my relationship with my fp is so weird tbh bc he told me so many times in the past that he cares about me and he's just a very good guy in general, but i still feel like he's losing interest in me and that i bore him when we talk and i'm scared that i might lose the tiny bit of control i have over my life if he stops being interested in me and the fear of that is all i can think about all day and it makes me sick. and then i feel bad bc i feel like he doesn't deserve this crap
I’m sorry :( he probably isn’t losing interest and what you’re feeling is a symptom of bpd. But if you really wanna be sure maybe address it and tell him about whats bothering you. I hope all goes well!