the stars, they cry for us
↠ pairing: jungkook x reader
↠ genre: bestfriend!au, angst
↠ word count: 1308
↠ summary: Under the dark clouds of the city that brought you two together, he says the three words that would have made you stay.
“Please, don’t go.”
Clenching your fists, you turn around to face the source of all your pain. A subtle sting that burns at the very core of your heart, that slowly grows until the beating flesh feels like it’s being split into two. He looks back at you with hollow eyes that resemble yours, full of a pain and agony that is close to incurable. You’re broken at the sight of him so helpless with no idea on how to convince you to stay; to stop you from leaving him.
It’s like every cell in his body is succumbing to the fate that destiny has set for you both. He knows there is no way he can change your mind now, not when it’s too late, but there’s still a part of him hoping that the girl he’s known and loved for the past fifteen years is still somewhere in there despite everything that’s happened to bring you both to where you are now.
His eyes say everything his mouth does not. He’s begging you to stay with him, not to leave him in a world where you will never be together— where he will never be yours. The look on his face almost has you running back to him to apologize for all the things you’ve said and done, to make right of all your wrongs, but you keep yourself glued to your spot, fighting every urge to go back to a life full lies. A life where you wake up and end off saying the same words over and over in your head until you believe it even if it’s all for just a second, “This is enough.”
It hurts to see him in so much pain, but you’ve been through so much more; the pain he feels at this very moment would never compare to yours. You’ve been through so many nights spent alone with tears; so many moments where he chose her over you; so many hours you spent waiting for him at restaurants or arcades or even in the comfort of your home, only to find out he couldn’t make it because of her; so many excuses that left your heart in pain; so many years of torture all because you were in love with your best friend, but your best friend was in love with someone else.
A shaky breath is all you can manage to keep yourself from breaking down in front of him. You force a smile on your face, but you know he can easily see through it— he can easily see through you.
“I have to,” you whisper, afraid that if you speak any louder he would hear the strain in your voice and say all the right things to convince you to stay. He takes a step closer and you fight the urge to take a one back. Before he can say anything you continue, “I’m going to miss my flight, Guk. I need to go.”
He doesn’t seem to care at the least, reaching out and taking a hold of your hand. Under the cool droplets of rain that soaks your clothes until it sticks to your skin like glue, his touch seems to be the only thing that brings you warmth, still.
“No, no you don’t,” he says for what you believe is the nth time this night. His voice is pleading you to listen. “Stay. I’m begging you, Y/N, please. You’re my best friend. I can’t live without my best friend.”
There they are again; the two words that you’ve come to hate. Best friend. A reminder of why you had to leave this cruel place behind— a city that only brought you pain and sorrow for far too long. Though your heart’s not willing to leave him yet, you’ve already lost him. You’ve lost him to the girl you wish to be— the girl he truly can’t live without.
“I’m sorry,” you say with a shake of your head and he really feels as if he’s lost you now.
You take a step forward, and another after that, and another until you’ve closed the tortuous space between both your bodies and wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him into a warm hug that sends shivers down your back and breaks your heart simultaneously.
Jeongguk wraps his arms around your waist, realizing it is hopeless to persuade you to stay; you’ve made your mind to leave the city you both grew up in— the city that shares all your precious memories from kindergarten ‘til now— and it breaks his heart. He tightens his hold on you, afraid of what will happen once you finally let go. You stay like that for minutes, both of you refusing to let go of another as the tears slip past your waterlines, dampening Jeongguk’s already soaking shirt.
You try to take in everything you can of Jeongguk and tuck it into your heart to remember forever, however long your forever may be.
He’s warm as he always has been, the familiar smell of rain and his signature musky cologne you’ve come to love, polluting your lungs. His touch is as delicate as a butterfly, but he hugs you like your the air he breathes. Jeongguk is breaking inside with every passing second because he knows this is the last memory you both will share and if you say otherwise, you’re lying. He basks in your warmth as you bask in his, both of you aware that this moment is the memory you’ll keep in your hearts forever.
Not the fights or the strain you have placed on your friendship, but the moments that make your farewell harder than it should be.
You’re the one to pull back first, missing the delicate kiss Jeongguk places on your neck before he follows your motion. He’s reluctant at first, but his arms slowly fall back to his sides. His eyes are bloated and red and you realize he’s been crying onto your shoulder like you’ve been crying onto his.
All you wish to do is tell him everything will be alright, but you that’s a lie. All you want is to leave him before the pain becomes unbearable— more than it is now. But, all you can do is place a tender kiss on his damp cheek— whether it is from the rain or his tears you aren’t sure— before you pull back, far enough it makes your body ache.
“Goodbye, Jeongguk,” you say with a smile that leaves his heart in a million pieces. You don’t stay to listen to his response, the tears already cascading down your cheeks as you hold back your heart-wrenching sobs.
Jeongguk watches as your shaking body enters the vehicle, his very own screaming at him to do something to make you stay. His body craves your touch for one more second; his cheeks burning where your lips met his skin; his heart crying because he’ll never get the chance to say the words that are lodged in his throat. He’s scared that the silver lining there is in this mess will be destroyed the second he pours his feelings to you.
Instead, he watches as the car drives down the street until it’s— you’re out of his sight. And that’s when he really starts to cry. The sound of a heartbreak one could never recover from echoing down the pouring streets earning the sympathy of stars above. As if the world understands the pain he’s in, the rain pours harder and harder onto his body, crying along with a soft melody of droplets touching the ground.
Under the dark clouds of the city that brought you two together— the city where two star-crossed lovers fell in love— he says the three words that would have made you stay.
“I love you.”
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