I never knew why I held on to you.
I never knew why I wanted to remember.
I never knew why I was scared of letting go.
But in the end it was because without you I was alone and to me, isolation means oblivion.
It was because I didn’t want to get washed away by the hurricanes that tore through my open wounds.
It was because I didn’t want to get lost like a paper town on a map of the places we never went.
It was because I didn’t want to be left on top of the world looking out over everyone who had forgotten me.
I was scared of being left alone in a world full of screams with no one to hold.
I was scared of being left alone with my mind full of fear with no one to explain it all to.
I was scared of oblivion,
and you were scared of having no one to blame your mistakes on.