losing a lot of brain cells there

A Dangerous Game (Suho Mafia!au fic) Chapter 13 - Babe?

Warnings: None

Ch. 1, Ch. 2, Ch. 3, Ch. 4, Ch. 5, Ch. 6, Ch. 7, Ch. 8, Ch. 9, Ch. 10, Ch. 11, Ch. 12 Ch. 13 Ch. 14 Ch. 15(M) Ch. 16 Ch. 17(M) Ch. 18  Ch. 19


“Well…there’s good news and bad news…which would you like first?” Yixing questioned.

“Um…I guess the…bad news….” I replied.

“Come with me…” he said leading me down the long hallways of the clinic before stopping in front of a door, “Bad news is that his heart stopped last night-”

“You promised you would call if something happen!” I snapped.

“Calm down, Y/N…” he said, “He is okay…I didn’t call because I didn’t want you flying about of bed for something that was already taken care of. If it had happened again I would have gotten you down here…but it only happened once. Now would you like the good news or are you going to yell at me some more?”

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Prison Break - Part 2

Word Count: 2099

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Warnings: Language, Violence, Blood

A/N: Unbeta’d, Unedited

Prison Break - Part 1


It had been weeks since the demon had made his presence known to Dean or to you. Weeks since Dean had shoved you into solitary. Sam had found out within a few days that the demon used to be an inmate, David, who was wrongly accused of killing a cop. Once he was in prison he was murdered by a gang of guards and cops who didn’t take kindly to crimes against their own. He wasn’t a truly innocent man. He was a rapist and a murderer, but he wasn’t a cop killer. He ended up in Hell and became a demon, coming back to this prison to exact some twisted revenge.

You’d grown closer to Dean over the weeks. Incredibly close. He’d managed to keep you in solitary confinement, always giving a reason why you had to stay there. He kept the other guards away. You didn’t ask how, but their visits to your cell were few and far between and you were thankful.

Maybe it was the confinement. Maybe it was that he was your only real human contact. But you could swear there were lingering touches, longer than necessary glances, comfortable silences. You were falling for him and you were pretty sure he was falling for you.

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Wooseok as a best friend

Originally posted by pen1ag0n

  • Wooseok would be such an adorable best friend
  • he’d be very playful
  • always teasing you 
  • and getting teased back
  • especially when he hits his head on doorways or trips over his own legs
  • gets really dramatic when that happens too
  • “oh my god I’m going to lose all my brain cells and you’re laughing at me”
  • lots of anime marathons
  • would cry during emotional episodes of Naruto
  • and deny it to the ends of the earth
  • brings you food all the time
  • steals half of it
  • “I bought it so technically it’s mine”
  • very protective of you
  • uses his tall height to intimidate people who bother you
  • because they don’t know he’s actually a marshmallow
  • gets all smug when it works
  • until you roll your eyes because you could’ve taken care of it yourself tbh
  • then he turns into a sad puppy because why aren’t you proud??
  • very empathetic 
  • whenever you cry, there’s an 86% chance he’ll cry too
  • gives you a hug and refuses to let you go until you’ve stopped crying
  • breaks the tension by complaining about the snot you got on his shirt
  • so you laugh and you’re not as sad anymore
  • you always trade music recs
  • and listen to them during your weekly sleepovers
  • your parents love him 
  • and his parents love you
  • when you’re not with him everyone asks where he is
  • because you’re always glued to each others’ sides
  • lots of 4am existential texts
  • “why do noses run and feet smell?”
  • you can’t imagine life without him
  • overall a really wonderful friend 
  • who cares a lot about you just like a best friend should!!
Tumblr's new feature

So the new Tumblr update made the messaging app somehow look like a Messenger. I mean now you can see and check if the person is online or were active for how many hours or so. Nyeaaam. Hassle. Baka next time may “seenzone” features na rin ‘to? Mahabaging Diyos, ‘wag naman sana.

I’m against that tool because:

1) I don’t want to feel like i’m oblige to reply to anyone who messages me only because i was able to see his/her messages. I would like to keep my right to ignore messages (offensive or not) in my own pace. Or reply them in my own solidarity. Ang tendency kasi kapag di mo mareplyan agad, magtatampo or mag-iisip agad ng negative. Pfft. Ang hassle mag-deal lagi sa ganon.

2) I’m keeping Tumblr for its unavailable features from Facebook and IG and other SNS. And i’m sincerely hoping i have to keep it that way. So let’s not take the upgrades towards that path, shall we Tumblr staff?

3) Anonymity has its ups and downs, and i like it that Tumblr’s able to mixed that up in a way that is annoying and fun. Even if it’s 80% annoying, the 20% compensates for all the negativity and assholes that overused them. I am not entirely sure if there are more updates or what, but apart from the “online visibility” i hope there’s none, and if there is, i hope it can serve us all too well.

Anyway, i’m just blabbing because i just finished doing my laundry and i’m quite in a mood to blab and blog. Because i feel like i needed to rekindle whatever it is that i am losing, when i write. I missed the times wherein i could still talk and write a lot of things, right now—i feel like i needed to go to brain camp and engulf a huge sum of brain vitamins or milk so my brain cells will stay active. Nakakabobo din talaga kasi ‘yong wala ka ng time magbasa saka mag-sayang ng oras kaka-online. Sigh. Dibale, susubukan ko ulit magpaka-active sa parte na 'yon. Oh siya, maliligo na ako kasi dami ko lakad.

Let's Talk - Extended

This is just a little extension to what my previous post explains.
Right now, I just wanna cry. This community is being divided, and I freaking hate it. I wanna cry at the fact that Keemstar had the nerve to make a video about it. And now more people are hating on Jack. More than ever.
What the hell Keem? You’re just making the situation worse.
I went into the comments section of Keem’s video and people are calling Jack out.
Me personally, I do agree with what he said.
His reasoning was excellent. I’m sorry if you disagree.
I’m currently watching the video, and I want to cry. Just cry.
What’s wring with this world? Why can’t we all get along?
I need to get off of this video. If I keep on watching, I’m going to lose all of my brain cells.
Jack should not feel bad. He’s still friends with Felix. And he did defend him. Like I said in my last post, he defended both parties. He also said what both parties did wrong.
Why did all of this start? Why is Jack getting a lot of controversy?!
UGH CAN I JUST CRAWL INTO A HOLE AND NOT COME OUT UNTIL THIS DRAMA IS OVER?!
Nobody deserves this amount of hate!
Either agree, respectively disagree, or don’t even comment at all!
Anyways… Sorry…. I’m just really upset right now…

~ Signing off
Mackenzie

BTS Reaction to their girlfriend staying up late every night

@btswifi Requested:  BTS reaction to girlfriend staying up very late each night (like up to 1-3am) because she stays up watching youtube videos or scrolling through her social media (like tumblr) thanks~

I hope you enjoy this! I don’t know if this was what you were hoping for but I still hope you like it :)


Jungkook: When Jungkook would come home and see you on your cellphone he honestly wouldn’t think anything was wrong. He’d be on his phone at this hour also so he honestly didn’t see a problem with you constantly on your cellphone and on your social media accounts. He’d probably tell you to get off your phone when he actually started to fall asleep which would be around 3-4 in the morning and if you said no he’d probably just whine and pull you into his chest and taking your phone away soon after. You’d try to argue but after a minute or so you’d realize you were exhausted and would fall asleep in his arms.


Taehyung: Your poor boyfriend would do nothing but worry about you when he sees you night after night on your cellphone, after about the fifth night seeing you up and on your cellphone he’d tell you his worries for you and your health. He wouldn’t be the type of boyfriend to tell you what to do but he’d just ask you if you could try and go to bed earlier, he’d rather have you watch tv then have you stare at your phone for hours on end. You’d try and say you were fine but the moment he saw how red your eyes were and see you rub them because they were hurting he’d put his foot down and all his worry would amplify.


Jimin: Jimin would honestly get irritated seeing you up every night at 3 in the morning, he’d understand if you were on your phone or up at this time for something for school but every time that he’s seen you up at this time you would be on all your social media apps, you’d be scrolling down your twitter feed or on tumblr and he’d be just done with it, but he wouldn’t be very forth coming when dealing with the irritation in him. I think he’d be very passive aggressive and letting out sighs, huffs of breath and groans along with the muttering of things which he’d be talking to himself but he’d say it loud enough just so you’d hear.


Hoseok: Hoseok would be worried just like Taehyung if not more. He’d see the bags under your eyes and see how exhausted you really were and how you weren’t blinking while you stared at the small screen. He’d only catch you staying up late one time but that one time and seeing how you looked completely wrecked him inside. He’d immediately snatch your phone from you and stick it in his pocket, when you fought him over it he’d simply just push you back into bed and give a stern “Sleep. Now.” he’d tell you that you’d get your phone back in the morning, he’d pour his worries out to you too, telling you that you looked like you haven’t slept in days and eventually you’d give in, sleeping alongside your boyfriend.


Namjoon: Namjoon would be very snarky when it came to you staying up every night being on your phone. He’d be like Jimin but he’d be a different kind of passive aggressive, he wouldn’t mutter words and say them to himself he’d purposefully say them to you and just say how you’re killing your brain cells every second you stare at your already too bright phone on pointless apps that you’d be using and scrolling on. You’d take a lot of it at first but after his constant bickering and snarky words you’d give in and get off your phone earlier and end up already being asleep by the time Namjoon got home.

Yoongi: Yoongi wouldn’t put up with your shit, point blank period. You’d try and argue with him that you were fine staying up this late on your phone but you’d lose that battle almost instantly. You’d give him some slight attitude and that’d be the end of it. He’d snatch your phone out of your hands and put it in the drawer beside the bed on his side. You’d obviously try and get it back, leaning over his body and reaching for the drawer but you were quickly pulled down on top of his body, his arms wrapping themselves around you stopping any movements of yours. You’d struggle against him but soon gave up as you realized he wasn’t going to let you go. You’d heave a sigh and only hear him chuckle in response, you’d roll off of him and face away from him, scooting to the end of the bed because you were obviously peeved off but Yoongi would soon pull you back to him, back against his chest and before oyu knew it you’d fall asleep in his arms.

Jin: Jin would be completely confused, he wouldn’t understand why you always had to stay up late. He’d ask you and you’d honestly admit that you just wanted to see him when he got home so you stayed up by being on your phone. You’d scroll through all your social media accounts, liking pictures and replying back to the fans of your boyfriend when they would @ you. He’d feel bad once realizing that it was him that was initially keeping you up every night. He’d make it a mission to come home earlier in order for you to get some more sleep than the few hours you already did, he’d come to find you still on your phone but you’d go to bed earlier when he came home.

Scientists use magnetic fields to remotely stimulate brain -- and control body movements

The minimally invasive technique could lead to advances in mapping the brain and treating neurological disease

Scientists have used magnetism to activate tiny groups of cells in the brain, inducing bodily movements that include running, rotating and losing control of the extremities – an achievement that could lead to advances in studying and treating neurological disease.

The technique researchers developed is called magneto-thermal stimulation. It gives neuroscientists a powerful new tool: a remote, minimally invasive way to trigger activity deep inside the brain, turning specific cells on and off to study how these changes affect physiology.

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Love Written In Ink

Love Written In Ink: Picking up the Pieces (Chapter 1)

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Summary: After breaking up with your boyfriend, you find yourself struggling to move on. But how can you, when both your lives are so intertwined? When a new captivating man enters your life, are the changes ahead for the better or worse?

Word Count: 4k+  

Rating: M (Smut)

A heavy sigh escaped your lips as you made your way up to the attic. The past couple of days had been so chaotic. It almost didn’t feel real, no matter how hard you tried to wrap your head around every overwhelming thing that happened. You didn’t know whether to laugh or cry at your own misfortune. You even wished you could go back to the days where you were blissfully ignorant about your boyfriend’s infidelity.

As you reached the top of the unsteady stairs, you lightly kicked the already broken and flimsy door open.

“Hey, careful! What if it breaks?” A low voice scolded you from behind.

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Tessaverse! Dork Squad / Mind Games Headcanons

Morning Rituals and Sleep (Continued from this post)

Edward Nygma / Riddler

  • Eddie tries to get the amount of sleep needed for his precious brain cells to work properly but he can have a bad habit of staying up late and losing sleep if something he deems something of the utmost importance. Expect lots of coffee to be consumed during that time.
  • Eddie rolls out of bed at a decent hour without practically sleeping the day away. Eddie is relatively quick to wake up in the morning, so about one cup of coffee and a good breakfast is all he needs.

Jonathan Crane / Scarecrow

  • Jon has very bad sleeping habits. He will be up for days doing research, experimentation, and / or reading. He often drinks a lot of coffee if he wants to stay awake but after a certain amount of cups, once he crashes he’s out…for several days.
  • Jon is a heavy sleeper. But if you manage to wake him up from a dead sleep, expect some…loud and colorful language.
  • Jon has to place his alarm clock several feet away from his bed, forcing himself to get out of bed in order to start to properly wake up. Afterwards, several cups of coffee and a breakfast of “whats the first thing we grab from the cabinet/fridge” is consumed. As you can tell, Jon is VERY slow to wake up in the morning, not to mention cranky.

Jervis Tetch / Mad Hatter

  • Jervis has been known to be up late tweaking his mind control devices but is nowhere near as bad as Jon or Eddie. When he can’t take anymore, he usually goes to bed.
  • Jervis wears a nightcap to bed.
  • Jervis is very quick to wake up in the morning.

Neil Clavier / Music Meister

  • Neil will always get his required sleep to help keep his voice in peak condition. And if you wake up Neil while he’s sleeping…you have made a grave mistake. NOTHING IMPEDES THE MEISTERS BEAUTY SLEEP.
  • Neil will not talk to anyone in the morning until he’s had his special blend tea that helps keep his voice in shape.
  • Neil is prone to be a light sleeper. Sometimes he even wears earplugs to bed.
[Doctors Special] Opening and Ending Narrative from each episode

Epidsode1 : Yoo Hye Jung

[opening] “Those who are destined to meet eventually do so.The person i have to meet is here. Death is not a surprise at this place. However, death should be surprising regardless of the location. The person i meet doesn’t get surprised by death.”

[ending] “Whether you become friends or foe, you never know how that person will become part of your life in the beginning.”

Epidsode2 : Yoo Hye Jung

[opening] “Living a reckless life is a way to abuse yourself. It’s worse than committing suicide. It’s like killing yourself slowly. Like all other kinds of abuse, you come to enjoy it.”

“I hope that person isn’t my homeroom teacher, but i’m pretty sure he is. Nothing in my life has gone the way i hope it would.”

“even though i’d like to live a reckless life, somewhere deep inside my heart, i ask myself how long i’m going to keep this life up.”

[ending] “i promised to live a different life. I thought it’d be easy after a single success. I had failed to realise that the situation i’m in was still the same.”

Epidsode3 : Hong Ji Hong

[opening] “The feeling associated with like and dislike are produced by the amygdaloid nucleus in the cerebrum. The Amygdaloid nucleus is also responsible for the fight-or-flight response and aggressive behaviour. 

Falling in love causes people to become simultaneously more combative.”

[ending] “Love-stricken insanity is proof of brain cell stimulation.The lack of insanity in love is abnormal. I tried to protect myself from the insanity called love. Hence, I paid the price.”

Epidsode4 : Yoo Hye Jung

[opening] “Success comes with a lot of perks. The way people view you changes. I found out after i succeeded. Success is meaningful only when you have someone to share it with. I lost the only family i had. I lost the desire to make another too. so i chose a car over a home.”

“Still, there are things you lose but you can never forget.”

[ending] “The unresolved past always finds you again, whether it’s love or hatred.”

Epidsode5 : Yoo Hye Jung

[opening] “Your body moves on reflex when you’re in danger in a way you learned and practised or you are used to. We learn the habits we need your body to know when we are young. Once your childhood passes, nothing can take its place.”

[ending] “People say that forgiveness is not for the person you’re forgiving but for yourself. It’s not right to give such an advice. Forgiveness is not as easy as you think.”

Epidsode6 : Hong Ji Hong

[opening] “You don’t know how dear something is to you until you lose it. I had no idea that the little things in life are what really mattered.

I lost her before my eyes without being able to do a thing. I detest anything that destroys my everyday life.”

[ending] “Life is worth living. I also have the chance to savor the little thing in life.”

Epidsode7 : Yoo Hye Jung

[opening] “Love between a man and a woman mean fighting until one person dies.

I don’t know how to love a man. I don’t know how to be loved as a woman.”

“I won’t kill myself because of the love of a man like my mother.”

[ending] “This is how things have always been. Love begat fear, and fear consumes me.”

Epidsode8 : Hong Ji Hong

[opening] “What i admire the most in a romantic relationship is the couple’s ability to express childish emotions. In a romantic relationship, being childish is healthy. Being childish and vulnerable is the best gift you can give to the other.

[ending] “the girl grabbed my hand before i did to her for the first time ever.”

Epidsode9 : Yoo Hye Jung

[opening] “once you get revenge, the anger you had settled down. Revenge gives you the strength to calm down and move on. I won’t stop until i achieve my goal.”

“But i feel sleepy when i’m with this man.”

[ending] “When a doctor becomes a guardian of his loved one, he too is just a weak human.”

Epidsode10 : Yoo Hye Jung

[opening] “True relationship can change people. The person i’m involved with can transform my life. That is why people can be both sources of hope and despair.”

[ending] “in the past, Prof.Hong made me want to become a good person. Being good person and being a good partner in a romantic relationship are two different things.”

anonymous asked:

Alice you have to read it, please. It's hilarious! I promise you will laugh...a lot!

Don’t tempt me, Anon. I need all the brain cells I can spare. I’m afraid if I go look, I might lose a few after the bleach bath.

Alice 🐇

greekowl87  asked:

What's the craziest thing that you have ever done?

Apart from joining Tumblr?

Well, I’m not impulsive at all, I’m not an adrenaline junkie, I’m not into going fast or high, I dislike getting wet or cold. I don’t like theme parks or extreme anythings.

But, I had a baby or four - no rational person would willingly submit to being responsible for another human life, lose sleep, brain cells, identity and your temper. A lot. And then do it again and again and again.

I moved hemispheres. That was pretty crazy. Leaving behind family, friends, good television, quality tea and Marmite. We took a dog with us. That was a nightmare transaction. We took a baby. 24 hours on a plane with a one year old. Crazy. We moved in with the in-laws for 9 months. Crazy, crazy.

Still, probably the most irrational and crazy thing I’ve ever done is to book a Meet and Greet with David Duchovny next year. I can’t believe I did it. I can’t believe I have to queue up on my own and shake his hand and talk to him and get a photo (which I hate) and have something signed. And then the craziest part - I have to sit through a concert, where he’s actually going to sing. Live. 

I might have acted rashly and out-of-character booking the tickets, but I’m not crazy enough to forget to pack my ear plugs.

anonymous asked:

I can't believe you're still alive arguing with so many idiots in just one day. Huge respect for not losing all of your brain cells.

I have a lot of patience. lol 

anonymous asked:

I just did an online calculator for weight loss, and it said I should be eating around 481 calories per meal for weight loss. I know I eat around 200-300 calories per meal, with 100 calorie snacks in-between- (estimating) I've always been doing this and never lost the 5 pounds I've been trying to desperately to lose. Am I not eating enough? If so, how does eating more make me lose weight? I'm restrictive, but I'm scared to eat more. Help

I hope our readers don’t mind, but its obvious we need to continuously answer these questions until its common sense.  

YOU HAVE TO EAT TO LOSE….   When you restrict your body responds.

When you restrict your body responds..

When you restrict your body responds…

The response is to ADAPT to your new lower calorie intake.  

Adaptation includes oxidizing your skeletal muscles & burning them as fuel for your red blood cells & brain & spinal column.  With less muscle you need less fuel & you do a lot less.  ADAPTATION to lower calories = BURNING LESS CALORIES = NO WIN GAME.

The human machinery is programed for famine, if you introduce a famine it bunkers down like a hibernating bear.  Bears slow down their hormone production, metabolism, bodily processes…  turns out so do humans when we create caloric famines.  Lost your period?  oh yeah you told your body with food that its not a good time to carry a child because there simply isn’t enough food.

So people restricting turn themselves into hibernating bears & their body adapts into a super storer to survive by holding on to every gram of fat it can.

So how do you lose weight with this understanding?  You have to EAT TO LOSE.  By increasing the healthy WSLF food in your diet your body has to WORK harder, metabolisms start rebounding in 14 weeks for older adults who have done a lifetime of restriction.  As long as you are completely avoiding added fats in your foods and eating abundantly a diet of whole foods you will have the energy you need to get active & reverse the hibernating bear lifestyle.  

Fat burns as a portion of our fuel & it is not replaced by sugar.   

Fat synthesis from carbohydrate will not exceed fat oxidation after one high-carbohydrate meal, even if it is uncommonly large. When a single high-carbohydrate meal is consumed, dietary carbohydrate merely has the effect of reducing the rate of fat oxidation.

Read that science right there, but live the science in your own life!  In simple terms the study above shows that the fat required to make fat from carbs is MORE than the fat produced…  READ THE NEXT LINE & realize overdoing sugar reduces the rate of fat oxidation.  

So lets recap.  Eat whole starches & you slow the rate you reduce fat oxidation (burning fat).  That means burning fat ALL DAY & ALL NIGHT LONG.  Its impossible to add fat to your body from sugar because it literally takes MORE fat to make fat from sugar than you can get out of the sugar.  

As long as you aren’t refilling your fat tank with every meal your are going to eat to full, ramp up your metabolism eating nutrient rich whole plant foods & effortless burn through your fat tank over the next few months quicker and quicker ALL WHILE NOT GIVING TWO SHITS ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU EAT!  

Its a miracle.  Go & embrace it. #WSLF

RWBY Volume 4 Chapter 4

Ok we need to discuss something

I’ve seen that the fandom is very split on this episode

There’s the half that says that it was great and adorable and had cute Tai and Yang moments

And then there’s the half that got angry and said that this episode was transphobic and ableist and that Taiyang is a bad father

I’m not going to bash on either side, but I’d like to say something

To those of you on the latter side of the fandom, I understand why you’re angry. Taiyang’s “joke” about Yang losing brain cells did go a bit far, but for the most part it seems like casual father/daughter banter. Yeah, it does still seem a bit early, but Yang seemed okay with it (we finally got to see her smile!). I don’t think the joke was meant to be ableist, even though I understand why it could seem like it.

Now we need to discuss Qrow in a skirt. I doubt that it was meant to be transphobic, but I think that Miles and Kerry just didn’t realize that a lot of people might take the casual cross-dressing joke that way. I think it was meant to be funny and just show that Qrow wasn’t always a cool guy, and to show Taiyang, Prof. Port, and Prof. Ooblek just joking around and having fun. Cross dressing isn’t necessarily transphobic, though I see why it could be taken that way. Still, we shouldn’t get too angry about it, I’m pretty sure it was an accident.

Another thing: I’m still angry at Miles and Kerry. I’m a bit annoyed as to how they’ve been dancing around making LGBT characters (although the first mate in chapter 3 was awesome!). Monty promised us that some of the characters would eventually realize that they weren’t straight, but it kinda seems like Miles and Kerry are avoiding that. Maybe it just hasn’t been the right time yet, but honestly, there shouldn’t need to be a right time. I get that they might need a bit more character development before any realizations occur, but the writers could at least plant the seed, you know?

Okay, that’s all for now. Can we stop being so divided as a fandom? We all enjoy this show and care about it, so let’s stop fighting over things. We’re a family, let’s start acting like one.

trryn73  asked:

Hey froggie! I am studying to be a dietician, avd have seen you mention multiple times that you saw one but they couldn't help you. I'm wondering if you could explain why that didn't work out? I'm confused why they couldn't help you find a solution.

They were helpful. But I have an issue where I need a certain amount of calories to function and I can only do very very limited physical activities. So it is hard to burn enough calories to lose the weight and not be super fatigued from the thing I did to burn the calories. If I make one mistake. Eat one thing I’m not supposed to. If my depression flares up and I lose the ability to care about what I eat… I pretty much undo any progress I’ve made. I will either not lose weight or gain back weight I lost. It is a stressful process that usually ends up as a delicate house of cards that is fated to crumble. I end up at square one again. 

Other issues are that I need extremely simple meals a lot of the time. Pop-in-the-microwave simple. I am often too tired to prepare anything more complicated. There isn’t a lot of good food that I can make myself. When you can barely stand and you need to eat something, it isn’t realistic to think I can sauté some mushrooms or whatever. There are Weight Watchers and things like that, but they can get expensive. 

The other problem is that it is reeeally hard to keep track of a diet, find the willpower to eat all the right things, and stay mentally strong to keep myself from overeating. My fatigue and depression just makes that near impossible a lot of the time. This is what a lot of people would call “being lazy” or “unmotivated” …but over the years I feel I have disproved that.

Eating right is hard for a lot of people without any other health issues. I don’t understand why people can’t make the logical leap that it would be especially hard for someone like me. It requires a lot of energy to keep it up. Energy I don’t have. It is a mental exercise as much as anything and I often am not up to the concentration and mental effort it requires. 

That is just not something a dietitian can fix. 

I’m looking into places that will prepare and deliver healthy meals that I can just heat up. I’m also looking into trying to find someone who can assist me during the day and keep me on track. But those are both things I can’t afford right now. 

A lot of the time I feel like the reason I can’t lose weight is that I can’t afford it. 

If it were just a matter of needing willpower I would have lost the weight a long time ago. Willpower does not create more energy in my cells. It does not fix my brain chemistry. I have put monumental effort into solving this. People who assume I have been eating cheeseburgers all these years are extremely mistaken.

If people want to say I’m just “making excuses” that is fine. All I know is that I tried all the things, and I couldn’t do them. I will continue to look for answers and find a way to solve this, but I think the answer lies in finding some relief of my narcolepsy or CFS so that I have more energy to dedicate to achieving a healthier weight. 

A club no one wants to be in: Mothers who lost their children to gun violence

by Jamiles Lartey 

Every day in America, seven children under the age of 19 are killed by gun violence. Often, it’s their mothers who are left to speak for them and call for change. Photographer Ali Smith’s latest photo project, 7 Kids a Day seeks to capture these women, who she describes as “members of a club no one want’s to be a part of.”

Sandra Frank: “I didn’t talk about how I felt for 17 years.”

Sandra Frank’s son Teshawn Samuel was 18 years old when he was killed in 1999 in Brooklyn. “I went into hibernation. For eight months, I didn’t have a period from the stress. I didn’t talk about how I felt for 17 years,” she says.

Samuel was shot 17 times by four assailants while handing out invitations to his daughter’s fourth birthday party. She says that people in all communities are at risk for this kind of tragedy. “None of those bullets have a name on them. Violence can fall anywhere,” Frank says.

Diana Rodriguez: “It’s the loneliest club to be a part of.”

Samantha Guzman was 18 years old and weeks away from graduation when she was shot on her way to a bus stop in the Bronx. A group of men in a confrontation, believed to be gang-affiliated, began firing and Guzman was struck twice.

Rodriguez said she isn’t out to bash gun owners and enthusiasts, but believes gun control obstruction is costing lives. “Are your guns more important than my child’s life? With rights comes responsibility and accountability. I don’t see a lot of being accountable for what’s happening in our communities to our children.”

Oxsana Naunkim: “You hurt from your fingertips to your toes.”

Oxsana Naumkin’s son Nicholas was 12 years old when he was accidentally shot in the head by a playmate right before Christmas in 2010. She rushed to the hospital, but Nicholas’s brain activity had already stopped.

Naumkin is currently lobbying for a state law that would make it a felony if something happens in a home because a gun was stored irresponsibly. But more than anything, she is trying to heal. “I can’t even describe how losing a child feels… Every cell in your body aches. It’s hard to breathe,” Naumkin said. “Life will never be the same.”

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Went dumpster diving because I feel like we talk a lot about Goffman and Metzner as being the problem with SH and I think a reminder is in order that the rest of the writing team are trashy as fuck too. Sure they may not have decision-making powers but they’re pitching the ideas and the storylines, they’re writing the episodes, and this is how they’re representing the show on twitter. 

Now I need to go scream into a pillow and eat a dictionary cause looking at their timelines raised my blood pressure and made me lose like 50 brain cells. *rubs temples*