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Morning run and done gif!

I am happy to be back in the morning cardio swing! I didn’t even snooze my alarm more than once this morning! 😂

Yesterday was a crazy day, I ended up going out in a job and picking up furniture! Really I help carry things and organize the guys! It is in my future again today!

I am hoping for a lifting session late this afternoon but we shall see!

Hope y'all have a great day!

It’s so strange to look back at the summer before coming to college…my life has changed so much since. I can honestly say I did not partake in the freshman 15 and have loved living where I have constant support from friends, a gym membership, and healthy food readily available to me. It’s been a long road, but I’m sure glad I took it.

04.14.2017

SW: 223
GW: 160
CW: 158!!! 👍😱

I did it! I don’t know how but I lost eleven lbs in three weeks and was able to hit my goal weight by my last doctor’s appt! The picture showing 159.8 was three days ago, and yesterday I weighed in at 158. I’m so proud of myself for accomplishing what I set out to do. I did NOT think I would be able to get back to this weight no matter how much I worked. Despite the self doubt I persevered, I worked very hard, and I did what I set out to do. It is possible; keep working for what you want. I’ve learned that there are no easy ways out. You just have to remind yourself that you are in control, and your decisions are the only thing that will help get you to your goal or take you further away from it.

breaking in a new doctor like

Doc: “What are your thoughts on losing some weight?”
Me: “Meh. It’s not a priority right now.”
Doc: “Maintaining a healthy weight is important for your long-term health.”
Me: “I’m sure it is. But when your house is burning down, you don’t waste energy on rearranging the furniture.”

Not sure how long this particular doc is gonna last.

Three days shy of two years between the two. Never forget where you started and how far you have come.

Dedication is everything.

Not your typical #transformationtuesday but here we go.

This isn’t an easy post but I have now overcame the struggle of coping with gaining weight after reaching my lowest EVER.

This weigh gain HAD to happen.

It was NECESSARY for my personal growth and karmic lesson.

I feel like I spent months loathing over this situation thinking “wtf…how… why..?!”

It felt like a HUGE failure to me.

My old friends, shame & guilt had returned.

It made me want to disappear until I was “skinny again”.

What had gone wrong?

I finally got my answer: I hadn’t learned that lesson.

And what happens when you don’t learn the lesson? THE SITUATION KEEPS COMING BACK!

I understand that I am no where near where I started in the beginning of my journey.. but this was difficult for me to process.

I feel like this situation came back to test me to see if I had really learned those lessons I thought I had overcame.

Some of lessons learned:

🔹Weight is just a symptom of a deeper pain

🔹Don’t let others walk away with your worth or power

🔹We cannot control certain situations but we can control how we react to them

🔹Your intention sets the mood for the journey

🔹 Our bodies are like the seasons, and
constantly changing (infancy, childhood, youth, middle age, old age, weight, size) but the one thing that remains unchangeable is our soul. Our sense of identity. Who we are at our core.

It is now that I am able to move forward with new wisdom and knowledge.

I get it. I see the bigger picture.

This wasn’t a failure. It was a test of the truth. #gainingweightiscool