First of all, YES that is me with ZENDAYA!!! Yesterday I was in Central FUNDON (my home btw) when I happened to realise how close I was to the precious gem that is Zendaya! I was so elated and stoked when she let me take this photo with her (yes I know I look gross and chubby but I was halfway through my McDonald’s burger anD ZENDAYA ASDGJMKFVBN). I was like RIP ME whilst yelling internally, and was like since you’re close friends with Taylor please can you tell her that I love her so much and that I follow her on tumblr etc etc. And she was so incredibly kind as to video me saying that. But yeah Zendaya’s honestly such an awesome human being and it’s so great to see my role model and favourite person, that’s you taylorswift, being surrounded by people as wonderful as her.
Taylor, I know that you may never even see this post, however I’d still like to take this opportunity to express how much of an impact you’ve had on my life and my decisions for the past 6 years, when I became a huge Swiftie, after listening to Love Story for the first time aged 11 and jamming to You Belong With Me EVERY. SINGLE. ‘Typical Tuesday night’ which is FYI my life story. I’ve NEVER been able to see you perform live but I hope that one day I’ll be able to. Obviously, becoming a Swiftie was one of the best things I’ve done as I’ve realised that flawless people like you exist, which has given me more hope than I had ever imagined. You’ve helped me with your songs - The Outside, A Place in this World and Shake It Off, especially during the last 4 years, at times where I felt invisible and that no one acknowledged the war that was going on inside my mind. I’ve had times where I’ve had to fake smiles and try my hardest not to cry in front of everyone due to the attention that would ensue. I’ve never been one that has felt comfortable discussing my feelings due to the general lack of trust I feel towards people unfortunately due to past experiences and lack of confidence so this is perhaps the first and last time I’ll write them down so explicitly. Taylor, thank you for helping me deal with a friendship that ended on a bad note and still affects me to this day with Bad Blood, my few crushes with Enchanted, The Story of Us, Style, I Almost Do and countless others. The song Mine reminds me of my childhood days and how it’s shaped so many of my thoughts and actions now, after my dad left. Of course there’s a hole in my heart 'cause of that but Mine has helped me heal over the last few years and realise that not everyone ends up that way. You’ve helped my fear of being judged dissipate over time greatly as I’ve realised that the opinions of others don’t define me as they don’t know who the REAL ME is. The truth is, I guess that even I don’t know who the real me is, but I hope that someday soon I’ll be able to find myself again, just as you have. Your quotes, replies to your fans and actions have all helped me through so much, from making me laugh hysterically on a bad day to motivating me, which is why when people ask me why I adore you so much, I simply cannot give them a simple answer because you are so much more than that. So, thank you and I love you and seeing you happy makes me so happy because you deserve 'every little peace love’.
Forever lovelovelove -
A careless man’s careful daughter, Inayah xxxxx
P.S. please can you tell ZENDAYA that she’s flawless and beautiful both inside and out and that I’m sorry that I didn’t get to tell her that when I saw her due to how in actual awe and shock I was in at the time!
gillian was AMAZING!! it was so surreal seeing her from the autograph line, and the closer i got, the more nervous and shaky i got. but she was so sweet. there was so much eye contact, it was incredible. her eyes are so captivating and deep and magnetic, i felt like i was falling down a rabbit hole. she smiled and asked me how i was doing, she concentrated super hard on making sure she spelled my name correctly, and i asked her to draw the alien head, and she did, and i loveeee it omfg. she focused so hard on drawing the alien, too, she was so cute. she did it super slowly and precisely. so freakin precious. and later, at the photo op, i got to actually put my arm around her and she put her arm around me, and i think i just about died right there on the spot. then as i was about to walk away, she still had her hand on my arm, and she turned and looked right into my eyes and said thank you, and i thanked her back, and i left. so now i’m home and in absolute awe from being in her presence so much today, and i already miss her, but i’m on cloud nine from actually having this experience.
This season we had Clelli, then we had Lizton, both of which felt/looked forced, overdone, and rushed into from the moment they entered the house. Then we have John and Becky…
When the two of them are in a room together you instantly feel that natural chemistry and you can see it in their eyes when they’re together. Becky could be talking about absolutely anything and John would listen so carefully and happily just because the words were coming from her mouth. The way his eyes light up when she comes around is just precious.
Last night when the two of them were on the hammock together was the first time I had seen Johnny look genuinely happy in such a long time. He kept smiling and laughing even though nothing was even particularly funny. He just enjoys being around Becky.