I never knew why I held on to you.
I never knew why I wanted to remember.
I never knew why I was scared of letting go.
But in the end it was because without you I was alone and to me, isolation means oblivion.
It was because I didn’t want to get washed away by the hurricanes that tore through my open wounds.
It was because I didn’t want to get lost like a paper town on a map of the places we never went.
It was because I didn’t want to be left on top of the world looking out over everyone who had forgotten me.
I was scared of being left alone in a world full of screams with no one to hold.
I was scared of being left alone with my mind full of fear with no one to explain it all to.
I was scared of oblivion,
and you were scared of having no one to blame your mistakes on.
—  Dakota Moon, Oblivion
alone vs loneliness

there’s a difference
between being
alone
and being
lonely.

being alone
is nice.

it’s nice to
read alone
in the library.
it feels nice to
walk home
while listening to music
by yourself.
it’s a good feeling
to be home alone
on a saturday night,
just watching movies and such.

when you’re alone,
you can finally think clearly
and free.

however,
being
lonely
is
a
completely
different
story.

loneliness
is when
you feel as if no
one is there for you.

you aren’t
emotionally close
to anyone.

it’s when
it feels as if
all of the
bad thoughts are
eating
you
alive,
but you have absolutely
no one to confide in.

it’s as if you’re in a
room full of a hundred people,
but it’s as if you’re the only one.

loneliness suffocates
you until you can’t breath.
and when you try
to scream into the
emotional void,
no one will
hear you.

it’s nice to be alone,
but it’s the worse thing
to
be
lonely.