I feel nothing and everything all at once. It makes sense. I am an all or nothing person, so why wouldn’t my emotions be included in this general consensus? I go through long periods of nothingness where nothing phases me and even the most traumatic events don’t make me bat an eye. But then it’s as if a dam breaks and I feel all the emotions I’ve deprived myself of. Fear and loss and love and pain and sadness and happiness and excitement. It portrays itself in the anxiety that hits me like a car when I don’t look both ways before crossing a street. You think I would’ve learned to look by now. But I never saw her coming.