i'm in a world of pain ugh i just watched an episode with cas and god i didn't know how badly i missed him!!!!!! i need him to reunite with dean right now!
I prescribe watching on a loop for at least 15 minutes a day.
… also I was going to write more but I just stared at this for a whole minute and realised what I was doing.
It’s so weird going through fictional grief for a fictional character you know is coming back in a couple of weeks, we’ll see again in less than a week most likely, and you have an open world of entertainment options to play all his old episodes whenever you like, and it still doesn’t feel good.
Catharsis is such a strange thing, that we need to know he’s alive and well and we feel his loss when he’s “gone”… I feel like this experience more than anything is making me realise how much no matter how level headed you try and be, fictional characters are sorted by your brain in the same place as real people when it comes to how you feel about them.
Is watching old Cas episodes like just going through your photos of him and sobbing?
How can he only exist chronologically when that doesn’t apply to him at all in any sense of any level of his existence?
My head hurts, I need more coffee.