lord help is all

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Too much sanity may be madness, and the maddest of all:
                                      to see life as it is and not as it should be.

Keep It Safe - For @turquoiseterrier - because I just really want to bring everyone down after the wedding high. haha. sorry

So…considering that Thursday preview clip, this probably definitely won’t happen…and certainly not like this…and who knows if Robert will even get to go to court with Aaron in the first place…but…I wrote and drew this before I saw that clip anyway…so here it is… (though I did go back and change Robert’s outfit to match because I’m a crazy person….)

Robert is sitting on the edge of their bed, already showered and dressed for court. He was up early, not that they got much sleep anyway. It was their wedding night after all. With his heart in his throat, he watches Aaron move about the room getting ready, wondering how long it will be until they can be here in this room together like this again, or in their new bedroom at the Mill. It won’t be too long, he tells himself but he knows he’s mostly in denial, doesn’t stop him from trying to force the thoughts though. It still feels like he just got Aaron back and now he’s being ripped away from him again.

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Portuguese!Grantaire

Okay just bear with me my fellow trash

 - He isn’t portuguese technically. His grandparents escaped from Salazar dictatorship to france as everyone did back then. His own dad was born in france. So yeah he is french. But he still has that hot portuguese blood and lord help us all.

- He used to go to portugal every summer when he was little. His own dad speaked portuguese in his house because that’s what happens, we are assholes and speak our language in our homes and then go back to our country and speak french just because we are lil shits. So yeah Grantaire knows portuguese. His vó would kill him if he didn’t.

- When he is stressed he starts talking in portuguese because other people can’t understand him and that makes him feel safer. 

- When he hurts himself he just screams “caralho”.

- No one of les amis knew that was exactly cursing and they thought it was a beautiful word. Till R is like “you know that is like the most normal portuguese cursing word right?” And everyone starts using it as well and its adorable.

- He actually knows a lot of portuguese history and when marius is being an idiot about Napoleon he just clears his throat and be like “Well my people kicked his ass 3 times he ain’t that great”. (also enjolras screams there that that aint the point that Napoleon was bad because he was bad).

- The only time he was vocal about a cause it was about the immigrants and refugees. No one ever saw him like that. He was talking with everyone and defending that cause and one night Enjolras comes to him and aks why its so important for him and Grantaire just smiles and says: “My grandparents escaped from the dictatorship. They were refugees in France. I can’t let that be forgotten.” So yeah Enjolras kind of fell in love with him a bit more.

- HE CALLS CORAÇÃO (heart) TO EVERY LES AMIS BECAUSE PORTUGUESE PEOPLE ARE THAT AFFECTIONATE.

- First time he calls “amor” (love) to Enjolras, he almost dies. Because that sounds so much better than in french and he loves french. But the way Grantaire lips move when he talks portuguese is something that makes Enjy weak.

- He just curses in portuguese. Forget french. He is just caralho, merda, puta que te pariu, filho da puta, cona, cara de pila, etc. 

- And everyone thinks that is beautiful.

- He likes to say shit like “oh in portuguese you dont say ____ you say __(something that has nothing to do and its probably a dirty joke)__. Because he is an adorable liltle shit.

- HE KNOWS HOW TO COOK PORTUGUESE FOOD AND COURF LOVED IT. AND HE LOVES TO COOK TO EVERYONE AND GET EVERYONE AROUND A TABLE BECAUSE THEY ARE FAMILY AND THAT IS A TYPICAL SUNDAY WITH THE FAMILY.

- He loves the beach and gets cranky in summer because the sea calls for him.

- He loves Fernando Pessoa so much. So so much. Cause hey no one was more emo than him.

- Sometimes he sings fado and everyone is looking at him and awe because damn R voice is amazing but in portuguese??? They can hear something more even if they dont understand a third of the words.

- just portuguese!grantaire

Well, I'll have nightmares tonight. Or I just won't sleep tonight

Okay I’m gonna make this short and sweet, the Anti VA called me a while ago from @theglitchedsystem and I’m still in the aftermath of being frightened and shit. He made me feel so conflicted with my emotions.

And yes, I did apologize to him about that post I made earlier. He threatened me not to disrespect him again or he’ll skin me and whatever his bloodlust desires. Also, HE SAID MY NAME! MY NAME! And he was growling and purring and just “WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF?”

Someone please give me virtual huggles…

Back to School with Les Amis
  • Enjolras: Believe in yourself. Never doubt that you can accomplish great things. You will get through that exam. You will finish this paper.
  • Combeferre: Be curious. We often forget that learning can be fun and exciting. You're learning new things every day. You know more than you did yesterday, congratulations!
  • Courfeyrac: Be passionate. Even if what you're passionate about isn't your field of study. Find something that fuels you to keep your head above water.
  • Grantaire: You know more things than you think you do. You're good at something. You are not the worst. You are actually quite knowledgeable, whatever that knowledge may be
  • Joly: Self-care is important. Take breaks. Treat yourself. Take a warm shower. You brain needs to rest to process information, let it do its thing
  • Bossuet: Failure is okay. It happens, and they don't make you a bad person. You are much more than that grade. You have survive this far. This too shall pass
  • Jehan: Romanticize your studies. Buy the prettiest notebook. Buy those glitter pens and highlighters. Take the most #aesthetic notes. Find the studying technique that suits you best and go forth
  • Feuilly: Hobbies and things that you like to learn outside of school are great too. They can even be useful later in life. Never feel guilty about taking time to focus on those
  • Bahorel: Be bold. Never be ashamed of what you're studying. Even if it's Law. And Hell knows Law is... well. You can do this, prove them wrong.
  • Marius: Feeling inadequate and like the future is scary and uncertain is okay. No one really knows what they're doing. You're doing just fine. It'll all fall into place