I really am pathetic, no one has ever loved me deeply enough for it to be considered intimate and I’m feeling sorry for myself because of that. Fuck I’m just so sick of this; I eat alone, I sleep alone, I cry alone. What the hell is wrong with me, why can’t I just get over stuff and not give a fuck. I keep saying I don’t care but I do. Fucking hell, I do. I keep saying I don’t give a damn but I do. Whatever diety that existed knows I really do. I’m still human. I still feel. I still hurt and all that crap and I know it’s selfish but I really wish you could see that.
— Me (JNH). Once again I’m alone with my thoughts and they’re as beastly as ever.