried?“ (29:2)
’‘And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient.” (2:155)
“You will surely be tested in your possessions and in yourselves. And you will surely hear from those who were given the Scripture before you and from those who associate others with Allah much abuse. But if you are patient and fear Allah - indeed, that is of the matters [worthy] of determination.’’ (3:186)
‘’There, [on that Day], every soul will be put to trial for what it did previously, and they will be returned to Allah , their master, the Truth, and lost from them is whatever they used to invent.‘’ (10:30)
‘’O you who have believed, Allah will surely test you through something of the game that your hands and spears [can] reach, that Allah may make evident those who fear Him unseen. And whoever transgresses after that - for him is a painful punishment. ’’(5:94)
’'Every soul will taste death. And We test you with evil and with good as trial; and to Us you will be returned.” (21:35)
“But We have certainly tried those before them, and Allah will surely make evident those who are truthful, and He will surely make evident the liars.” (29:3)
“And We will surely test you until We make evident those who strive among you [for the cause of Allah ] and the patient, and We will test your affairs.” (47:31)
“…but Allah will reward the grateful.’' (3:144)
’'But Allah is your protector, and He is the best of helpers.”
فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا : Verily, with hardship comes ease. [94:6]
The greater the hardship, or trial or tribulation the greater the reward. The greater the difficulty the greater the reward. The greater the trial or tribulation or difficulty that you are put through the greater the reward will be for you and for me from Allah (Tabarak wa ta’ala).
If Allah loves a people, He puts them to trial, He tests them and places them in difficulty. Allah the Exalted states in Surah Baqarah :
“We will test you with something of fear, and hunger and loss of wealth, and souls and vegetation. And give glad tidings to those who have patience. Those who if in any difficulty or trial, or tribulation occurs to them or happens to them, they say: ‘Verily We are from Allah and to Allah we return.’ They are those who will receive prayers from their Lord and Mercy and it is those who are guided.”
Life is not a constant of happy; there are moments of everything; moments of grief, moments of contentment, moments of sorrow, moments of blessings and moments of intense hardship. Allaah ta’aala state in His Book,
And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient, [2:155]
Reminding us that He will test us. Reminding us that it will take place, but to be patient & good tidings are to the patient. & who are the patient?
(Those) who, when disaster strikes them, say, “Indeed we belong to Allah , and indeed to Him we will return.” [2:156]
Allaah ta’aala is reminding us that to Him is our return. To Him is our return. To Him is our return, to be patient with the hardships, be patient with the fluctuations in life. Be patient. To Him is your return. Remind yourself at the onset of any hardship that this will all pass, this is temporary, this is just a test and to Him is your return. & the patient are:
Those are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy. And it is those who are the [rightly] guided. [2:157]
So be patient, and you will be blessed. Be patient and Allaah will have Mercy on you. Be patient; the patient are those whom are rightly guided. May Allaah guide us, may He make us of the patient, may He bestow upon us His blessings, and may He bless us with that which is best.
The backdrop to the racist Right’s 1980s resurgence was a crisis in the U.S. agricultural economy, more severe than any since the 1920s. In the 1970s, farmers were encouraged to expand their businesses. Then inflation drove interest rates up. Those farmers who could still pay their loans saw their land prices plummet between 1981 and 1987, while they read about Wall Street speculators becoming millionaries through insider trading and other crafty means of moving number on paper. The magnitude of the farm crisis was staggering. In Minnesota, the average price of an acre of land fell from $1,947 in 1981 to $628 in 1987, amounting to a loss of paper wealth of between $20 and $40 billion for that state alone. The U.S. farm population dropped from nine million in 1975 to less than five million in 1987, as absentee investors assumed an ever greater percentage of farm ownership. In Iowa, an estimated 30 percent of the farmers were threatened with the loss of their land.
Individual farmers saw everything they had worked for fall into the hands of bankers who foreclosed on their property. In that context, the racist Right took advantage of a rare opportunity to spread their spurious conspiracy theories about Jewish control of the financial system.
Beginning in the 1970s, a loose network known as the Posse Comitatus (meaning ‘power of the county’) had emerged in the West Coast and MIdwest regions. A 1976 FBI estimate of seventy-eight Posse Comitatus chapters in twenty-three states placed total membership between 12,000 and 15,000, with as many as ten to twelve times that number of peripheral supporters. From California to Wisconsin, each Posse leader developed a slightly different style. Common to all was a belief in white supremacist Identity Christianity and variations on a few 'constitutionalist’ themes: Jewish bankers manipulate and control the Federal Reserve Board, if not the whole U.S. financial system; the income tax amendment was never legally approved by Congress and, therefore, 'sovereign citizens’ need not pay taxes; the United States is a 'republic,’ not a 'democracy’; and the only lawful authority is the county sheriff and his appointed 'posse’ of adult men who reside in his jurisdiction.
Through the Posse Comitatus’ pre-existing network of Farm Belt groups, the Midwest became fertile ground for the spread of racist and anti-Jewish propaganda during the 1980s… Had mainstream farmers not taken serious steps to educate AAM’s rank-and-file about infiltration by the far Right, the extent of the damage might have been much worse. One AAM faction sponsored guerrilla warfare training and classes on the making of pipe bombs; another faction advocating violence formed a Farmers’ Liberation Army.
Roads to Dominion: Right-Wing Movements and Political Power in the United States by Sara Diamond
Some probable fears or phobias your dragons can have. No
skydancers because still no lore >:C Please be considerate of others when you make
comments since people may have similar fears. Hardest ones to think of were for coatls, ridgebacks and wildclaws. Some are repeats because I feel they could apply to several species/breeds. Feel free
to make your own additions!
Coatl: dullening of feathers, illness, death, feather loss,
Fae: heights, being crushed, being misunderstood, isolation,
loss of magic, being eaten
Guardian: loneliness (not being able to find their charge),
hurting a friend, inability to protect their charge, mortality (of both self
and charge), dishonor, treachery, failure, betrayal
Imperial: Death/improper burial/emperors/even of other imperials,
enclosed spaces, imperfection, disappointment, being replaced, heights-aerial
attack “vulnerable in aerial combat”, darkness
Mirror: weakness (incapable of keeping up with the pack,
being a burden), illness, age, starvation, isolation/being left alone or away
from own kind, heights
Nocturne: loss of
hearing, isolation/solitude/loneliness, being stuck in an eternal feedback
loop, not knowing their true-self, open
spaces, physical confrontations, insanity, light/brightness
Pearlcatcher: loss or breaking of pearl and horn,
imperfection/being 2nd best, having their whiskers stepped on, social
ridicule/isolation-outcasting, vandalism of lair or art, physical
confrontations, exposure of secrets, betrayal,
Ridgeback: water/drowning, loss of wealth, starvation, spine
loss/breaking or inability to grow a male nose horn, itching, hurting a friend
in battle, cave-in, rejection
Snapper: memory loss, ignorance, immobility (gembond?),
sleep, enclosed spaces, being on their back, being lost, being forgotten, physical
confrontations, change, commitment
Spiral: immobility/being trapped/stuck in a knot, loss of
sight, falling, wing tear/broken wing, silence, getting stuck (maybe enclosed
spaces despite being a tunneler), cave-in,
rejection, being useless/inability to do something
Tundra: loss of smell, memory loss , knots/matted
hair/shedding/hair loss, fire, betrayal,
loss of family/isolation from kin, starvation, physical confrontations
Wildclaw: weakness (inability to provide for clan), illness,
age, social ridicule/exclusion, dishonor, destruction of work, failure, loss of
eggs or hatchlings/loss of family/isolation, dishonesty