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My weight has really been fluctuating the past couple of days and I’m finding it really stressful, but I know this journey is going to have bumps along the way and looking at how far I’ve come is really helping me. The first photo was at a Halloween party October 2016, the second photo is today post gym. Looking sweaty but feeling good! 😅

Alice Notley | Certain Magical Acts

would we like it. Yes, we would. Or at least I do.

anonymous asked:

I've never lifted in my life, and I have no clue where to begin. Any advice?

Decide what you want from lifting, be it strength, weight loss, weight gain, ect.. find yourself a gym and if they are good have a chat and see if they can help you in the right direction! Best thing is make a plan, and stick to it!!

anonymous asked:

Isn't comp based entirely on win/loss rate and nothing else? (Besides team composition)

comp? do you mean sr??

sr loss/gain is also based on how well you do in the game (i’m not sure what factors into this exactly, i assume it’s kills, dmg, and heals) and i’m p sure the sr of the enemy team and your team are also factors

and the whole win streak thing, i don’t even know where to start with explaining that


These two pictures were taken just a little over a year apart. After looking at these you might think that a change like that would have made me super happy and satisfied with myself. But the night I took the second picture, I was not very happy at all. See, for that year my only goal was to loose the weight for other people. I never focused on what I wanted. I focused on how certain people would feel about me. Therefore the year was a complete rollercoaster. Back and forth, and that picture was taken at my lowest point weight wise, and self esteem wise. I was not accepting myself for the right reasons. I was looking at myself as only this lump thinking people actually cared about that.

Even though I had lost the weight I wanted, I was not satisfied with myself because I was always my biggest critic. I always wanted to be more fit. Until I realized that no one but me really cared that much about the way I looked. I started looking past my body and past my self esteem issues and started looking deeper.

The second picture is still me today. I am working now to maintain a good weight. But doing it the healthy way. I find my worth not in my outer appearance, But in ways I can be an encouragement to others, or some sort of motivation. Not a weight loss motivator. But a motivator to become the best person you can be in every way.

Me VS Overeating

I eat when I’m bored, when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m stressed…I eat whenever there is food within my reach. One bite turns into a frenzy that I cannot will myself to stop. I wish I could say this problem has gotten better over time, but to this day I struggle with it.

Going out to eat can be so bad. I go in telling myself that I am going to pack half of the ginormous portion away for the next day, but next thing I know I’ve shoveled the entire meal into my mouth and somehow found something extra to eat. Next thing I know, I’m over 1,000 calories deep into the one meal and my idea that the day has been ruined has entered my mind. 

With this mindset hatched in my mind, the rest of the day is pretty much just a frenzy of eating whatever food I can get my hands on. Calories don’t count when you’ve already ruined the day, right?

Chips, cookies, muffins, pasta, anything that I would not normally eat in surplus. Anything that I consider even slightly unhealthy. I eat as if I will never eat those foods again, even though I know I will. 

I think to myself that if I eat all of these foods when I’ve already been bad, maybe I won’t want them so much when I’m trying to eat completely healthy. If I eat ice cream and waffles with a side of pickles and fries maybe, just maybe, I won’t want those foods anymore. But let’s face it, that’s simply not true. I love those foods, and I’m always going to love those foods. And there’s nothing wrong with that in the slightest. 

What’s funny though, is that if I eat healthy for an entire day I don’t have this urge to eat everything in sight. If I start off my day with a healthy breakfast, I’m often really dedicated to keeping the day healthy. 

I am, in most cases, really horrible with self control. Once it’s gone, it’s gone and there’s no getting it back until the next day when I can start fresh and new. This is a major issue for me, and something I truly need to work on. 



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It’s so strange to look back at the summer before coming to college…my life has changed so much since. I can honestly say I did not partake in the freshman 15 and have loved living where I have constant support from friends, a gym membership, and healthy food readily available to me. It’s been a long road, but I’m sure glad I took it.