I relapsed again, drug wise  about two months ago.  And instead of seeking help, I just went, “Oh, it’s just a little, I can stop anytime I want.”  Now I’m up to having to take them everyday or I get the starting symptoms of withdrawal.  

I can not do this again.  I am not, I will not.  I am quitting this shit to-fucking-night.  I will not lose myself to this god-forsaken drug again.  Opiates be damned.  I will not lose the only two people in my life that I love because of a stupid pill addiction.  No. No. No.

I will overcome this, goddammit.