Better This Way

It has been a while,
For that I am grateful,
But I wouldn’t mind,
Seeing you smile.


Attractive and nice,
Do not go together,
But those were the words you chose,
And I’ll admit, I read them twice.


You look different, but in a good way,
And seeing you again, but not by choice,
Made me remember all
The words it was too late to say.


On the fence I sat,
Wanting you to be mine,
Yet knowing it would never work,
At least, not like that.


Like a sister, you said I had become,
But where had I gone wrong?
What had made us so close, but yet to far apart?
At least this way, I could not be shunned.


You said I could’ve had a chance,
But I believe that moment has passed,
But maybe, just once,
We could have that one last dance.

A funny thing happens when you miss someone badly enough. I can be in a room full of friendly faces, surrounded by laughter and celebration, but to me, it’s all just light and noise. I’ll smile and make small talk, but it’s all a performance. The truth is, I’m someplace else with you.
—  Beau Taplin L i g h t  A n d  N o i s e 
It’s so weird how life is so full of moving around – people coming and going, people passing by each other all day long. You never know which person’s going to steal your heart. You never know which place is going to settle your soul. All you can do is look. And hope. And believe.
—  A Snicker of Magic (Natalie Lloyd)

In this,
the moment allowed to my loneliness,
Oregon becomes a pregnant hollow,
a swelling brood of
                    absence.

What more do you want from my empty heart, love?

All the longing I do is for a dead man.

I open my mouth
and his hands fall out.