Dear Dan Howell:
Dear Daniel James Howell, I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. I wish you could see how happy you look compared to back when you saw yourself as “a nobody.” I wish you could see what I see when I look at you in 2009. Full of hidden happiness just waiting to be given to the world.
Most importantly, I wish you could see yourself through my eyes when I think about all you’ve overcome. You’ve said all too many times that you have no potential, or that you’re average. That you’re full of existential fear.
Dear Daniel James Howell, who told you those lies? Who ever looked into your warm, welcoming eyes and convinced you that you’re average with no future? I guess it doesn’t matter who, really. All that matters is that you understand that you are above average. That existential fear doesn’t define who you are, and it has never stopped you. Look how far you’ve come.
I wish you could see yourself through my tear filled eyes when I feel like I’m useless. When I’m worthless, stupid, annoying and everything in between. When I listen to your words of comfort, or hear that all too wonderful laugh. When just the thought of you alone can make me understand that I am worthwhile. I am beautiful, caring, capable, smart, beautiful and everything in between.
Dear Daniel James Howell, please never forget how far you’ve come, and how much you mean to me. How much you really mean to all of us. Please never forget how many lives you’ve saved, and how many people are here to support you. Please don’t forget that life has a meaning, and you may have yet to see that you’ve found your meaning.
Dear Daniel James Howell, how I truly wish you could see yourself through our eyes. Because I don’t think you’ll ever be able to understand how much you’re loved.